Doctor

When a Time Lord loved someone, he loved them completely with not one but two hearts. Sure he had loved before. On Gallifrey he'd loved his wife but it had been more of a sense of duty to his planet. He'd loved his children, but it had been fatherly love. He'd loved his previous companions, but not romantically. Their fragile mortality kept him from doing so.

But Rose…she was different. For the first time in his life he really believed in someone. For the first time when he looked at someone both of his hearts sped up. He supposed Rose was different because she had been the one to change him seemingly without any effort. So often it was he who turned his companions into different people, but not Rose. She was still the beautiful, curious, kind, brave woman he'd met at the shop.

He hadn't realized that however until he almost lost her. Watching her fall toward the void and not being able to do anything to stop it, he'd never felt so helpless before. For a brief moment, as she fell, he almost let go of his magnet in a desperate attempt to save her, but just as he was about to make a decision her parents caught her just before she hit the Breach. Even when the Breach closed and Rose was obviously safe, he couldn't do anything but stare at her, his hearts racing as he replayed what had happened over and over in his mind.

That image continued to replay in his mind over and over again in the days following, especially when he looked at her. Every time she mentioned something about future travels his hearts sped up and his skin broke out into a sweat as he pictured all of the ways he could lose her for good. Now that he fully realized how important she was to him, he couldn't put her in that kind of danger again.

So he gave her up.

It was harder than he thought it would be. The look in her eyes as he told her she couldn't come with him tore his hearts into shreds. The more she tried to change his mind the more his resolve began to slip. Again the image of her falling towards the void ran through his mind. That was all it took to strengthen his resolve once more. He snapped at her, sounding cold and harsh even to his own ears and he wished he could take the words back but he knew that he couldn't, because if he did he would take her into his arms and apologize, giving in. But instead he watched as his words cut her deep, her expression full of anguish and betrayal.

"But," she whispered, her eyes brimming with unshed tears, "I love you."

His hearts twisted with longing in pain. Why did she have to say that? His resolve wavered. He opened his mouth. "I…" I love you too, but don't you see? That's why I need to leave. But he didn't say that. He couldn't. He wouldn't give her anything to convince him to take her with him. So instead he squared his shoulders and said, "Goodbye Rose. Live your life. Be happy." Please be happy, he added silently as he shut the blue Tardis door on her face, the locks clicking into place, that's all I want for you; be happy and safe.

And away from me.

His footsteps were heavy as he made his way to the control panel and punched in the coordinates. He had no idea what they were; all that mattered was that they were as far away from Earth as possible, as far away from Rose as he could possibly get.

He had to keep her safe.

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I know it's short! I normally don't write short chapters but I wanted to give a little bit of a look into the Doctor's reaction to what happened in the first chapter. It's setting up for the awesomeness later. This will probably be the shortest chapter. I already know the next one will be MUCH longer. I've decided this story will be split between the Doctor's perspective and Rose's. I got so many positive, wonderful reviews that I can't wait to write more for you guys! Seriously your reviews really help not only my motivation but also my ideas. Actually this chapter was inspired by TheEvilAshleyness; they had some good suggestions and I decided they would benefit the story. So thank you TheEvilAshleyness!

Some replies;

Idontwanttogo; I love your username first of all. That scene in Doctor Who made me bawl like a baby (David Tennant noooooo I don't want you to go either come back! (though I do love the 11th Doctor too but still)). Anyhow I was rewatching the episode and I noticed that when her father caught her, they totally could have stayed. He wasn't affected by the void at all. There was no reason they HAD to go to the other dimension. Micky had already decided to stay in that dimension. Soooooo that's what I used to save Rose in this story.

erchills; Awwww! See, that's what a writer loves to hear; that her writing moved someone so much it brought tears to their eyes. I normally don't like making people cry (because usually it's not for good reasons) but still. Thank you for reading and reviewing! Your review brought tears to MY eyes, not kidding ask my roommate haha!

totallyau; It is sad :( but at least Rose isn't trapped in another dimension with no hope whatsoever of being the Doctor's companion in the Tardis. The feel of this chapter was also inspired by your review as well. So that's happy! :D Kind of cuz the chapter was sad but that's okay.

So, remember to review! And if you have a tumblr, send me your tumblr too, especially if it's got a lot of Doctor Who. See you next chapter!

-S