Author's note: This is the fight about which I mentioned in my first story : A death game.
In that I have written how Tarika tries make Abhijit confess. Its chapter 5: Taunting memories.
Time 8 pm.
Tarika: Daya tum ussey kaho ki mein yahaan huin aur tab thak mein ghar nahi jaugi tab thak wo yahaan nahi ayegaa.
Tarika: I don't care about time. I don't know how you make him come here.
Tarika cut her call. She was standing in the beach near the water. She started walking along the water.
Tarika(muttering to herself): Kya samjhatha hai ye apne aap ko. Phele wo mere pichey padatha aur aab Hmmmm….. Kabi kabi lagtha hai I know everything about him and sometimes he is so new to me.
She left out a hard sigh venting all her anger out.
Tarika(thinking): Aaj sey two weeks hogaya hai since I have seen Abhijit. He never comes to lab or if I go to bureau he walks away from there. He does not call me regularly. Call tho dur ki baath message be nahi kartha hai. Jab I tried calling him he never picks up. Agar ghalthi sey utaa bhi leta hai tho
"Abhijit: Sorry mujhe bahut kaam hai. Baad mey." (Tarika said mimicking Abhijit).
And doesn't even reply to any of my messages. Why is he behaving like this to me and only to me? Kya samjhtha hai ye Bandar apney aapko.
Tarika 1: Bandar? Tarika tum usko Abhijit ko Bandar bol rahi ho.
Tarika(angry): Haan. Bandar Bandar. Tho kya hua? Nahi wo tho langoor hai.
Tarika 1: Langoor. Tarika !
Tarika: Ek number ka dhakan. Phale lab ka chakar chalatha tha bina koi wahaj ke. Tarifen sunatha tha. Tarika ji ye Tarika ji wo. Phir jab hum bhi unsey pyaar karney lagey tho (shying) hmm kitney kush they. (Again getting angry) Magar thab bhi ek baar bhi apna pyaar ko kha he nahi. Sr Inspector Abhijit theen words bol nahi sakey. Wahh. Ab patha nahi kyun avoid karney lagey. Aakir chal kya raha hai uskey mann mey. Samjhtha kya hai apney aap ko.
Tarika sits down and keeps her head on her knees and hugging it. Tarika after venting out all her anger became sad. She felt lonely.
Tarika(to herself): Pehel baar meiney kisi pey trust kiya. Pyaar kiya.
Tarika 1: Tarika uske pass kuch tho kaaran hoga?
Tarika: Agar ho tho batha saktha hai naa.(sniffing) Ye yesey yesey aadi raasthey paar haath kyun chod raha hai.
Tarika 1: Please control yourself.
Tarika: Control yourself. Wohi tho kar rahi thi for past two weeks. Abb nahi. I am tired. I am tired and sick of him. Jab mein akele thi tho itna dard nahi hua tha. Abb jab koi aaya hai aur bina koi wajaha sey chod jatha hai tho dil bari pad jatha hai. Itna dard hotha hai ki marne ka dard bhi bahut kam hai. Ji chatha hai ki mar hi jaun.
Tarika 1: Don't worry Tarika. Mein hoon naa.
Tarika(smiling sadly): Umm.. Patha hai usney bhi yahi kaha tha. " Main hoon na". Ab who bhi nahi hai. Mujhe bahut akela pan mehasushotha hai. I still try Tarika. I have tried lots of time to talk to him. Ask him what is bothering him. Magar usney kabhi muh dikake, aankh mila ke baath hi nahi ki. He has become so cold with me. He doesn't even let me near him let alone inside him.
Tarika 1: Everything will be fine Tarika.
Tarika: Fine hmmhmm. Fine my foot. Mein tho din raath ye soch soch ke thak gayi huin ki aakir uskey satha kya hogaya hai. Mein ney Daya sey bhi baath ki magr us dakan ne Daya ko hi kuch nahi bathaaya tho wo mujhe kya bathayega. Mujhe daar lagrah hai ki if I have done something wrong.
Tarika 1: No. This can't be.
Tarika: Nahi he is so sensitive. He must have taken something seriously which I must have said has joke. Agar yesey hotho why doesn't he say to me freely. I will change myself. Anything for him.
Tarika 1: Hmm..
Tarika: Patha hai jada dard kab hotha hai? Thab jab he completely ignores me and walks past me as if I don't exist in this world and he doesn't know me. Thab jab who mere saath hothey huey bhi nahi hotha.
