Today is the day of the review and I am incredibly nervous. Not nervous about my work, because I know the guys will be great, nervous because I am scared that after today I won't work with the guys again. I know in the beginning I judged them for being in a boy band, but I have come to love and appreciate every single one of them as performers, musicians, and dancers.
When Carlos dances, he is just so happy and just so energetic. He puts 200% into every move he does. Logan he just dances with such swag and just has a fresh taste to every thing. It doesn't matter if he is doing it wrong, he makes it look right. James is just such an athletic guy, so he is very tight and specific and really just makes everything he is doing precise. And Kendall, Kendall is the best of them all. He wasn't in the beginning but he works hard and really does care about what his body is doing. And i don't mind watching him either.
I walk into the front doors of the studio to see Richie sitting at the front desk. He jumps up and runs over to and crushes me into a bear hug. "Melanie! I am so excited for you. Everybody is already in their. The guys are all warmed up and they are just waiting for you to start," he says leading me back to the room. I came from Stan's office so I wasn't able to get to see the boys before for a quick rehearsal, but I have faith in them. I walk into the blue studio and see a group of about a dozen people sitting in chairs in front of the mirror. The guys are over in the corner talking to Janet, who once she sees me runs over to me.
"Ms. Wall! I am so excited for what you are going to show us today!" I smile at her and she leads me over to the stereo, where I sit on my usual speaker and wait for her to talk. The guys set up for Elevate in the back of the room and Janet stands in front of all of the investors and business guys, as well as the managers and vision team. and starts to talk:
"Well, I am so glad you all could be here today to see all the hard work Big Time Rush has been putting in. We were blessed to be able to work with the famous Melanie Wall," she gestures to me and I get up. She waves for me to come stand by her and I follow her lead. "Melanie has been working with the guys so hard the past couple of weeks and I know the guys are just so happy with what she has created, so I shall leave the floor to her," she looks at me and gestures for me to say something.
I am in shock, so I glare at her and look at the board in front of me and clear my throat.
"So as everybody knows in this room Big Time Rush is not a dancing boy band. I mean then danced, don't get me wrong, but whether or not they knew how to dance is debatable. But now, I believe they can dance. The pieces I have been hired to choreograph for I believe are some of my best work and I hope you enjoy them," I say and walk over to my speaker/seat. Janet stands up from her seat and starts to clap.
"Well, we should get started then, should we not?" she says and motions for me to play the music.
I look at the guys who all smile at me, I take a deep breath, and press play and 'Elevate' fills the room.
The review goes great. Not perfect, but what can I say. Things don't go as well as you want them to. But I was very proud. 'Love me Love me' was the best I have ever seen it. And I know the guys were pleased with themselves.
After they danced through the set, everybody looked at me and a huge round of applause filled the room.
Janet stood up and went to hug me. She told me to go wait outside while they "deliberated" whatever that is supposed to mean, and the boys followed me out.
"Oh my god! That was such a rush!" Logan said, picking me up and hugging me. James engulfed me in a big bear hug and carlos tackled me to the ground. Kendall picked me up and twirled me around the room. I felt like I was weightless and as though nothing could stop me. Kendall put me down and kissed me, as all the guys wooded and yelled.
I broke off the kiss from laughing and looked up at Kendall who looked like he was about to say something, but just then Janet interrupted our celebration.
"You guys can come back in now," she said and we followed her back into the studio.
The entire BTR board had smiles on their faces, and Janet walked us to stand in front of them.
One older looking man with sunglasses on and a security guard standing behind him spoke up, "That was fantastic," he said. He stayed seated but continued on, "i would just like to congratulate you for all you have done and I know that with you as a part of our team Big Time Rush's next album will be the best. I would like to offer you a full time choreographers job, you are to choreograph the entire set, as well as help in all the design aspects for their upcoming tour, you will do everything from entrances, to crowd interactions, to exits. We want you to be their choreographic manager, if that is even such a thing, you have done any amazing job with my dogs and I am just so pleased," he said and got up. His security guard followed and they walked out of the room with no other word. Kendall took my hand and squeezed it tight.
