Chapter 5: (Just to let some of you know, a couple of time Parker is called by her real first name Randi, and Dean is referred as Jon, his former ring name and his real name, to just didn't want to confuse you guys, hope you like this story, feel free to wrote a review negative or positive. I also switched the setting to Tampa Florida.)
I woke up to the smell of sausage and eggs. I got up and put my hair in a sloppy bun and went down stairs. "Hey sleepy head, you hungry, I made breakfast." Roman said as he saw me enter the kitchen. "I could go for a omelet if you don't mind Roman." I asked sitting down at the table. "Not at all, want anything in it, we have sausage, bacon, ham and cheese." is said looking in the refrigerator. "Ugh, ham and cheese please." I said as I saw Paige pour me a cup of coffee. "Coming right up sweetie." Roman said with a smile. "How did you sleep last night, you kept tossing and turning." Paige said as she handed me my coffee. "I couldn't stop thinking about Dean, everything he said to me kept going through my mind like a video." I said before I took my first sip of coffee.
"Well today is a fun day. We are going out for some girl time, and Emma is coming." she said as Roman handed me my omelet. "We aren't going to bring the D word up what so ever." she said referring to Dean, which just made me think of him."I don't know if you brought some clothes, if not you can grab something from my closet. I don't think you want to wear that again today." she said as I finished the omelet Roman made me. "All of the clothes in my car are dirt, do you mind picking something out for me." I asked as I took another sip of my coffee. "Sure, once you are done with your coffee just come upstairs." Paige said as she put her plate and cup in the sink and disappeared upstairs.
"Hey Roman, can I ask you a question." I said going up to the sink, where he started washing the dishes Paige had just put in. "Absolutely." he said. "I know I shouldn't care, but can you talk to Dean, I know what he said to me, but I said some nasty things to him too, and I just want to make sure he is okay, you know how he gets in his moods." I asked him, the last thing I wanted was Dean doing something to himself, I'd never forgive myself. "Yeah, if he isn't at the gym, I'll call him, and no need to explain, I understand." he said flashing me a smile. "Thank you Roman, you have been so nice, Paige is a lucky girl." I said giving him a hug. "Not a problem at all, and if you want, you can leave you bag here, I'll do the laundry when I get back from the gym okay." Roman said finishing up the dishes. "No, you don't have to, I'm a big girl, I'll do it when we get back." I said as I was about to leave the kitchen. "You sure I don't mind at all." Roman said drying his hands. "I'm sure, I'm gonna go upstairs I'm sure Paige is waiting for me." I said as I saw Roman nod his head.
As I got upstairs I went straight to the bedroom, "He you in here Paige." I walked into the door. "In the closet I got a towel and toothbrush for you if you want to hop in the shower." she said behind her closet door. She threw the towel on the bed, and the toothbrush followed. OI grabbed them and went to the bathroom. I took a quick shower and got out and dried off. I brushed my teeth, and then dried my hair. Put it up in a ponytail and turned around to walk out the door. "aah, damn Paige, let a girl know if your gonna come in." I said having felt my heart skipped a beat. "Sorry, I didn't mean to frighten you, just wanted to give you some clothes." she was laughing after she handed me them. "and hurry up, Emma's here." I quickly threw the clothes she had given me, and went into the bedroom and threw on my chucks, the one's Dean got me for my birthday. He had them customized. They were my favorite color purple, with one of my tattoos on the sides. Everyone who saw them loved them and wanted to know where I got them from.
I went downstairs and met up with Paige by the door, Roman came by and gave us each hugs before we left. Me and him have had a brother/sister relationship since we meet. Same with Seth, I hate how Dean would think I would cheat on him with his friends.
We left and went to Emma's Jeep. I went in the back, and Paige hopped in the front. "To the mall" Emma said. I stared out the window, Emma and Paige were talking about what stores they wanted to go to. "Charlotte Russe, if you don't mind Parker, I know girly isn't really your style." Paige turned and asked. She was right, I never dressed like a girl much. I barely owned any dresses, and skirts are no where near my closet. I have always been a jeans and t-shirt kind of girl. As long as I had my chucks and my ball cap I didn't care. "Not at all, their not as bad as Forever 21." I said laughing knowing that was Emma's favorite store. I'd love to poke fun at Emma, she would start using Australian slang, same with Paige, but in her case British. The best part is when I would say an American idiom and they'd both look at me like I have five heads.