Tarika 1: Tarika but I think he still loves you.
Tarika: Itna hone ke baad bhi your saying that he loves me…
Tarika 1: I have seen in his eyes. Jab bhi tum uske samney aathi ho who kil jatha hai magar jaldi hi wo cold ho jathaa hai. Yaad hai Daya ne bhi kaha ki aaj kal wo ghar pe bahut shaanth hotha hai. Baath hi nahi kartha. And that he is acting normal only at work place. At home he is sad and moody.
Tarika: Agar wo pyaar kartha hai wo ussey accept karney mein tayar kyun nahi hai. Mujhe tho bahuth daravaney sapney aarahey hain. Ki wo mujhe chod ke kisi aur sey pyaar kartha hai.
Tarika 1: Chup pagali. Yesey kuch nahi hai. You're just imagining too much.
Tarika: Fir kyun…. Why this is happening to me….
Abhijit had come a few minutes before. Has he saw the slumped figure of her his heart skipped beats. He just stood there for a while. He saw her fighting with her emotions and he cursed himself for bringing her to this situation. He went closer to her and was about to touch her shivering body.
Tarika felt him near her. She looked up and saw him. She saw the pain the same pain in his eyes. She got up. Abhijit seeing tears falling went forward to wipe. Tarika backed away, turned to other side and wiped her tears away. She then turned back to face him. As she turned and looked at his eyes he looked down in shame.
Abhijit: Itni der yahaan kya kar rahey ho. Bahut thand hai, tumhe kasi hojayegi. Aur bahut sun saan bhi hai, agar tumhey kuch hogaya tho….
He left in mid sentence as he acknowledges that he was worrying for her. He turned back.
Tarika(thinking): Tum itna fikr karthey ho tho fir kyun …..
Tarika(softly): Abhijit…
Silence prevailed between them for some time. Only the sound of waves and wind is there.
Tarika went and stood before him. She couldn't see his hung face. But she could feel his pain.
Tarika(softly) : Abhijit please mujhe dheko.
Still no response from him.
Tarika(lifting his face):Abhijit tumhe hua kya hai.
Abhijit saw the love pouring out from her eyes. He couldn't resist her her. He had hard time covering his love from surfacing. He was trying to keep the expressionless face before her. Abhijit then removed her hands from his face taking care not to be rougher or too soft.
Abhijit: Tarika tum ghar jao.
Tarika: Nahi Abhijit I won't go till I get answers to my questions.
Abhijit: Tarika, kya hua hai tumhey.
Tarika: That is what I want to know Abhijit. Akir hua kya hai tumhe. Why are you avoiding me?Why are you treating me like stranger?
Abhijit(seeing here and there except her face): Tarika tum kya baath kar rahi ho. I don't get you.
Tarika: Don't lie to me Abhijit. You know exactly what I am talking about.
Abhijit turned around and walked towards the water. Tarika got angry. She walked and stood before him.
Tarika: Javaab dow Abhijit. Why are you going away from me?
Abhijit was silent still. He didn't know what to tell. His mind was fighting. His thoughts were conflicting. His emotions were combating each other. His head was pounding hard.
Tarika( slowly and steadily): Abhijit kya tum ne….. tum ne mujhe apne life sey nikaal diya?
Abhijit looked at her perplexed. She was calm. But her mind was wild just like the sea behind her.
Tarika: Bathao Abhijit.
Abhijit mustered all the energy.
Abhijit(shouting over the sound of waves): Haan.
Tarika was shocked totally shocked. Her legs were shaking. She felt sick and weak.
Abhijit: Haan I have removed you from my life. I shouldn't have come behind you in the first place.
Tarika(swallowing ): Per kyun? What did I do wrong? Did I hurt you? I am sorry Abhijit agar meiney ghalthi ki ho tho. I didn't do anything in purpose. Please Abhijit tell me what did I do. I will surely rectify it and won't do such a thing again.
Abhijit felt horrible at himself seeing the way how Tarika was pleading like a child before him. He couldn't keep the secret any more. His heart went out to her. He wanted to hug her and say "please don't cry. I am there for you. I will take care of everything." He couldn't he can't …
Abhijit saw her face again he lost. He lost to her and in her.
Abhijit: Please Tarika. It's not your fault. I am not worthy of you. Everything is wrong with me. I can't keep you happy Tarika.
