I woke up to the crunching noses of Cristina and Owen´s bed. I barely got 4 hours of sleep, I just sat in the couch she gave me thinking about what could happen in the future. And I know I like her, very much, but does she feel the same way?
She made it pretty clear she only wanted to be my friend and I was ok with that then but now things are different. I guess I´ve had these feelings inside me for a long time and Mere made me notice I had actually had them. But then in the couch thinking about Jo and my feelings for her, I remembered how much pain I experienced when Izzie left me, Those were the worst days of my life, worse than when I got shot and I took the stairs for a few weeks. I guess love hurts.
I´ve been wanting to call Jo all day and just talk to her or just hear her breathe, but I knew she was busy in the hospital with pre rounds and intern stuff. I´ve got today off and she gets off in two hours. Two hours where I can actually plan what I´m going to say to her and not think about her. I want to be together with her now but I have to take it slow or she will just think im crazy. I had the idea of making her dinner but I don´t cook and that is too romantic for now.
I get up and call the pizza place and check if I have enough beer in the fridge, and I do. I actually enjoy living with Jo and I don´t mind Cristina or Avery. The pizza is here and I place it on the small coffee table with the beer, I start thinking in what im gonna say to her and then I noticed I haven´t had sex in like, since in I´m friends with Jo. That means something right? I guess I could bring it up when Im talking to her.
I hear the door open and I jump out of the couch and almost feel like my heart is pounding out of my chest, and there she is, she looks beautiful and her hair looks perfect considering the fact she has been wearing a scrub cap all night. She looks tired and without even glancing at me she runs to the couch and starts telling me what she did tonight and how a patient... What did she say?
-ALEX? HELLOOOO? ¡ALEX!?
She screams and then I realize I wasn´t hearing her. I just don´t know what to do. I needed to tell her how I feel.
-I ordered some pizza and there was some beer in the fridge so...
-¡Oh thank you, I am so hungry I have been running post ops all night and I didn´t even have the time to go to a vending machine!
-(I scratch my head thinking of something casual to say). Well, I figured you would be hungry.
She then stares at me.
- Alex? what´s wrong? ¡You are like in you´re own world right now! Should I go pop that bubble you are living in now? ¡Here I come
She comes running to me and throws herself on me and we both land on my mattress. She then starts laughing and I stare into her crystal eyes. I have this urge to kiss her but there is no way she would kiss me back If I don´t tell her how I feel, she is not like any girl I´ve met before. We start talking and eating. A few minutes later we finish the pizza and we are surrounded by our laughter.
-Jo, I really need to talk to you about something.
-¡Me too! There was this odd patient who...
-No, Jo, It´s serious, for me.
-Oh... Did something happen? If I have to move out I totally understan...
-No, Jo, please listen.
-Oh, Alex I´m sorry you know I´m here for you, you don´t even have to say it.
She then grabs my hands and smiles, And I think this is it, I have to tell her now.
-Jo…