Summertime Sadness

Chapter Two

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After I left Wickery Bridge and went home, I tried not to think about the things Klaus had said to me but my attempts at trying to forget were futile.

How can he be so…pushy? If anyone were to describe Klaus in one word, it wouldn't be pushy, that's for sure but that's what he does to me when we're around each other He's always pushing something on me; whether it's for a reason to live or for me to give him the time of day, he never leaves me alone.

I think he truly believes that I have a death wish for myself but I don't think so. I just happen to find myself stuck in terrible situations. It doesn't help that my friends like to use me as collateral damage, especially when it comes to Klaus.

I often wonder why I told Klaus that I didn't want to die the night that I was bitten by Tyler. I know that death is a scary concept and that nobody wants to leave this world permanently but am I really ready to live an eternity, watching things pass me by while I, myself never change? I don't want to die but I don't exactly want to watch the world die out around me either.

Everyone wants to change themselves because they hate what they are. Nobody asked to become a vampire and if I had the choice, I would've said no. My mom has come to terms with it but she still hates the vampire part of me. Bonnie still has an issue with it no matter how much she acts like she doesn't and Stefan is indifferent. Well, he is to me, anyway.

Stefan may want to find the cure so he can heal Elena but he's never mentioned if he wants to become human himself. As much as I want him to find it, because we all hate that Elena is sired to Damon and having the cure to Vampireism is like some godsend, it's only for one simple reason: hating what we are. It's a concept that I know all too well but find myself wondering if anyone is ever happy in this life. Spending an eternity loathing what you are seems tiring.

Nobody was ready to accept the hand we've been dealt and to some extent, I don't think we'll ever be ready. I don't know if I accept it or not but I don't think I have a choice. Finding a cure for Vampireism seems like a shot in the dark but so were the mythical creatures in my storybooks. I just haven't had the time to understand what it truly means to be 'un-dead' yet and if it's something I would ever consider changing if they do find a cure.

Sighing, I focus back on the conversation that Elena and Bonnie are having. They're obviously to deep into their discussion to even notice the inner turmoil that I've got going on inside of my head. They used to be so good at picking up things from me. Not so much anymore.

We're sharing a table at The Grill and I pop a fry in my mouth, thankful that I can eat greasy human food and not gain a pound. That's a definite upside to being a Vampire; no weight gain.

"I'm telling you to go with that one, Bonnie."

"I don't care what you're telling me, Elena."

"You are so stubborn."

"Maybe if you actually liked the color, you wouldn't be so against it in the first place."

I try to understand what they're talking about since I decided to jump in at a weird time. I don't want to ask and get caught up in their crossfire.

"I know but I really like the blue dress I bought," Bonnie frowns. "I really don't know which one to pick."

Now I know what they're discussing. Dresses for our graduation party tonight. I should have known. That's all they've been talking about for weeks.

"Caroline, please tell Bonnie that the purple one is better." Elena demands and crosses her arms over her chest looking like a little child.

"Um…" wiping my mouth with a napkin, I try to think of what I'm going to say.

"Elena thinks I should wear the purple one but I really like the blue," Bonnie tells me. They both stare at me waiting for an answer. "You're the tie breaker, Caroline. It's up to you."

I shrug my shoulders, not wanting to be in the middle of their dispute. I can think of another million things that are hard to think about right now. "Go with the one you like the most, Bonnie."

As much as I want to tell her to wear the purple one because the other one is hideous, it's her choice. Giving Bonnie fashion advice is not high on my list. She has her own unique style.

"Caroline…" Elena's frown deepens and she gives me a pointed stare, letting me know I should agree with her on this one.

Fine.

"The purple one is cute and it's really perfect for a graduation party." I say honestly.

"Fine," Bonnie sighs. "Guess I'm wearing the purple one then. You win, Elena."

"Yes!" Elena shouts which causes everyone to look at us. We all burst into fits of laughter and it feels so good to have such a normal moment with my two best friends again.

We haven't had any normalcy lately. Our lives seem so perfect at a glance but I know that deep down we're all avoiding a very big issue: What are we going to do now?

Nobody wants to face the inevitable but the friends that we've grown up with are leaving Mystic Falls behind. Elena, Tyler and I are Vampires now and we can't stay here forever and live our small town lives. No matter what we thought we were destined for, fate decided to intervene and choose for us.

We have some time before we have to leave but we're expected to head out with the rest of our graduating class when fall comes around. We're expected to leave for college and not come home until the holidays, but unlike everyone else, we won't ever be able to set foot back here. The day we leave is the day we leave Mystic Falls behind. Until the people we know die out, we'll never be able to set foot back here again.

"What color is your dress, Caroline?" Bonnie asks, breaking me out of my thoughts.