By the time I realized it, we were already at the mall. It was a wonder Paige wasn't broke, with how close the mall is to her. We managed to find a parking spot. I asked Paige to hold my wallet in her bag, I never carried a purse, I usually put it in my duffel bag, but who brings one of those to the mall. We went in through a sears, walked around until we found Charlotte Russe. "Here ya go Paige, lets see if we can find something sexy for Parker." Emma said as she grabbed my wrist, pulling me into the store. "Parker doesn't do sexy." I said almost tripping. "Come on just try on stuff please, you don't have to buy anything if you don't want to." Paige said. "Fine, but if you put anything flowery or pink within ten feet of my body, I will hurt you." they began to smile. "Okay let's go get some stuff." Emma said as they both grabbed my wrist and asked me what I liked. "How about I go over to the seats, pick what ever you want and I'll try it on, Emma, Paige knows my size just ask her. And remember what I said about flowers and pink." I screamed the last part as the rushed to begin picking out things. I began thinking to myself.
I have so odd friends, But I love them and they are always their for me. Paige didn't have to be so nice to me last night, she could have said no. And Roman, he has been awesome too, Paige is so lucky to have him. Ugh, I have to find somewhere to sleep tonight. I just want to sleep in my bed. I want Dean to hold me and tell me he loves me, we haven't been happy in so long. Every thing has suffered, me, him, our sex life is nonexistent. I just can't put up with all the accusations, why doesn't he get that I love him and I would never hurt him. Ugh, come one Randi, stop thinking about him. He is hurting you, you didn't do anything to him for him to start accusing you of everything. Ugh stop thinking about him, you sound like a thirteen year old girl, ugh where the hell id Paige and Emma.
I soon as I said that, they come walking up with mounds of clothes in their hands. "Do you want me to try on the entire store. How are they even going to fit into the dressing room." I said "I can help you with that, there is a bigger dressing room in the back, we use it for a hang out spot, but theirs a door, just lock it, its huge, all three of you can go in their." the store manger said. "Do you mind if I ask for an autograph, I love you three." she had a huge smile on her face. "Sure, Michelle," I looked at her name tag. "Do you mind giving us a hand with this. I wouldn't want them to fall over trying to get to the back." I joked taking half of the clothes out of Paige's arms so she could stop leaning."Absolutely, it is my job after all." she joked taking half of Emma's pile. She walked us to the back and told us to set the clothes on the chairs. "If you need any help just come out and ask me." she said as she left the room.
"Okay we want you to try this on first." Paige said as she handed me a purple mini dress. I must have tried on a hundred outfits. But I liked a lot of them, especially this white flowy skirt with a black studded and strapless tube top, with a distressed jean jacket and a pair of motorcycle boots. "This is cute, a little girly but I still like it" I said twirling around in it. My phone went off, I saw it was a text from Roman, Hey, talked to Dean at the gym, he's in a mood, but he didn't do anything stupid. I told him you were staying at mine and Paige's for a while. He want to know if it was okay to call or come by later so you two can talk. I just slumped in the couch and put my face in my hands. "What's wrong Parker." Emma said immediately coming over and sitting next to me. "I had Roman make sure Dean was okay when he went to the gym, and he just texted me saying Dean wants to meet up with me or call me and I have no idea what I should do." I said laying the back of my head on the top of the couch. "Well, do you want to see him." Paige said sitting on the ottoman in-front of me. "Yes, but I don't want to go out in public, just in case we start fighting." I said trying to think of somewhere we could talk.
"How about this, tell Dean to come over to my house, you guys can go in the back yard and talk, there are not neighbors around to hear you guys fight if you do." Paige said rubbing my knees. "Thank you Paige you have been so amazing since last night, I owe you big time." I said giving her a hug. "Well, wear this outfit, and consider it a deal." she joked. "Deal, plus I do love it."
Emma went to get the person who has been helping us, Michelle. "What would you like us to help you put some of these clothes back, and she wants to buy the outfit she's wearing." Emma said pointing to me. "Not a problem, I can take the security tags off here, and just take the price tag off and I'll scan them and you can use the bag and shoe box for your clothes and shoes. As for the clothes as long as you put most of them back, I have the rest." Michelle said being so nice. We put damn near all of the clothes back and went to the register to meet Michelle to pay for the clothes. After that I asked her if she has a piece of paper. She handed me a piece of printer paper, and I wrote a little message saying thanks for being so nice and I signed it, and so did Paige, and Emma, and took a picture with her, thanked her again and left.
