The rest of the car ride was silent. When they finally got back to Kevin's apartment, Cas face planted on the couch. It was only 10:30 PM but all he wanted to do was sleep. He was exhausted from his drive and seeing Dean didn't help. Just as Cas was about to doze off, he was awakened when Kevin threw a pillow at his head.

"Get up sleepy head! We're gonna hit up my friend's party in a few minutes." Kevin was checking himself out in the living room.

"I'm really tired from the drive. I think I'll just go to bed early. I'll party with you tomorrow night. I'm going be here for 3 days." Cas yawned.

"Fine you party pooper. I'll be back late so don't wait up!" Kevin shouted while slamming the door behind him.

Cas leaned back on the couch and sighed. He just couldn't stop thinking about Dean. Seeing him with his new boyfriend made him sad, even though he knew he had no right to be sad. He was the one who ended their relationship. Dean had every right to be happy. Cas checked his phone and realized he had a missed call from Balthazar, his current boyfriend. He felt guilty that he was having these feelings for Dean when he had someone who loved him. He decided to call Balthazar back. He picked up on the third ring.

"Hey Cassie, how's your visit going?" Balthazar answered.

"It's going well, just tired from the drive. How's your night going?" Cas got up to get some water.

"It's alright, I'm working on my presentation for Monday." Balthazar said.

"Oh that's good." Cas felt awkward. He just felt so guilty. The line went silent.

Balthazar finally spoke. "So uh, have you seen him?"

Cas choked on his water. "Uh who?"

Cas heard Balthazar sigh. "You know who."

Cas stuttered. "O-oh. Well yeah I did. He was with his boyfriend though."

"Oh he has a boyfriend. Good for him." Balthazar seemed relieved.

The line went silent again.

"Castiel? You there?"

Cas cleared his throat. "Yeah, I'm here."

"Well um, I'll let you go then, I'm going to finish up some work. Have fun this weekend. I love you." Balthazar's voice was deep.

"Um thank you." Castiel was hesitant to say the next four words but he managed to say, "I love you too."

Castiel hung up the phone feeling horrible. He knew coming here was a mistake. His would always love Dean but seeing him tonight just made it so difficult to ignore it. He just wanted to shower and go to bed. Castiel grabbed his toiletries from his bag, and a towel from Kevin's room and went into the bathroom. He turned on the water, got undressed and stepped into the shower. He let the warm water run all over his body. He grabbed his shampoo and started massaging his scalp. He instantly relaxed. He rinsed off the shampoo and finished up showering. When he finished his shower, he dried himself off and changed into his pajamas. He walked to the couch and threw himself on it. He put his headphones on and played the playlist Dean made him for their three-year anniversary. "Sparks" by Coldplay came on. That was their song. This was the first song they slowed dance to together in Castiel's room, right after their big first fight and right after they said "I love you" to each other for the first time. He felt a tear slid down his face. He stared at the ceiling listening to the words and starting to fall asleep. My heart is yours…It's you that I hold on to…Yeah I saw sparks…Yeah I saw sparks…

Dean's P.O.V from earlier

Dean pulled into the parking lot of the bar.

"Oh look that's Kevin's car. He must be here." Crowley stated.

"Oh that's cool." Dean mumbled.

Dean wasn't as close to Kevin like they use to be in high school. They were still friends but Dean felt weird being close to Kevin since he still kept in touch with Castiel. The only reason they still hang out is because Kevin introduced him to Crowley. Dean enjoyed dating Crowley. He was fun but mainly he kept him distracted. He still thought about Castiel constantly. It has been three damn years and he still couldn't help but think of him. Crowley only sort of helped with that. Hanging out with Crowley helped occupy his mind for the time being.

Dean parked the car and got out. He stopped and double-checked to make sure his baby was locked. He looked at it one last time and caught up to Crowley. When he did, he saw that he bumped into someone. He went to see if he was okay and then realize whom he bumped into. Castiel. Castiel Fucking Novak. Dean froze and stared at him with wide eyes. He couldn't believe it. So many things were going through his mind. The first thing he thought was how good he looked. God did he look good. His hair was messy and sexy as ever. He forgot how perfect his face was. He forgot how perfect everything about him was. Even the small scar he had on his eyebrow from when he was a kid. Just looking into those ocean blue eyes brought everything back. Dean composed himself and finally managed to say "Cas?"

"Hello Dean." He heard Cas whisper.

God did he miss that voice…that sexy low voice. Dean felt the familiar butterflies in his stomach he got whenever he saw or heard Cas speak.