Janet stood up then and said: "Wow, well I guess thats all, I will contact Stan and send you over your official BTR soundtrack!" she said and hugged me. Everyone else then decided to disperse, a few coming up to me giving me their cards and saying what a wonderful job I did. I felt like I was made of gold and nothing could make this day worse.
After all of the goodbyes, I walked over to the stereo to pick up my purse, and Kendall grabbed me by the waist. There were still a few stragglers behind who were just talking, but I wanted to get out of there. He whisper in my ear: "You are amazing," he kissed me on the cheek and grabbed my hand to walk me to my car.
"So, tonight i am taking you out," He said still holding my hand. "Be ready at 7. I will be over to pick you up," he says. By that time we are at my car and he opens my door for me.
"What should I wear?" I ask curious to what he has planned.
"Something nice," he says with a mysterious smile and shuts my door. He waves to me as I back out and I can't help but flash an ecstatic smile to myself in my rearview mirror as I drive away.
It is 658pm and I am sitting on my floor in front of the news once again. I keep twisting and twiddling with my fingers. I have never been nervous going on a date like this, but Kendall just puts me on edge. And it's not because he is crazy or dangerous, but he is just so unlike anyone I have ever fallen for, he is a gentleman.
At 700 on the dot, my door buzzes. I get up and go over to the speaker, saying I will be down, but he cuts me off saying he has to give me something, so I buzz him in.
About two minutes later, he is knocking on my door and I rush to answer it, and there Kendall Schmidt stands with a huge bouquet of Sunflowers and a just as huge smile on his face.
"Sunflowers?" I ask.
"yeah, I figured you for a sunflower girl, roses just didn't seem right," he says leaning in for a kiss.
"Well, you guessed right, they are my favorite!" I say taking them inside to put them in some water.
"I also wanted to give you this," he says and hands me a CD that says "For Mel ONLY!" written on it.
"What's this?" I ask.
"A CD I recorded of all the songs I have written about you since I met you, and this is just the first one I am sure there will be many more after this," he says.
I take it from his hand and put it on my island counter to be listened to later. "Thanks," I say and look back at him.
He stares me up and down, as if he didn't see me before through the flowers, and there is a twinkle in his eye. I look up at him and he cracks a smile, "You look, you look too beautiful for words," he says and pulls me into a hug and kisses me on the top of my head.
I am surprised by his gesture and hug him back. He lets go and I look at what he is wearing. A pair of nice khakis with a blue plaid button up and a thin tie. He paired it all with his usual vans. I decided, after hours of deliberation, to wear my favorite white loose dress, it hangs low on the arms so I wore my favorite-non-sports bra- black lace bra so it peaks out just enough for a little taste. I paired it with a gold belt and a beige cardigan over top. I am wearing my gold flats and put my favorite gold headband in my hair. I went very natural with my make-up and just put a little gold glitter with some eye-liner on my eyes and then a nude lip.
I smile up at him and grab my black bag, with gold accents to match it all. "So where are we going?" I ask. He holds out his arm for me to take it and guides me to the door.
"Well, it's a surprise that you are just going to have to patiently wait for."
We end up in Venice Beach, at a very small eclectic, hipster restaurant. Kendall told me that this is his favorite restaurant in all the world. It takes almost two months to get a reservation because it is so small, but the food is to die for.
"So how did you get the reservation? You couldn't have guessed that I was going to say yes to a date two months ago," I say as we walk hand in hand to the front door, where there is a line of people hoping that someone won't show up to their reservation so that they can get in.
Kendall laughs and says "I have my connections." We skip past the line of hungry people of dates and go straight through the front door. Kendall says hello to the hostess and ask if Dustin can seat us. She goes to find whoever this Dustin is and I ask Kendall who is seating us.
"Dustin is my brother, he is the founder of this restaurant, and when I told him I was bringing a date tonight he cleared a table for us," he says.
"Why? do you do this with all your dates?" I say skeptically.
"No," he says and sighs, "I have never actually let a girl meet anyone from my family before," he says. I blush and feel special.