"Blue," I tell them. "It's very summery."

"I can't wait to see you in it, Caroline. I bet it's going to look great on you."

"Thanks," I smile.

"Can you believe Tyler's mom let us have the the graduation party at their house?" Elena asks, still shocked about the idea. "She likes parties but this will be a lot of crazy teenagers for her to handle."

"The only reason she agrees is because Caroline is dating her son," Bonnie smirks at me.

I roll my eyes in response.

"It's true!" she insists. "You can't deny it. If you weren't dating Tyler, she would've never said yes in the first place."

"I didn't ask her, Bonnie." I tell her.

It's true. I never asked Mrs. Lockwood to throw a party. Tyler, on the other hand did. He's known how long and how bad I've wanted this party so he decided to talk to her about it instead... because he knew I'd never have the guts to. I'm a Vampire yet I cant go up to his mom and ask for a favor, no matter how long I've known her.

Bonnie, Elena and I decided a long time ago that we were going to have our Graduation parties together. It just made sense because we'd always be best friends and that's what best friends do. That day we agreed we'd have some cheesy Hawaiian luau with all the props and have it in Tyler Lockwood's backyard because his was the biggest. So thanks to Tyler's gracious mom and his love for me, she's allowed us to have the party there but not just for us... but for all of our close friends as well.

It's my last hurrah with everyone and we need to make it count... because when summer's over, I'm gone.

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I take the last curler out of my hair and brush it out so that the curls aren't too overwhelming. The mirror on my vanity has cheesy lights around the frame like I'm some performer primping for my debut on stage and I pucker, making myself look more like a fish rather than something sexy.

Sighing, I touch the photo of Tyler and me that's taped to the mirror. The picture was taken a few months ago at a school function and I remember skipping out early so we could have some alone time.

I love my boyfriend. I really do. We just haven't talked about what's going to happen when the summer ends. If he decides to stay here, he'll ask me to stay with him and I just can't do it. My love for him won't stop me from leaving. I know that If I don't leave when everyone else does, I'll find every excuse to stay.

I bring my hand back down and fiddle with a tube of mascara, spinning it around and around, my eyes keeping up with its fast pace. Another perk of being a vampire is I can hardly miss anything with my improved sight.

I slap my hand on the tube making it go flying into a shiny piece of silver. I catch the metal and bring it to my eyes, dangling it in the light. It's a pretty silver but the diamonds absolutely shine.

This is the bracelet Klaus gave me, the same one I threw at him. How I managed to get it again, is beyond me but I'm not surprised. It's not like Klaus will ever take 'no' as an answer. He probably snuck it in here when I was out, which should probably freak me out but it doesn't. But here it sits...taunting me.

It is beautiful, I'll give him that.

He's a psycho killer but with good taste...or maybe since he's taken up stalking me as a hobby, he knows what I like... but that can't be it. I've never even owned anything this extravagant in my entire life.

This is Mystic Falls, not New York.

He can't buy me. I don't care about him or his beautiful gifts. He knows I love Tyler. He needs to stop trying. Tossing the bracelet back onto the vanity,I get up and reach into my closet where my dress is hanging. I pull it off its hook and admire it. It's a rich blue with white flowers all over it; very Hawaiian. Holding it in front of me, I look in the mirror and smile at my reflection.

Tonight I'm going to forget about everything and focus on having a good time. I won't let any witch or vampire or hybrid interrupt my last time of partying with everyone in Mystic Falls.

A/N:

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Thanks to "osnapitzgab" for being my first review. Made my day :)

So, I didn't really say anything in the first chapter but the title is also the name of a Lana Del Rey song. I came up with the idea while I was listening to it.

TVD is in two category's; "books" and "TV shows"... I chose to put this story in "TV" shows because I watch it every Thursday and I haven't really read the books yet. *Gasps* For some reason, they're like really hard to find. I know, I know. What is WRONG with me? I'll get on that right away. I do have some of the books but it turns out... they're not in order...

This story will have some things from the show in it but I've turned into something else entirely so I can make it my own creation. There will be things that are not in order because I'm not following the story line with the show... so keep that in mind while you're reading.

I'll do my best to give background information on everyone so everyone is on the same page.

*****IMPORTANT IMPORTANT IMPORTANT*****

Carol Lockwood is very much alive. The drowning never happened.

Klaus never slaughtered the hybrids

The hybrids have broken their sire bond from Klaus

Elena is in fact a vampire and chose Damon over Stefan.

Jeremy is not a vampire hunter.

Klaus still wants the cure so he can use Elena's blood again and Stefan still wants to cure Elena so he can have her back to her old self.

These things have not happened and if I plan on those things being a part of this, I'll add it in later.

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PrettyNightlock