So I'm back sort of now, and sorry for such an long absence... Was it like months? Or something since last time I updated this. Well anyway... I hope to be able to finish this story in couple weeks time, because right now I am working my ass off with stuff in real life, work - college stuff - home situations and other crap. But I wont bore anyone with my rambling. Back on main topic.

Recap on last chapter because this one might be a little different and might confuse some of you. Heck it confused me... so feel free to get confused and leave comments like "Dude, wtf?" In last chapter Jace realized that Alec indeed is alive, somewhere because:

"I feel this burning pain once again, and.. no no it cant be.. it cant. Be. No. It is not possible. It cant be, Angel it cant be...

My parabtai rune is glowing bright – but not bright red like it did when Alec.. died.

It is glowing bright light between golden and white, that even hurt my eyes to look at.

It is glowing color that only means –

Alec is somewhere.

Somewhere ...

alive."

Well this chapter is going a little bit ahead, just simply because I didn't know what to write before. So basic facts. (Which are also going to be included in story) Gideon agreed to help Shadowhunter's to catch someone "But that's for later... not needed information now" Gideon and Magnus didn't really talk without arguing if there was opportunity, because of what happened in chapter 12&13, but Gideon doesn't know that and has different reasons why Magnus might not like him. Everything starts from the point where other's in Institute e.g. Jace, Clary... request Gideon to perform some ritual or something to make themselves sure he is suitable. Above shadowhunter's don't really like Gideon... because without really thinking they all know how in some ways he is similar to Alec (duh..) Ash and Gideon have connection which you all might understand after reading following chapters and it will explain more in flashbacks also in following chapters. So for now just try to get around this and well I hope anyone who is reading wont get to much confused (which is kinda what I hope will happen... at least for now, because there is many different twists and turns to come...) Some day I might write chapters and add them before this chapter to make things more clear, but most likely it wont happen because I already have almost finished all story. (Which to be honest I had done weeks back, but had forgotten about it since today I stumbled upon folder that stored all my stories while looking for something) Furthermore if any of you get really lost and confused please feel free to ask me questions or anything and I will try to help as much as possible without revealing all the story xD That's all for now...

Let's roll

It was quiet. No sound penetrated from outside, not even a siren or the hum of traffic. Only birds cries and the scurrying of animals disturbed the silence. Gideon squinted trying to see through the trees quartering the whole area, searching for Magnus. Funereal scrubs like yew and box had grown to twenty, thirty feet. Self-seeded saplings were now forest high. Brambles rampaged everywhere swamping the stone monuments. Blackened by time, greened by slime, tombs showed as just lumps, humps in sea of ivy. Square chambers had collapsed in on themselves, vandalized, destroyed by neglect and time, huge stone slabs cast aside, cracked open wide to expose black interiors. Stone angels massive wings chipped or missing rose to gaze blindly, snapped fingers pointing up at the sky. Gideon was wondering why did Magnus choose from all the places this abandoned as it did look like.

And it brought back what Ash had told him from the day he ran out of Pandemonium. For some reason...

It was weird to be honest since there was this empty block in his mind from that day that Gideon was not able to remember like it was erased some sort way, all he remembers is collapsing to cold pavement after running out of Pandemonium and that's all. From what Ash told him, he was founded by others and brought to their meeting place while being out cold. But for some reason Magnus had avoided him in all the ways and have been somehow been mean towards him like he had done something to him, which confused Gideon since he didn't know Magnus at all because all the time they bumped into each other if would end up with both of them pissed off and ready to kill each other, in some way, but still Gideon felt like he did know Magnus, but that was something he was not going to share, with anyone.

Maybe Magnus didn't like him because apparently he was no longer suitable to work with shadow hunters alone...

"Hey! G, are you even listening to me rambling here?"

"O..OH! No, no sorry was just.. thinking"

"Are you fine? Or this is feeling wrong? I mean this place gives me creeps and that is well.. not something that happens to me often.."

"No-no its nothing I was just well.. yea I am kind of freaked out, but there is nothing we can do about this like."