Tarika was confused. She couldn't find out why he was thinking so low about him. Why he is thinking like this in first place?
Tarika: Who told you? Who told you that you're not capable for me?
Abhijit(like small child): I know. I find out myself.
Tarika(composing): Acha tho Sr Inspector Abhijit saab ne kesey find out kiya. Jara humme bhi bathaiye ga.
Abhijit(in low tone and remembering an incident): Wo jab last month Fredy ko goli lagi thi and when he was hospitalized , bhabhi ji bahut ghabrayi gayi thi . She was crying till Fredy became alright. She was in unbearable pain. And I don't want to you to…
Tarika(continued): To see me in such pain. Magar Abhijit…..
Abhijit looked up and continued.
Abhijit: Tarika CID ke kaam mein kab kya hoga kisi ko bhi patha nahi chalega. Khabhi kuch bhi mission aajayega aur hume jana padega. Kab sey khahaan sey goli agyegi aur humari seen chuke jayegi patha nahi hoga. Agar aaj ghar sey nikaley tho patha bhi nahi ki hum fir sey lautengey ya nahi. Aaj is waqt I am alive but next minute I may not…
Tarika kept her hand on his mouth.
Tarika: Shh shh. Abhijit yesey math bolo.
Abhijit(removing her hand): Tarika this the truth. Agar hum kal ek saath hongey tho mere jaaney ke baad tumhara kya hoga. I already don't have a guaranteed life. I don't want to risk your life too because I ..I..
Tarika expected him say it. But Abhijit stopped. Tarika saw the love pouring out from his eyes.
Tarika(thinking):He is so possessive and thought so much about me. For me. Tum mere liye apni life ko narga banahey keliye tayar ho Abhijit. Nahi Abhijit. Jab sey I started loving you I promised to keep you happy always. Meine tumhe chodney keliye nahi balki tumhare har dhuk mein saath dene ka shapth li hai Abhijit.
Tarika: Abhijit itni sey baath. Abhijit mujhe patha hai what problems I have to undergo if I want to live rest of my life with you. Mujhe garv hoga Abhijit kabi dhuk nahi. Tik hai. Agar if I die before you? Then… Abhijit mauth kab bhi kisi ko bhi aa saktha hai. Even I can die before you….
Abhijit: Please. Please Tarika don't argue with me. I have made my mind. And I won't change it at any cost.
Tarika: You can't say like this Abhijit. Agar tumhe chodney ka irada tha tho pichey kyun aaye? Humaara dil kyun bhelaya.
Abhijit: I told know everything was a mistake. People in my position can never get married. It's my fault.
Tarika(controlling her emotions): Tho you don't have any relationship with me. You have thrown me out of your life. HmmHmm Ok. Say it once by seeing my eyes and I will leave you.
Abhijit(mustering all the strength)(looking at her eyes): I am sorry Tarika it's over….
The last two words felt like knife piercing into her heart and making it into small pieces. She walked back in shock. She wasn't steady. A big wave came and made her imbalance. She was about to fall so she closed her eyes tight. Before she could fall two strong pair of hands held her by her waist. Abhijit pulled her up. They were standing close to each other. Tarika opened her eyes slowly and looked into two pairs of worried brown eyes. Those eyes which relived at once knowing that she was safe. Those eyes which never told her lies. Eyes which spoke volumes of love for her.
Abhijit left her and ran away. He left his guard down. He let his love for her surface. She saw him naked with all his fears and love which he never showed her. Abhijit ran till he reached a safe distance from her and left out his breath which he was holding till then.
Abhijit: I am extremely sorry Tarika. I do love you very much. But you have to forget me. I don't want to hurt you Tarika. I am sorry. I am sorry.
Tarika: I did had a doubt before. But I am confirmed now. Abhijit you do love me. But Abhijit you're scared to accept your love. I saw it in your eyes. Tumhare aankhe kabhi mujhe dhokha nahi dey sakthi.
(grining mischeiiously) Aur mujhe patha hai ki tumhe line pe kesey lana hai. Ab dhekho tarika ka kamaal.
Tarika smiled for the first time after two weeks.
Author's note: Hope you guys liked this chapter. Especially, the person who gave me this idea. Thank you yaar. Hope it met your expectations. If you any of you guys have any Abhirika moments to share please write your ideas under MOMENTS topic in ABHIRIKA forum.