Previously:

"Yes, it looks like I am insane."
"I am going to summon spirits of dead from other side, they all missed"

" Are you really insane?"
"You already asked me that, and I said I am probably"
"Why something like this? I mean you never tried it"
"I know I just feel like this is what I should do, and somehow I feel like this is right thing to do, don't ask how I just do trust me in this, OK?"

"I eh... fine I will, but if something is wrong or I feel like something is not right I am going to destroy circle and drag your ass out of there, no matter what they might say or do, got it?"
"Yes, thank you."

We walked back, but when there was couple steps left to reach circle I knew I was going to create _ stood back and watched, I was sure his eyes were glistering toxic green from time to time, but there was nothing I could have done about it I just hoped nobody here would notice and pay much attention. I was calm. I remembered Tessa's and Ash's words that I can do anything and that I can control my magic if I have faith in myself and this time I knew I was going be able to do this even when I didn't know how I knew it I just did.

"I am ready"
"If you say so" said Clary.

"Good luck" thumbs up showed Izzy even when others in her group give her cold glares.

"Just could you all please stand where Ash stands I need space for this"

Everyone did as I asked, phew. For once. I took deep breath and somehow my eyes found Magnus and for a split second there was hope in his eyes, hope that I captured with my eyes and held close to hearth, I had to do this for him... I had to. I...

Sudden stabbing pain stabbed my head, like thousand nails being hammered into head. While hot iron was poured over it. Everything went black there was so much pain and agony was ripping me apart, I screamed for it to stop I screamed for Ash to destroy circle. I screamed for Magnus... I don't know why, but my lips were sealed shut, I couldn't see anything nor hear anything else but rapid beating of my heart. Like it wanted to explode from my chest. Everything was blurry I felt like I was drowning in agony, but I felt like I was out of my body... As it happened it stopped suddenly.

Forget about strangers.

Forget. Everything.

Darkness. All I see is darkness, how long it has been, what was that voice. Why forget? I slowly open my eyes. I am standing at the edge of existence. In front of me is nothing. And nothing is behind of me. Still I feel calm pain is gone, everything is gone, just piece somehow I feel safe. No bright lights. No darkness. No energy. Just nothing.

Oh, my dear

Oh, my dear

Oh, my dear Gideon Alexander

Who? What? I turn around but there is nothing, nothing at all, then where is this voice coming from? Why did it call me Gideon Alexander? But still I feel calm and not scared, I feel like this voice wont hurt me. Or maybe... I am nothing myself?

Suddenly I am falling down and clocks are all around my showing different images, glimpses of something I have never seen people I don't know, but there are images, glimpses I catch that I know. Magnus and boy that looks almost like me, both of them smiling, happiness written all over their faces. I see Isabella she is talking I cant hear words but I feel like she is talking to me, but as soon I try to catch it, it slips away I am falling down, there is so many clocks around and every single of them is showing different time, different year, but same people and different at same time. I see Jace it feels like his hand is reaching towards my and he is smiling, I see Clary she is drawing something and lifting her eyes from time to time, she seems happy there is Jace beside her. I see Simon he seems serious, but then he starts to laugh he as well seems happy. Then I see Magnus once again, many different glimpses of him is slipping past me, but in all he is happy I can tell that. I try to grab it but my hands wont reach anything, but everything slips past them, like sand in wind. One second it is there and next one it is not.

We forget how truly fragile we are, my dear.

No matter what we are.

Skin. Skin holds us together. It keeps blood inside. Without it, we die, my dear.

Suddenly everything changes and I am falling in darkness.

I am not proud of the things I have done.

Images of same people but in different situation fills around me. Everything just pulses with pain and agony. Tears. Blood. I feel like I am soaked in blood, there is so much of it around. I see Magnus he is crying and at same time screaming. I see Jace blood is all around him, his eyes are empty, his smile is cruel he is holding blade – blade that is dripping with blood. He is covered himself in blood. I see Isabella she is crying, but there is blood on ground, ground she is sitting. There is thick red lines running down her pale wrists but she keeps stabbing wood, beneath her now leaving angry tears, that begins to fill with blood. I see Simon he is staring empty at the sky, there is house behind of him. Sky is crying. All over city. I see Clary she is tearing apart all her drawings throwing them around like snow flakes, that fall down in red blood she is standing.

Everyone makes mistakes, and everyone pays for doing them, my dear.

If you heard about my childhood, you would refuse to lay the blame on my side.

You would see I was a victim.

But we all know our sins ourself, don't we?

We all know what we did wrong and what we did not even when it might look different to other people.

You see what they did wrong. And how they had to pay, my dear.

Voice is surrounding my, but it feels like it does not mean anything bad to me. But I cant stop these images I am falling into everything is drenched in blood and agony. Every glimpse is filled with pain. Soaked with it.

I want to stop it but I cant.

You know I am same as you, even when you don't know that.