We spent about two hours in the mall, as we were leaving the mall, I called Dean. "Hey, how are you." I heard after about three rings. "Um, good I guess, ugh Roman told me you wanted to talk, I really don't want to do it in public, so if you don't mind meet me at Paige's house we can talk in her back yard." I could feel myself starting to cry. "Yeah, I'll meet you their." I heard I love before I hung up, I didn't want him to hear me crying. I stopped myself before I meet up with Emma and Paige again.
"How did it go." Emma asked putting the bags in the back of the Jeep. "Yeah, he's gonna meet at Paige's pretty soon, do you mind if we go back I want to get their before he does." I said as I got into the back seat. "Yep, on the road we go." Emma said starting the Jeep. We where home in ten minutes, Emma went to go meet up with her boyfriend, Corey Graves. Paige saw Dean pull up in his truck. "I'll take the bags, just go through the gate." Paige whispered in my ear.
"Hey Randi, you look nice, is that outfit new." Dean said, he was acting so weird. "Yeah, it's not like you to notice new clothing." I said confused. "I'm just trying to talk with out trying to hurt you." he said stepping up on the curb. "Lets go t the back yard, just in case we scream, no need to do it like rednecks." I said motioning him to follow me. We went through the gate and he sat down on the outdoor love seat with his elbows on his knees. I sat across from him in a regular seat.
" I don't really know what to say." Dean started. "I'm sorry wouldn't be a bad start. Or a I was wrong, I shouldn't have accused you of screwing around, um there are a few things you can start with." I snarled at him. "Randi, don't go there please." Dean sighed. "Where do you want me to go Jon, you wanted to talk, after all the shit you put me through, all of the accusations, you really expect me to sugar coat it." I started to raise my voice, my anger always got the best of me. "You have put me through hell four the past few months. I can't anything without you thinking I'm going to fuck someone." I began to cry. "Don't cry Randi, you know how it hurts me to see you cry." he said standing up and walking over to me.
"Don't touch me, you should be hurting. I have for months. The only man that I have every loved, keeps breaking my heart. How else do you expect me to react. I'm tired of hurting Jon, I'm tired of making sure I don't upset you. I feel like I'm walking on eggshells, I second guess everything I do. That's not how a relationship works. I shouldn't feel as if I will get my head screamed off if I do one thing that looks wrong." I had tears strolling down my face. My heart was in my stomach and I couldn't even believe this was coming out of my mouth.
"I know, I have been the worst boyfriend, I have been a total ass and I'm sorry. I love you, you know that right. I will always love you. You are the only girl that can call me out on my shit and still love me. Can we just move on from all of this and be what we used to be." this sounded nothing like what Dean usually is like. "Tell me you know I love you." he asked.
"I don't know. Because when a guy has a girl he loves he doesn't put her through hell. He trusts her, he makes sure she is happy. He doesn't hurt her. You don't trust me, you hurt me, and in case you haven't noticed I'm not happy. THIS is not a relationship anymore." I scream crying. Then I walked up to him and grabbed his jacket. "Despite is all I still love you, I want us to go back to the way we were. When we couldn't keep or hands off each other. Were our fights turned into really great sex in like ten minutes. Where you and me we still us and not fighting every minute." I looked into his eyes, I saw a tear starting to form. I couldn't believe he was crying.
"So are you saying you still want to be together or what. I promise I will treat you better,. I know you deserve the world, I know you deserve someone who hasn't done all this shit to you, but I love you to much to let you go." I cried even more and my head fell into his chest. He held me as I cried, I began to get myself together and to tell him something I couldn't believe myself.
"I can't believe I'm saying this, but I can't, I can't hurt anymore, I can't cry anymore. I just can't be in this relationship anymore. I am drained, I am tired and I am so depressed that it's starting to physically hurt me. You're right I don't deserve this. Until I know for sure that I can love you and have you love me back with no accusations, and no problems, I can't be with you Jon. I am so sorry but I can't anymore." I swear I saw his heart breaking in his eyes. I kissed him one last time as he hugged me. I wanted to stay in him arms forever and just smell him, but I knew I couldn't do it anymore. I left him in the backyard, and I heard him walk behind me. I walked into the house through the side door. I heard him run to his truck and slam the door shut. But he didn't start it, I wondered if he was crying like I was. I shut the door and Paige came into the little hallway and asked me what happen. "I broke up with him." I just felt my legs give out and I slid down the wall.