Jo... I try to sum up what I´m going to say to her but I just can´t tell her right now. What was I thinking?
Thanks, I finally murmur shrugging. I then close my eyes and try to sleep. I guess I did fall asleep cause I wake up to Jo making breakfast. It smells like syrup and fresh fruit.
- I made some waffles, you looked very agitated last night so, what a better way to start the day than having waffles with you´re awesome friend.
- I didn´t pick you for the cooking type, Wilson. I say smirking.
- Well, I got the mix out of a box, Who doesn´t love waffles?
Cristina comes running down the stairs and into the kitchen.
- ¡I smell food! she says. What a miracle. The last time the house smelled like this was when Izzie lived here.
-Well, they are out of a box, I say.
- I don´t care what they are as long as they are edible. There is never anything edible in this house.
She then grabs a waffle, gets her stuff and runs out the house to go to work.
Jo looks at the clock.
- ¡Oops, I´m gonna be late! ¡See you in the halls today, maybe we can sneak some food out of the nurses lounge again!, Oh and remember you have to tell me what you were supposed to tell me last night, I´m not pressuring you but it will help you feel better. Tell me when you´re ready, !See ya!.
She then heads out of the kitchen and I hear the main door close. I stare at my waffle, unable to eat it because my head is full, I close my eyes and then I hear my pager go off. I put my jacket on and I start walking towards the hospital thinking about how she may react if I tell her soon. I really have been trying to keep feelings out of my life cause the last time I let them In, It was incredible at first but in the end it was too much and I couldn´t handle all the pain. But I thought, not everything is perfect and if something feels this good, it can´t be bad.
I walk into the hospital and check on my patients, later I perform and appendectomy Well, actually I supervise it and let Jo perform it. She is awesome in the OR. We scrub out and we are on our way to the cafeteria.
-Good work, Wilson, I say taping her back.
-Thank YOU for letting me perform it, ¡You´re the best!
She then hugs me and I hug her back. She backs away fast, grabs my hand and takes me into the linens room.
- What are we doing here? I ask.
- I just wanted to chill out in a linens closet... I´m joking, Alex you need to tell me what is worrying you, I´m not fond of the linens room but I guess this is a safe place where you can tell me.
- I put my hands on my hips and smirk.
- I´m okay, I guess I was drunk yesterday. You know, we did have a few beers. I say.
- I had the same amount of beers you had, and I didn´t get drunk, you are hiding something Karev. You need to let it out.
I then sit down and lean my head against the wall and Jo sits beside me staring at me for an answer, I guess.
- Well, look, I´ve been feeling different these past days and I really can´t stop thinking about you. I´m feeling happier now than I have in years, you can make me feel very happy and I can´t go on with my life if I don´t tell you how I feel about you. I think I´m falling in love with you, I say teary eyed staring at the wall against me waiting for her to say something. She looks at me with an amazed face and I look at her and I can´t hold the urge of kissing her any longer. I grab her head and our noses are touching, then she puts her hand on the back of my head, grabs my hair and puts her lips on mine, they are soft and warm and better than what I imagined. We start kissing passionately and then we are on the floor making out, And I wish this moment would last forever, I don´t know what is going to happen when she pulls away, cause I´m not going to.
I wonder if she feels the same way like I do now, I can´t find a better word for describing this, bittersweet. It´s bittersweet because it´s probably one of the best moments in my life now but I don´t know what it will be later. We then stop kissing but we are very close and we are looking at eachother and I can see through her, I see the beauty she has inside, all her virtues and how she didn´t want me for sex, she genuinely liked me, after a while of looking into her, I feel like I´m drowning in love and I wish I knew what she was thinking. She doesn´t say anything but she smiles a smile that I can see she is genuinely happy and I feel something spark inside me. Maybe she really likes me. She then puts her head on my shoulder and our fingers are intertwined. I wish this moment could last forever.