Kendall lets go of my hand when a brown haired guy with the same piercing green eyes walks up to us and takes his younger brother in his arms. He punches him on the arm after they hug and says: "How did you snag a girl like this?" he says and then hugs me.
I blush again and hug him back. He then takes my arm and leaves Kendall to trail behind us as he takes us to our table. The inside of the restaurant is very dark, but very small. Every table has someone sitting their and there is a huge window over looking the ocean at night. Dustin leads me to the best table in the whole room, right next to the window but in the corner so it makes it seem very private, as though no one knows we are there. Dustin pulls my chair out for me and gives Kendall a thumbs up. Kendall rolls his eyes at his brother and takes his seat. He gives both of us a menu and winks at me when he says that he will be back later.
"Sorry about my brother," Kendall says and looks at his menu.
I look over my own menu at Kendall and just smile.
After we order our food and drinks Kendall just sits there across from me staring at me. I look out at the window and blush. "What are you staring at me for?" I say and the look back at him.
"Just you, and who beautiful you are," he says with a smile.
"God, Kendall, you are like the only person in the world who can make me blush," I say and he takes my hand and kisses it just like a prince.
"Thats what I am here for darling."
"So you are just here to give me compliments and make me blush," I say trying to flirt.
"You say that as if you have never been given compliments," he says with a sad look in his eye.
"I didn't necessarily have the best dating life and I still don't," I say looking down at our hands still intertwined.
He scoffs and sits forward looking in my eyes. "I promise that I will make sure that you are kissed, and complimented, and loved every second of every day, and I promise you if I don't fulfill that then I will have failed as a man," he says kissing the inside of my palm.
I swear it is as if there is no one else in the world. I am drowning in his eyes and don't want to look away, but Dustin comes up to the table with our food and I take my hand out of his. Kendall smiles at me through out the time we eat.
The food at the restaurant, of which I don't even know the name of, (I think it might be called the rabbit hole) is just like Kendall said: to die for. By the time I finish I am stuffed, and about ready to take a nap. After we eat desert and Kendall pays despite him always paying and me always offering, he takes my hand and we go down to the beach we just looked over during our dinner.
Kendall sits down on the sand and helps me down. He places me in his lap, in between his legs so that I don't get sand on me. He kisses my ear and holds me as we both look at the ocean.
I have never felt so safe, so protected, and so loved than I have in that moment, and being with Kendall that close to the water is just makes me feel like I am invincible.
I look up at him and kiss him hard, twisting around to straddle him. I hold both sides of his face as he holds my back and waist. I break the kiss and look in his eyes. "Let's go swimming," I say.
He gives me a surprised look and opens his mouth to say something, but I put a finger over his lips and nod at him. "Are you sure?" he whispers at me and I nod again. I roll off of him and run down to the ocean and just before I touch the water I strip of my cardigan and dress and throw my shoes in the sand and Kendall runs up behind me. He also strips off his shirt and tie and throws his pants and shoes off. He takes my hand and looks at me.
And then we run in, clad in only our underwear into the cold Pacific Ocean. I dive under, with my hand still in Kendall's and I swim around with him. I climb onto his back and kiss his cheek. And he spins me around. We wade their in our underwear for a good ten minutes and it feels so good to actually swim after so many years of being afraid. But with Kendall I feel like I can face the world. Kendall faces me and pulls me close. We are within shallow standing feet, but the water is up to my shoulders.
"so, you know how you have a ton of macho italian brothers?" he says and i nod.
"Well, maybe it's a good thing that you don't talk to them so they won't come after me because I am in love with you," he says. I look down at the water, but he holds my chin. "You don't have to say anything, I just want you to know. I love you, Mel and I think I always have. And I know it hasn't been that long, but I do. I love you!" He yells into the sky, still holding my chin so I look in his eyes. I reach my arms around his neck and kiss him. I wrap my legs around his waist and look up at him.
"I love you too," I whisper.
"Really?" he says and I nod and then he kisses my already swollen lips and we just stand there in the middle of the ocean kissing, in love, together.