"What are…what are you doing here?" Dean managed to ask.

"I was just uh, visiting Kevin this weekend." He saw Cas starting to look down at his feet.

He knew that Castiel was feeling nervous. He would have pulled him into a hug when he remembered his boyfriend was there. The new boyfriend he had because Castiel broke up with him. Broke his heart. He had to show Cas that he was doing fine, even though seeing him right now made him weak in the knees.

"Oh…that's cool. It's um, good to see you. Maybe we will see you around." Dean faked a smile and put his arm around Crowley and walked away.

He could see the hurt in Cas's face when he said that. That stung Dean abit but he wanted Castiel to suffer for the night.

Sigh. No he didn't. He never wanted Cas to suffer and he kind of regretted doing it but he felt angry in the moment. He walked into the bar and sat down in a booth. Crowley sat across from him and just stared a Dean.

"So…I'm guessing that was Castiel." Crowley asked.

"Yeah…that was Castiel." Dean sighed.

"You feeling okay?" Crowley was worried. Worried that Dean felt overwhelmed but also worried that Dean still might have feelings for him.

"Yeah I'm fine. I'm happy I have you." Dean managed to give him a smile.

"Me too. I'm going to get us some drinks." Crowley smiled and got up to get them drinks.

Dean sighed. He really liked Crowley but seeing Cas tonight just destroyed him. He would never love anyone like he loved Castiel. Even if he did break his heart, it belonged to Cas. Dean had to see Cas again before the weekend was over. He remembered that Crowley was leaving tomorrow to go home for the weekend. Perfect. Dean's thoughts got interrupted when Crowley came back with two beers. Dean faked a smile. He was going to attempt to enjoy the rest of his night. He just couldn't wait for Crowley to go home so he can see Cas again.

Castiel woke up the next day at 10 AM with music still playing in his ears. The song playing was "You Are The Best Thing" By Ray LaMontange. He remembered when this song first came on in Dean's car. He thought it was weird because Dean usually listened to classic rock music. He remembered what Dean said perfectly.

I know but I always think of you when this song plays because baby, you are the best thing to ever happen to me.

He remembered the way Dean smiled and how he kissed the back of his hand and how Dean sang the rest of the song to him. Cas smiled at the memory and then it quickly faded away. He was so mad at himself for letting that go, but he knew he had to. They probably would have broken up while they were in college and he didn't want it to get that far. Castiel sighed and finally got up from the couch when he heard a knock at the door. He called for Kevin but he must still be sleeping. Castiel opened the door to see Dean and Crowley.

"Hi Castiel, sorry I forgot my keys. Is um Kevin here?" Crowely said.

"Oh hi guys. Yeah Kevin is here but he's still sleeping." Castiel managed to get out.

Crowley and Dean walked in and Castiel noticed that Dean hasn't taken his eyes off of him since he opened the door. Castiel blushed and looked away.

"Well can you tell him that I'm going away for the weekend? He probably forgot." Crowley said while going to his room to pack.

Dean and Castiel were alone in the living room and Castiel was starting to feel awkward. Castiel just thought of how they both walked in together and now he was thinking how Crowley spent the night at Dean's. Castiel felt a wave of nausea go through him but he managed to ignore it. Dean was the first to say something.

"So how have you been Cas?" Dean asked.

"Oh um I've been good, good." Castiel said while looking at the floor. "How about you?"

"Great. I've been great." Dean said while looking around. Cas was going to say something when Dean cut in.

"Hey, would you like to get lunch today, maybe catch up?" Dean said in a lower voice so Crowley couldn't hear him.

Castiel knows he shouldn't but he couldn't help himself.

"Sure, that sounds great Dean." Castiel said while smiling.

Dean smiled back at him and said "Great. I have to drive Crowley to the train station and some stuff to do so how is 1:30?"

"That's perfect." Cas tried not to sound too eager and excited but probably failed. At the moment Crowley walked out with two packed bags.

"Ready Dean?" Crowley said.

"Yup. Let's go." Dean grabbed one of Crowley's bags and smiled at Cas before walking out of the door.

Castiel was so excited but that excitement was replaced with nervousness. What was he getting himself into?

Hey everyone! So the reason I picked those two songs was because I was listening to the City and Colour playlist on pandora and those songs came on while I was writing this chapter. I thought they went perfect for the situation.

Anyways, thank you for reading! Reviews are much appreciated, I love getting feedback! =)