She regretted making Brian wait until 8, she'd stayed at Gerry's that night on the sofa as when Brian had gone they went back to the film and fallen asleep in the same way. Now though she'd been up since 5 and had no hope of getting back to sleep. She had loads of questions running through her head to ask Jack but she was also just glad to be able to see him again.
"Go back to sleep Sandra." Gerry said sleepily as he felt Sandra moving around in his arms, the situation was almost natural and not at all awkward that it made neither one of them think.
"Do you think I like being wide awake at 5 in the morning?!"
"Well why are you then?"
"Can't sleep."
"Morning." Brian called as he walked into the office finding Gerry and Sandra sat in front of him.
"Ready?" Sandra asked as she gathered her bag and coat.
"Yeah, I have the address here." Brian replied producing a scrap of paper from his jacket pocket.
"Great, I'm driving. Lets go."
"What's wrong Sandra?" Gerry asked as the car had been stationary for almost 10 minutes not far away from Jack's new house.
"Nothing. I'm thinking."
"Thinking what?"
"It doesn't matter."
"Let's go then."
"You go, I'll follow on."
5 minutes had passed and still she couldn't move, it was like she was glued to the seat. Brian had gone for a walk to wake his legs up and Gerry was stood outside the car smoking.
"I can't do this Gerry."Sandra told him through the open window.
"Do what Sandra?"
"Get out the car to go and see him."
"This was what you wanted."
"Not any more." Gerry put the cigarette out and climbed into the car behind her.
"What's changed?"
"He obviously doesn't want us to find him, he didn't want us to know the truth or he didn't trust us with it and either way I don't think I want to know. It's going to cause more hurt and what's the point?"
"Is this really Sandra Pullman giving up?" Gerry asked.
"Nope, this is Sandra Pullman being patient and waiting. I'm not giving up I'm just delaying it for a while."
"For how long?"
"Until I can figure out what to do."