I am you and you are me.

Pretty weird right, my dear?

Do you know what you really are?

What we are? What I am and you are?

I know what we are.

You might think I am not you, but I am you.

The one you locked away.

Want to know what I am? What you are?

I know it is hard to understand, my dear.

But listen closely because someday I am going to be you and you are going to be me.

You know you cant lock me forever.

You listen now, my dear?

I am your deepest fear and I am you

I live for pray and hunt

I crave the surprise look on their face, the dulling of the corneas as I bring weapon down and slash their throat.

I love to hear how they greedily suck the final breath.

And its you, you know.

We are the same.

And you locked my away.

But you cant lock yourself.

Not forever.

But we both crave same feeling. Same sweet sticky flavour of revenge.

You know, we both enjoyed sweet feeling of killing that little bitch, but you my dear did mistake.

You felt sorry for her. You didn't listen, my dear.

And you paid the price, while locking my here.

You think you have soul? Or something?

Well sadly my dear.

Scratch that. We don't have soul.

It is gone.

We lost it long time ago.

But you know we might find it, someday.

If you set me free.

…

This time I scream, I cant understand this.

Everything is to confusing, everything is spinning around my, and it is drenched in pain, blood and agony there is no way out. I am stuck here forever. I don't understand voice, I don't understand it I don't, I don't, I don't. I grip my hair with hands and clench it while trying to block voice away, but I cant it is hammered, drilled in my skull. I don't know what I am, I don't know why I see these images, why I see people I never met before, but just couple days before...

My, my you cant block yourself

Open your eyes and see who you really are, my dear

See what we are.

…

I scream till my lungs ache and I am out of breath, and falling stops I hit ground and sink to my knees I look down and I am sinking in darkness. There is bones underneath me and screams of lost souls. I lift my head up and I see him, I see myself... I see him and I see myself we are the same I am me and he is me. And we both are covered in blood, but his eyes shine with hatred and anger even when it is filled with lust towards revenge. And I see myself, I have same look in my eyes.

But I look again he does not have same eyes as me, they are normal even human like. I look even close he is slightly taller and strong built, but we have same skin, same hair, same lips, we are same... I scream once again because I feel something is grabbing my leg and dragging me even faster down. I hear screams of dead, their agony filled voices. They scream my name... and his name. I scream again and reach my hand towards sky or light I wish there was, I feel cold arm around my neck dragging me down, tears are streaming down my cheeks, but finally I see light I scream louder for it, and small pale hand appears reaching towards me. It it is boy he has same hair as me same skin, but thick black glasses are on his nose, which would make someone else look stupid, but it doesn't make this boy look stupid. I feel safe when he takes my hand in his. I can no longer feel cold arms around my neck or hear agony filled voices.

You wont be able run away from me forever! You hear me!

You cant run from yourself!

But hand that holds me grips tighter and voice disappears. Everything disappears, and I feel safe.

Don t be scared, brother. I am here for you, like you always were. That's why family is there, from the start right? I wont ever leave you,, even when it might look like I am not there I will always be by your side. I have your back, you have mine. One for one and all for one.. or something like it, right?

"Max.."

I am crying but this time from happiness, I hug my little brother closer, and his eyes for a moment shines bright toxic green. Huge white wings appears from Max's back and closes around them.

Brother, you have another chance, because you are worth it. Please accept it even when it might be rough path towards your happiness. And now I have to show something, but please forgive me it is for your own happiness.

"I..."

Everything disappears and suddenly I am standing on hill, there is darkness all around. I cant see anything.

Brother, remember I am always with you...

"MAX! Don't leave me! Please..!

But I no longer can hear his voice, and I fall to my knees, while sobbing. I cant stop crying, I feel like my heart has been ripped out from my chest and I am plunged into cold darkness.

Why are you crying, boy? You have second chance and not many people get a chance like you got.

I lift my head there is man standing in front of me. He has deep blue eyes, and is dressed in some sort of deep purple robe, he lifts his arm and scythe appears from his arm. I scramble backwards until my back hits something, but I am scared to turn around and see what it is.

Don t be scared. I wont hurt you, because I am the one that gave you second chance.

"Who are you?"

I am Life.

"I don't understand. You cant be! I don't understand. Anything anymore. How can you be life? My life was taken away from me! How can you be life and tell me this? How can you!"

I am Life, and I gave you second chance don't you dare to doubt my words, boy. I can take it away right now and throw you back from where your brother got you. Do you want to go back there?

Only remembering that place made my shiver. Those eyes...

"No-n-o...I don't. Sorry. Sorry, just don't send me back there please, I beg you"

I wont. I see you understood your mistake. So ask me question one you truly wish to know answer to.

"Who. I... am?"

You are not warlock, you are not mundane nor vampire or any kind of downworlder and you are not shadowhunter half angel half mundane either...

"The who. I.. I am?"

You are the Death.