But I was worried and all this place gave me creeps, and not just all this, but Magnus and others itself that I met, I felt like they all hated me for some reason, and it made me feel pain inside my chest, even thought they were people I met first time in my life and would most likely forget about in couple of years since it was not like I was going to work with them forever and it was not like … well it was not like they could live forever, well that vampire Simon if I remember his name correctly was going to live forever if someone doesn't make him into pile of ash, but it was not like I was going to be friends with him or something... but thinking about others Isabella, Jace and Clary made my feel sad somehow knowing they would die someday which was something new to me once again, feel sadness over humans life. Since humans live and die it was their cycle of life, then why did he feel stabbing pain?

"Gideon! Stop spacing out, jeez I feel like I am talking with brick wall."

"Sorry I keep spacing out much do I? Is just confusing all of this and besides I think I just stood into dogs crap..."

Ash was laughing his ass off which was totally not something I wanted to hear right now, my shoes were ruined and they were my second pair of shoes I loved. Fuck, this day was against me... like all this week.

"HEY! IT IS NOT FUNNY!"

"Sorry, sorry it is just... your face expression.. was just priceless damn me for not bringing my phone with me."

"You know I could make something like cow appear right now in the sky and make it shit on your head with single snap, well snap would not be needed maybe blink?"

"I know. But you wouldn't"Ash smiled and I smiled back, indeed I would never do something like this to my best friend and besides he was always there for me and having my back at hard times, and never once he betrayed me even when sometimes I intend to be an ass. His friendship was priceless and something I treasured deeply.

"That my friend is true, that is true."

"Of course it is, one for one and all for one? Or something along those lines..."

"Dude, you watch to much TV"

"Same goes for you, and besides I should get prize gloomy look on your face is finally lifted for time being I succeeded as human no wait I shall recall as half demon being"

"You so fail at being poetic, I shall say this mister. And you are hundred of times better than human.."

"Same goes for you G. Now lets face this whatever we are getting ourselves into with heads high, nothing can beat us two. We shall sparkle well you shall and I shall … do something not so sparkly? But seriously you are dressed dramatically plain today..."

Well I was.. wearing not my usual clothes, but instead plain black jeans, boots which thank Lilith were not ruined apparently it was only mud, but that's not something I am going to tell Ash cause he already thinks sometimes that I am diva, which is half true. Grey zip up jumper and red t-shirt. I felt like whatever today was going to happen I would better be more simple and more "home" like myself. After all I was feeling like this simple look still made me look well.

"Yea, felt like it and you are looking once in life almost same as me"
"Yep, I so do. And you didn't use glamour this time didn't you"
"No, there is no point they know who I am. And it is not likely some mundane would happily take a walk in this place just look at it, if I was mundane I would avoid this as much as I can, and it is not like we cant handle one stupid mundane even if he or she decided to take a walk which would be in middle of night and besides you my best friend and as it turned out body guard that has been sent from hell or somewhere along there should protect me from this"
"Yes, sir" Ash tried to salute but epically failed if not me catching his hand before he face planted muddy ground, which would have been epic...

"Thanks it looks like I am not so graceful yet"
"No problem. And you have been truly awakened just couple days ago, don't worry soon enough you will be strong as Hades himself, but in good way, and not I-shall-burn-you-to-toast way. And for time being I have your back and you have mine like..."
"Like always, but I still don't get what I have to protect you from..."
"We will see with time, but for now lets not worry about something we don't know, lets worry about something we already know which is..."
"Dammed ritual you are going have to perform today, to make them finally believe you could kick theirs asses with your eyes shut?"
"At first stop reading my mind.. its private place damn..."
"Sorry, sorry I cant help it besides I can only hear thoughts you let me hear nothing more, nothing less."
"Sorry..."
"No need, Um Gideon you know what you are going to perform? What ritual?"
"No, not yet... I am not sure I can even do it, you know me and magic voodo-boodooo stuff, always fails when I need it... I am worst warlock ever probably in history or something"

"Don't worry. I know you can do it. Have some faith in yourself."

