I knock on the door to Sam's house and wait, what seems like forever. Finally Marlo opens the door, I can't say I'm surprised she is here, but what was surprising, is that she looked like she had been crying.

"Hey McNally, I'm assuming you're after Sam, he's around the back".

"Oh thanks, um its not important, I can come back later, if that's better?" I ask, thinking maybe she needed to be with Sam alone at the moment. She smiles at me and shakes her head.

"No, that's fine, I was just on my way out" She moves past me out the door. "I'll see you later McNally"

I walk through Sam's house, out the back onto the deck. Sam's back is turned towards me, looking lost in thought.

"Hey" I move towards him slowly.

"Hey McNally" He turns around surprised to see me.

"I ah, just wanted to come by and tell you in person, that I have decided to take a job with the RCMP, I'm leaving on Monday". His brow wrinkles with confusion.

"Why? You've only been back three months" He was sounding more upset then I thought he would be.

"Look Sam, you said I broke your heart and I'm sorry, I'm only trying to find a way to move on. We didn't do things right in our relationship, I left before we had started, and I thought we were going ok afterwards, but deep down you resented me for that. I think you always will. I don't blame you for moving on with Marlo, you guys seem to have taken it steady, and got it right" I take a deep breath and continue.

"I believe I am doing the right thing, I just wanted to say sorry, for leaving, both times, I did hope you would be waiting for me when I got back, but now I realize that you couldn't do that. I don't know if you meant what you said to me before I left, but at the time I felt you were just toying with my emotions, I couldn't keep letting you do that, it felt like you didn't know what you wanted. Maybe I didn't either, maybe we needed to teach each other, that there is more out there, and we will be ok, no matter what happens. I just hope that one day you will be able to forgive me for everything". I turn away and start walking back inside, stopping at the door I pause.

"I never stopped loving you Sam" and with that, I walked back to the front door, and left.

A range of emotions came flooding through on my walk back home. I felt proud of myself for deciding to talk to him before I left, but then the sadness crept over me. This was it, no turning back. I wish he had waited, I wish he had wrapped me up in his arms and told me he loved me. I resigned myself to the fact it probably was too late.

I haven't got much time left once I get home, I jump into the shower and get ready to go down to The Penny, and have a bit too much to drink.

Sams POV

I am stunned. I can't believe it, she is leaving again, I can't really blame her this time, not after what she just told me. I just didn't stop to think she was hurting this badly still.

I was still standing out the back 10 minutes later, thinking over all Andy had said, when I heard the knock at my door. Moving inside to open it, I hope its Andy again, maybe then I can try and convince her not leave.

"Collins, ah McNally just left" I assumed that was why he was here.

"Oh, really? Well, actually I came to see you, we need to talk, can I come in?"

"Yeh, ah, sure" I'm confused at this point, I don't know why he would want to talk to me, especially if he knew Andy was leaving because of me.

"Look, I understand things with you and Andy aren't the best right now, but I wanted to give you something, before I do, I want you to think about the person Andy is, think about what's happened to her since you have known her, think about all the people who have hurt her, and every one of those people, she has now forgiven, moved on and tried to repair those relationships. She forgives people easily, but right now she is running around looking for forgiveness from others. I personally don't think she has done anything to require being forgiven, but she seems to think so. I just want you to think about that".

He stares at me while I try to process all the information that has suddenly been downloaded on me today.

"Here Swarek" He hands me a folded piece of paper. "Maybe its not other's forgiveness she needs".

"Thanks Collins, and thank you for having her back out there, undercover and once you got back"

He just smiles and nods and heads out.

I sit down on the couch and look down at the piece of paper. I unfold it, and the first thing I notice is the tear stains on the paper.

I then realize its Andy's handwriting. At the top of the page are the words 'Maid of Honor Speech", and my heart sinks.

Good evening, as most of you know, my name is Andy. I am Traci's maid of honor, and best friend.

I would like to thank you all for being here tonight and celebrating the marriage of Jerry and Traci. Can I just say, Traci, I think I speak for everyone in the room, when I say you look absolutely amazing.

When Traci first asked me to be her maid of honor, I felt so privileged and overjoyed. Then I realised, I had no idea what I was suppose to do! So, I went out and bought the idiots guide to duties of a maid of honor. It was the best purchase I have ever made.

Among other things, I had the duty of making sure our lovely bride got to the ceremony sober, and on time. Well, at least I managed to get her here on time!

One of my other duties, was to make a speech... And suddenly I started feeling ill at the thought of coming to this wedding. But putting that behind me, I started doing my research, I started thinking about all the stories I get to tell, and how much fun I could actually have with this. Before I got too far however, I realised I couldn't tell any of those stories, without also embarrassing myself. So lucky for Traci, I am keeping this speech short and sweet. I will however make sure that one day I get her back for this.

When Traci and I first met at work it took her a while to bring me out of my shell, I am a very shy person, unless I have had a few to drink, and then I become everyone's best friend. But she stuck with it, she was friendly, caring and most of all, very chatty! Eventually, she got me drunk, and we have been best friends ever since.

Over the past 4 years, Traci has always been the person I turned to, I could speak to her about my inner most secrets, and she would never judge me, rather she would talk me through everything, which is what think makes her an amazing mother. Traci, you have always just 'got me'. And I feel so special, knowing that I have you as my best friend. I only hope that you know that like today, I will always stand by your side. Having this insight into Traci, and how amazing she is, I know that she will make a wonderful wife to Jerry.

As most of you here would know, Traci values family and friendship above most things, hence we have our entire 'family of blue' here tonight.

I would like to thank Jerry's family for taking Traci into their home and their lives so openly, she is very lucky to have you as family. I would also like to thanks Jerry's friends, who have also welcomed Traci into their lives, I know how much she values the friendship she has with each of you.

Lastly, apparently I am supposed to give the newly wedded couple some advice so here goes;

Jerry, if you are wrong admit it, if you are right, just be quiet.

Jerry, the best way to remember your anniversary, is to forget it once.

Jerry, don't ever worry about Traci leaving, she has invested too much time training you the way she wants you to be.

Seriously though, my advice, is just to love and respect.

And on that note, please raise your glasses and join me in a toast to Traci and Jerry.

A promise should be kept forever,

And life be happy forever,

But when times are difficult and the way is tough

Never forget what you spoke today,

Never forget what you felt today

And forgive, most of the time that is all we need to give.

Cheers

I couldn't help the tears that escaped while reading her speech. And then it all clicked.