Chapter 5

Elliot went to bed that night knowing that Olivia was hiding something from him. After being best friends for over a decade and now being man and wife, he was able to sense when something was off. He watched Olivia as she slept. He watched the rise and fall of her chest as she peacefully unaware of her husband's worries.

He wondered if something was really wrong with Olivia. He knew that because of the medication she was on she couldn't drink but he sensed it was something more. He began to replay the events of the last few weeks in is head to see if anything seemed different but he came up with nothing. Olivia had been perfectly normal. He trusted his wife enough to let her tell him in her own time but that didn't stop him worrying about the love of his life.

He tried to fall asleep but he had too many thoughts running around his mind to sleep. Before he knew it his alarm had sounded. He really didn't want to go to work today. This was going to be Olivia's first day alone since the crash. He knew that Olivia wouldn't want him to take the day off work to look after work but that didn't make him feel any less guilty.

As he moved to get out of bed he heard Olivia groan in pain.

"Liv, Liv are you ok?" he said in a panicked tone.

"Yeah El I think I just over did it a little last night. Just grab be some pain killers and I will be fine" Elliot could see the pain in her eyes but in true Olivia Benson style she played it down. She could handle it. Not wanting to push the subject Elliot went to the kitchen and retrieved her pain medication along with a bottle of water.

"Are you sure you are going to be ok here on your own?" asked Elliot tentatively.

"Yes El I am fine. Anyways I won't be alone. Melinda is coming by in the morning and then I have the physio guy coming and then Ciara will come by after school" explained Olivia.

Elliot visibly relaxed. He was glad Olivia wouldn't be alone for too long throughout the day. He would still worry about her when he was at work but he was able to relax knowing that she would have company.

An hour or so later Olivia found herself bored and alone, a combination she never enjoyed. She had just received a text from Melinda saying she would be there in about thirty minutes. Olivia decided to try to tidy herself up a little. She grabbed the wash cloth that Elliot had laid out for her and washed her face. She then dressed herself as best she could, opting for a skirt as it was easier to put on than trousers, and a plain white t-shirt. By the time she had dressed and brushed her hair Melinda was knocking at the door. Olivia couldn't make it to the door because of her hip but told Melinda that the door was open and to just come in.

Olivia was shocked when she seen Melinda. She hadn't noticed it last night but Melinda was really beginning to show. She had a cute bump. It was obvious that she was pregnant but it was cute.

"Hey Liv, how you feeling?"

"I'm good. A little sore but otherwise perfect. How are you feeling?" replied Olivia as she motioned to Melinda's growing bump.

"I am really good actually. This whole pregnancy thing isn't as bad as I thought it would be" laughed Melinda, "Fin is so protective though. He won't let me do any of the house work which is great. He is so excited too"

"Aw bless him. You two are going to be great parents"

"I hope you're right Liv"

As Olivia and Melinda continued to talk Olivia began to feel guilty. She really should tell Elliot that she was pregnant. She knew that Elliot would be just like Fin, he wouldn't let her do anything. Not that she could do much in her condition.

"So Liv did you hear about Don and Liz?" asked Melinda.

"No what about them?" inquired Olivia.

"Well apparently they are planning to get married at the start of summer. Don was telling Fin his plans last night"

"He and Liz are such a great couple. They make a perfect family with Ciara too. I'm glad Don finally has someone in his life"

"They really are. Anyway Liv I've got to love you and leave you. I have to meet Fin for lunch in fifteen minutes. Call me if you need anything" And with that Olivia was alone again.

She hated being left alone like this. It always made her think, and when she began to think she began to doubt, she began to doubt her happiness, her ability to be a mother and her ability to keep Elliot happy. She didn't understand why her mind felt as though it had to bring her down at any chance she could. Why did she always dwell on the negatives and what ifs? Why?

Her thought were banished from her mind when her physiotherapist came. He didn't stay long her just talked to her about her exercises. He explained that it was going to be hard work but if she followed the guidelines given to her she would make a full recovery.

Olivia was now left waiting for Ciara to come back from school. Olivia had really grown close to Ciara. They were like sisters and Olivia was glad to be helping Ciara with her school work.

Ciara came in from school looking exhausted.

"Long day?" asked Olivia sympathetically.

"Yes. And now I have a ton of homework to get done."

"Ok well why don't we get started. I'll help you and it won't take us too long." Replied Olivia. Before long Ciara and Olivia had finished Ciara's algebra, English and French homework. All that was left to do was history, a subject that Olivia loved.

"So what do you have to do for history?" inquired Olivia.

"It's actually really cool. We have to do a project on whatever we like. It has to have historical significance and has to take place before 1992, I'm doing Arthur Griffith" explained Ciara.

"Who?"

"Arthur Griffith, he was the founder of Sinn Fein, an Irish hero" explained Ciara.

Olivia had never heard of him but was pleased to see that Ciara was taking such an interest I her school work.

At around eight that nigh Don, Liz and Elliot all came home. Olivia and Ciara were lying in bed watching a movie and eating popcorn. Olivia knew by the look on Liz's face that something bad had happened.

"Liz what's wrong?" demanded Olivia. She wasn't in the mood for dancing around the subject she just wanted to know what was going on.

"It's nothing serious Liv. Some perp just got a little rough with me today in court. I'm just a little shaken that's all" replied Liz as though it was nothing.

"How did he even get near you?"

"He was just too quick for the court officers. He just got a little close for my liking" explained Liz. She was visibly shaken. "Anyways not to worry I've taken some time off work" added Liz.

Olivia cocked her head and looked at Liz. She had never seen Liz so shaken, it was unnerving. She knew there had to be something more to the story than she was being told, but she sure as hell was going to find out.

Ok guys what do you think? I know it isn't very exciting but the next chapter will be better.

Any ideas about why Liz is so shaken? Should Liv tell Elliot? And what is going to happen when someone from Liz's past visits Ciara at school?

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