There is no money and anything else in the universe to compensate Ash for being there for me and for everything he has done, even before finding out about this body guard thing, he was always protecting me from first time we met back when we were kids sometimes I wonder why I am so lucky to have friend like him, I am sure I would probably die together with him, if he died which is bitter-sweet for me to say. Or no... Magnus...why does his name bring so many confusing emotions, why I feel like there is something I have to tell him? Something I have to show him, Lilith he hates me... As it feels like, then why do I feel this way about someone I don't know? Why I don't feel same way towards him as I do towards people I don't know... Why it is stronger than feelings I have towards Ash it is not love, it is more like brother like feeling, then why do I feel this special way towards him? Why Magnus? Of all the people... I control my destiny and life and nothing controls me, but why I feel like he Magnus could? Why?

And besides everything where the hell is he and others?

" Ash, sorry for sounding lame as whining child, but are we there yet? Not that I know where there is since they told me to use my senses like the fuck that is meant? It is not like I am dog that can sniff way out.."

"We are near"
"How can you know?"
"I just do"

"Ahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa" I signed.

Ash eyes flashed deep toxic like green. It was only one thing I knew about Ash demonic form or half being demon or WHATEVER it was confusing... nothing else I have never seen him in true form only glimpse of his eyes lets me know that he is not human being, I understood it from first time we met, but back then I kept silent since I knew he would tell me about it when he felt like it.

"We are here"

I stumbled and walked into Ash's back, I could feel his muscles tense beneath his sweater and ready to run, attack do anything I was not sure and I was sure I didn't want to know. I turned my head around and took step to stand beside him there was nothing special about place we were facing like everything in this run down cemetery.

"I see you finally made it and we thought you got lost, and who is this?" It was Magnus his voice made shiver go down my spine and heart beat instantly faster, but his cold tone also made my shiver not in a good way...

"I am Ash that's all you need to know for know. And I know who you are and other 4 of you in shadows so stop hiding. And don't bother asking who I am."

"Oh so your friend Gideon was to scared to walk in dark?"
"I...-" Why did I have to face this anti liking of people I didn't know? Why did they hate me like this... My heart was beating to fast I felt slightly dizzy, but...

"Vampire I am not scared to make pile of ash of you, so watch your tongue."
"Ha, you?"

"OK, lets get to business I don't have time to waste with this kid bitchiness around. Gideon as we agreed you are going to show some ritual or anything to prove you can help us and Institute since you are barely full grown up warlock now, we have to make sure this is suitable for you. And don't mind these two idiots, OK?"

"Izzy..."
"Let him prove he is worth this, and if not well he might as well leave and go where he came from we don't need this bitchiness from your Simon and Magnus."

Well at least someone was on my side. Or at least not in I-hate-your-guts-dont-know-why side.

"Well you know what you are going to do?"

I didn't have a clue, sadly there was nothing I could do or I felt like it, I was sure Magnus could make me flying pixie if he wanted to with one blink, this was wrong idea I accepted.. I should... I felt arm on my shoulder, without looking I knew it was Ash it was something only me and him had as body guard and me somehow master or that's what Tessa told us. It was bond between us, which I was thankful now.

"Don `t worry, everything will be fine, G"

"Thanks Ash"

Well another bonus we could communicate in our minds even thought we were not really good at it yet like many other things like sharing thoughts we wanted to and stuff like it.

"Yes, I know, but can I just have couple minutes, please?"

"Sure" This time it was golden haired boy that somehow was neutral towards me, for now. I never noticed how he and Clary was sitting near on tombstone.

"Thank you"

All I got nod but that was enough for me. I took couple steps back and I knew Ash was following me. In tree line I stopped and waited until he was standing in front of me.

"I wonder why some of them hate me for no reason..."
"You want to leave?"
"No, no I will stay I feel like I should, and besides Tessa would skin us alive"
"Yea, old good Tessa.." Ash grinned.

"And she would skin you if she heard you calling her old"

No matter what somehow we both found way to lift each others moods. Well not for long this time, but..

"So do you know what you are going to do and you are hiding it from me, or you were making it up?"
"I do and I don't I just got this now, don't know from where and why..."
"And it is?"
"Well knowing from tragedy I heard followed their family I thought..."
"I don't like where this is getting. I don't like it at all"

"Well..."
"Are you seriously going to do what I think you are going to do? Are you insane?!"

"Yes, it looks like I am insane."
"I am going to summon spirits of dead from other side, they all missed"