So for some of you this message will feel like déjà vu lol. Also, sorry this isn't a new chapter (those will come in time). However, right now, my head is not in the best place-which is the reason I am writing this to you now. I feel extremely bad for not updating in weeks or months, and I am going to work hard to fix that. But for right now, I think I need some time to focus on my personal happiness.

I started writing because I loved to do it and I love talking with some of you and I love seeing that people actually enjoy my writing. Seriously, your reviews and alerts make my day. Some times when I am even having a crappy day or feeling uninspired, I will read through them all. They never fail to put a smile on my face and boost my confidence a little.

But lately it feels like I have taken on too much and I am spending so much of my time trying to please everyone simultaneously while gripping on to the thin strip of sanity I have lol. I try so hard to please everyone, and yet I feel like I am pleasing no one. Then I get in weird moods and so on.

I decided it was a good idea to start writing 4 fics at once (fun fact, bad idea). I love all the stories and I love writing them, but they are all very time consuming to keep up with. I usually average 10-12 pages every update, multiply that by 4, and I am writing 50-58 pages every time I update all my fics. And usually, it takes a full day to really sit down and write (since I tend to write out chapters all at once with no breaks).

It takes a lot of time.

Not to mention that I also run two youtube channels and post fandom video, which also takes up a great deal of my time.

Now these are all things that I have decided to do, and I love doing them all equally. But I feel like I am stretching myself too much and creating quantity over quality or I stress myself too much and don't post anything at all.

So this is my formal apology for not updating in awhile. I'm not trying to make excuses I am just giving you insight into what is going on with me. I'm just feeling a little stressed and a little uninspired and I think, for once, I need to take a little time to get back to me a little. However, don't fret. I am hoping to be back quite shortly. I have ideas for all the fics that I am writing. I just need to give my brain a little breather. I need to stop stressing out and stop being overly critical of the things I create. I need to find me a little again lol.

So I am going to start taking photos and filming a little, or do some personal writing. I am also hoping to get in shape a little and just start feeling better in all aspects of my life.

So I hope you'll be patient with me (though I ask for this a lot lol). I just wanted to explain my absence and explain I should be back with vengeance soon :)