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I know its been a while since I updated this story, just never really figured out how to end it. I was rereading the first chapter when the episode The Wheaton Recurrence came on the TV and it inspired me to finish this story. This is the last chapter. This is mostly from Leonard's point of view.

Enjoy!

Leonard's eyes slowly opened and took in his surroundings. He wasn't really sure of where he was as he sat up in a daze. It didn't take him long to figure out that he was in Penny's apartment still. Taking his glasses off and rubbing the sleep away from his eyes, he thought back to his and Penny's talk that they had had earlier.

After it seemed like they had talked for hours on end about nothing really, anything other than the break up, Leonard remembered they had put on a movie. He didn't remember what one it was. He had watched Penny the whole time. Her face was animated whenever it came to watching TV or a movie, he found. She would put her whole self into it; laughing loudly at the funny parts, crying at the sad, screaming at a surprising part and so on. He could just watch her for hours. She was much more entertaining to watch then any TV show or movie that was on the screen. Putting his glasses back on, he glanced over his shoulder at Penny; who was fast asleep still, her body pressed up against the back of the couch. They had both fallen asleep shortly after the movie had finished.

Leonard couldn't help but smile at the sight of her. He couldn't get over how beautiful she was to him, even when she was asleep. The smile quickly faded into a frown as a sudden thought popped into his head. That this would probably the last time he would get to see Penny like this, asleep.

They were broken up now. No longer lovers. No longer soul mates. Just friends. Best friend but still just friends.

He hadn't wanted it to end like this. He had always envisioned them getting married and having beautiful, smart babies together. But now he knew that it wouldn't be happening. She did not feel the same way that he did. He didn't want to have to settle but he knew it would be better then losing her all together from his life. He knew it would be painful seeing around the apartment on Halo night and other nights when the gang was hanging out together. That he wouldn't be able to hold her hand while watching Star Trek or kissing her during commercial breaks. That things would go back to being how it was before hand, awkward. How could things not be after the eight months they had been together as a couple?

But he was willing to try to get over the awkwardness and shyness that would appear between them. It was better then losing her all together. She was still one of his closets friends. His best friend despite what Sheldon would say. She was his best friend. He didn't have many friends in is life to begin with. He couldn't face losing one. So they agreed to be friends.

Leaning down, he kissed her softly on the cheek, "Goodbye Penny!" He whispered, looking down at her sleeping face once more before quietly leaving the apartment. He knew he should never tell some one goodbye but in this case he didn't know when he would be seeing her again. They had agreed to be friends but he assumed that they wouldn't be hanging out any time soon. He could feel tears welding in his eyes. But forced himself not to cry until he was in the privacy of his own bedroom.

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Opening his own apartment door, he stood in the doorframe for a moment before entering. He was glade to see that Sheldon was not home. He had mentioned earlier to him that morning that he would be heading down to the comic book store with Howard and Raj. Leonard couldn't remember that well the conversation that the two roommates had had. The morning seemed so long ago now as he threw his keys into the bowl and shut the front door. Not bothering to take off his shoes, he walked through the apartment to his bedroom.

Even know he didn't have to worry about being interrupted, he still shut the door firmly behind him before he threw himself face down onto the surface of the bed. He didn't not bother taking off his glasses as he pressed his face into the mattress, letting his tears fall.

He had been heart broken before. But nothing like this. His heart felt like someone had squeezed it in between their fingers before letting it crumble to dust.

"AGAHHH!" he screamed out in frustration as he turned his head and pounded his fist against the mattress.

After Penny had left the bowling Alley, he had bowled terribly, costing the guys the bowling tournament. But he hadn't really cared that much about it to begin with. Sheldon had been the only one really determined to beat his enemy Will Wheaton. All he could think of was Penny. He had wished now that he had gone after her, and not let her run away like she had. He thought how things might have been different if he had. That they would had made up and be together still. However, he had let her go. Letting himself be a coward in away. He had thought about going to her apartment earlier last night, when they had arrived home. But he knew she wouldn't have let him in. That what was done was done. When Penny had invited him in this morning, he had thought that maybe, just maybe she had changed her mind. And that she was ready to love him like he loved her. But that had not been the case.

And now he was once again alone. He wondered as he lay there on his bed, that he would ever win in this game called loved. That for once he would get it right and find someone who cared about him the way he did about them. That he would finally be the guy worth fighting for. Instead of being just the friend.

Okay, I know it was short. I hoped you enjoyed reading though. Reviews are always welcome, good or bad!

Thanks,

Julie