Being with Belle for one last night was harder then I expected. Yes I enjoyed our girls night, we watched movies, ate a great dinner and saw all our friends. But I had the nagging feeling that I'm going to lose everything I ever cared about. I know it will hurt them at first but I cant live like this anymore. Felling I'm a replacement, even if they try really hard for me not to, is not something I can live with. I want to feel wanted, not just fill a hole. Also Rumple and Belle deserve the kind of happiness of having ones entire family back. They are amazing people who would do anything for those they love. So even though dinner was great, it was the worst I'd ever experienced.

Right after dinner, I made my self walk across the pathway to my house and pretend to get ready for bed. Belle said she was going right to sleep because she was exhausted but I didn't want to take any chances of her coming to check on me. After I was sure she was asleep, I began packing my few possessions that truly belonged to me or I couldn't bare to be part with. I picked up my first picture of all of us together, my first pair of shoes, one of Belle's favourite books and the pure gold looking scarf Rumple made me for my birthday. Quickly I wrote a letter for both Belle and Rumple separately and one for them together. I wanted them to know it wasn't their fault, that I just couldn't live like this any longer. After that was done, I took my bag and walked to my door stoping at the mirror to look at myself one final time. My unruly red hair was combed and placed neatly down my back and my comfy light blue jeans and my green sweater all remind me of my time in the sea. Oh how I long for the waves and the comfort. Yes I do love my legs and my life on land but at moments like these I feel a loss, for what I had and could have had if I stayed. I miss my father, sisters, friends and even sebastian. Oh that infuriating crab. But like always I quickly put those feelings to the back of my mind, lingering on them will only further hurt me and at the moment I think I need to be on my way.

My plan, well as much as I have of it, is to go to Jefferson and ask if he will take me to a different world. Maybe Wonderland, or Neverland or even somewhere I've never heard of. Just somewhere far from here. I know I sound ungrateful, I'm not, I'm so thankful to everyone in my life for making it amazing, I just need to be on my own, maybe not forever but for sometime. Immediately I set off to Jeffersons house. The streets are empty with only the overhead street lamps on. I'm trying to not make any noises, oh waking someone up now would ruin everything. Knocking on his door as fast and quietly as I can, I think about what I'm doing. After a few moments with no answer, I begin to climb the side of his house using the vines. Once I'm at the top I pray that he turned the alarm off or forgot to set it all together, before I open the window to the hallway and step inside. Thanking whoevers listening to me and not letting the alarm go off, I make my way to Jeffersons room.

"Jefferson, wake up I need a favour. Please get up!" Whispering was never my strong suit, so whispering while trying to yell was not really working fro me.

"humph, Ariel is that you? What are you doing here at 1 am? Why do you have a bag? Are you staying over?" Jefferson is still trying to wake up but is to drowsy to sit up.

"I need you to send me to another world, any world would do. I just need to be someplace else."

"What are you talking about? Why do you need to go?" And with that I told him all about why I'm leaving and about what I want for Rumple and Belle.

"I don't want you to come with though. Your life is here and so is Paige's. I would never ask you to leave it, so please just open a portal to somewhere and I'll be off. Oh and please don't tell anyone else where I went to."

"I can't let you go alone. I'll send you to another world if you bring someone else. What about Hook? He'd go with you anywhere. Please don't do this, not alone at least."

"Jefferson I have to. Here," I pull out two bracelets, one thin and delicate and one thick and masculine. "These will let us communicate from where ever we are. I can't bring Killian and you know that. Now please take this and send me before someone either realizes my absence or Paige wakes up."

"Fine, but you better stay in contact." With that Jefferson picks up his hat from his side table, spins it on the floor and watches as a portal to a different world opens up. "I'm not sure where I opened it to, my magics been a little off. I tried to send you home but it might send you to either wonderland or the Enchanted forest. If you do end up in wonderland promise me you will not go near the red queen, go to the White Rabbit or if Alice is there to her. Promise me you'll be safe. I'm going to join you in a little, okay? Once I make sure someone can watch Paige just so I can make sure you are alright and settled in. I love you, my little mermaid."

"I love you too, my mad hatter. You don't have to follow me, I'll be alright on my own. Now wish me luck. Jefferson, I just wanted you to know, I already miss you, best friend. Good bye for now. See you soon." And with that I jumped into the portal, hoping that the world I'm going into, is a world I know.

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