Italics are flash backs. At this point I'm not sure how exactly the story reflects the song but it was meant to, it's in there somewhere I'm sure.. Enjoy!

If only we could look into our past life
And see how our love first bloomed
I should have cherished each moment
Cause now the love we had is through

(The sweet surrender of a broken heart)
So fragile and lost like a child in the dark
(Oh my sweet darling can't you hear my cry)
A kiss in the sky before we say goodbye

Before I let you go- Bardot

Letty's POV

I didn't know how long I had stayed sitting in the corner I was currently in. I just knew it had been a long time based on the numbness I felt in my body. I had woken that morning to an empty bed and even emptier house. He'd left a stack of money on the side table along with his cross. The money just made me feel cheap. Like I was some hooker he had rented out the night before, not the girlfriend who had stayed by his side through everything.

My chest was tight and it hurt. It hurt because he had ripped my heart out and walked away like it was nothing. We'd been together for over ten years and he had just thrown it all away when things got too hard. To protect me, had been his words. It was all lies, just an easy out for him.

I had gone through the motions. I had been shocked when I first discovered that he had gone. That feeling soon faded and anger replaced it. Lashing out as I threw the money across the room in a fit of anger. The only thing that satisfied me slightly was hearing the thump of the cross against the wall before it fell. The furious pacing, angry muttering and cursing had followed. The anger had lasted about an hour before I succumbed to tears when it dawned he had really left me. The sobs that had racked my body had been shocking yet somewhat expected.

I loved him with everything I had and all I had to show for it was a stack of bills, a necklace, a lifetime of memories and a broken heart. I spent another good hour crying before I ran out of tears. Then came the numbness, it was still currently in progress.

Fingering the chain in my fingers, I stared blankly at the wall. He had really left. Just upped and left without as much as a word. All I had as a reminder was his cross. My thoughts drifted to the day I had given it to him.

I smiled at Dom as he planted a kiss against my bare shoulder. It was his birthday and it was just the two of us in the garage. Leon was off with Vince picking up a car that needed towing, Jesse was picking up a part from Harry and Mia was at the shop. For the first time since we had woken this morning, we were alone.

"What are you thinking about?" He whispered into my skin. I smiled softly. It was good when it was just the two of us. Our facades weren't needed when it was just us. We were free to be a normal couple. We both had our soft sides that we saved for the times we were alone.

"Your birthday present." I said lightly. I craned my neck to look at him as his arms wrapped firmly around my waist from behind.

"I thought I already got it?" He whispered as I felt his grin against my neck. I smiled and shook my head.

"That was just a bonus." I whispered back.

"A bonus huh? I rather liked the bonus. Any chance of another?" He asked cheekily as I laughed along with him.

"It was okay, maybe not enough for a replay." I said smiling playfully.

"Hey, play nice. So when do I get the real deal?" He asked turning me around to face him. I wrapped my arms around his neck as he rested our heads together.

"I haven't decided." I spoke looking up into his face.

"Can I help you decide?" He tried as his hands trailed lower. I grinned grabbing his hands keeping them firmly on my waist.

"No time." I warned.

"But it's my birthday.' He tried again as he teeth nipped my earlobe.

"It is." I mumbled, getting lost in the feeling.

"I want my present Letty." He breathed out against my ear. As he did I couldn't help but release the small noise of content.

"Now?" I asked unsurely despite my excitement.

"Yes, now." Moving myself away from him a bit, I leant over and retrieved the small box I had sitting on the work bench under my rag.

"You have to promise me something." I said as I kept a tight hold on it. He looked amused as he tried to pull it from my grasp.

"Mmm?"

"Don't laugh." I said quietly. His playfulness faltered and he became serious.

"I'd never laugh Let." Hearing his response I let the box go letting him have it. He removed his other hand from my waist as he used both hands to open it. I waited nervously; this was a rare thing for us to do. We didn't do gifts, so this was kinda big.

"Do you like it?" I asked worriedly as he fingered the cross between his fingers.

"Let it's perfect." He said honestly. I relaxed completely hearing his confession. I watched as he tugged it on and let it hang around his neck. Placing my hands on his chest I stood on tippy toes to reach his lips.

"Happy birthday papa." I whispered as I pulled away from the soft kiss.

Squeezing it in my hand tightly, my eyes did the same as another memory surfaced. This one more painful than the last.

"I thought you'd know me better than that Let." He spoke annoyed.

"I just know what I saw." I muttered angrily.

"You saw nothing, at least not on my part. I didn't do anything with her, you saw that. You saw me push her away and walk. Why are you making a big deal over this?" He demanded. I stayed silent. Why was I making a huge deal out of this? He was right he had walked away. He hadn't even known I saw it until I mentioned it just hours ago.

"I guess it just made me think." I said finally, the will to fight dying in me as I said the words softly.

"Think of what Let? You know I would never cheat on you." His honesty was relaxing but a nagging feeling wouldn't go away.

"I know…"

"Why do I feel like a 'but' is coming?" He asked sighing.

"Why are you with me? You could have any girl and yet you chose me." I asked suddenly. I didn't even know where the question came from. Maybe it had just been silently hanging over my head.

"Are you seriously asking me that?" He asked shocked. I said nothing, just waited for his reply.

"Let you should know why. I want someone who can hold their own. Who isn't afraid to get down and dirty. Who isn't afraid to say what they think. Someone who I can protect but is still able to look after themself. Someone I can be myself with." He finished softly.

"Let there isn't anyone else that could meet that. You fit perfectly, you're all I want." He said softly touching my face.

"And if the day came when I wasn't that or you didn't want me anymore. What then?" I asked seriously.

"That day would never come." He said firmly.

"Humour me." I spoke and he sighed.

"Humour you…okay. In case it does, I'd… I'd hand the cross over." I frowned slightly as his hands moved to stroke my face.

"You know what I think of when I think of my cross?" He asked softly.

"What?" I whispered back.

"I think of it as the key to your heart, that's how much it means to me Let." He whispered.

"So if the day came where I had to leave you, for whatever reason, I would give it back to you. I'd give it back to you so you could move on."

'How had it come to this?' I thought numbly.

So much had changed since those memories. Somewhere along the way we had taken a wrong turn and ruined everything. Now he just expected me to pick up the pieces and move on.

'How was I meant to do that?' I thought as I looked around the darkened room. I wasn't sure where to start, where to go without Dom as a guide. My only thought was maybe back to the states, back to Mia. Could I do that though? Could I go back and be reminded of all the good times we had shared there?

Sighing I stood and collected the money that I could, seeing that it had scattered as fair way. Placing it in my bag, along with what little belongings I had, I sagged in defeat. The cross was firmly in my hand and I took the time to carefully slip it over my head. It felt heavy and foreign. It didn't belong with me. I took one last unsure look around before I walked out the door wondering if I was doing the right thing.

Sorry it's really just a rambling of sorts I guess.

R&R anyway and let me know your thoughts.

Princess of Darkness17