"ONE MEDIUM CARAMEL FRAPPE!?" Phil shouted tiredly across the noisy room where he has to spend 8 hours a day. He was exhausted. Too many things on his mind. He had found Dan, but Dan had no idea who he was, and had a boyfriend anyway. Why couldn't Dan remember?

Phil took orders, made coffee, collected change, served sandwiches and didn't get a long enough break. His back had been aching for the past hour, but any way to pay the rent…

It finally came to the end of Phil's shift and he changed out of his coffee-stinking clothes and put his awesome nebulae jacket on. He loved that jacket.

He put his iPod on and blasted Fall Out Boy. He nodded his head slightly to the beat of the music and plodded along to the underground station. He suddenly felt a hand grip the fabric of his jacket and pull his along into a corner where not many people could see. He was slammed against a wall. His headphones ripped out of his ears and he looked up to see Dan's angry face in front of him. Phil trid to struggle away but Dan had a firm hold on him.

"Ow wh-"

"WHO THE FUCK ARE YOU" Dan yelled in Phil's face

"What I don't' understand why-"

"WHY ARE YOU FUCKING WITH MY MIND?! ARE YOU SOME ILLUSIONIST? PLANTING YOURSELF IN Y HEAD?!"

"No I swear! Please just-"

"ANSWER ME OR I SWEAR TO GOD I-"

"IF YOU WOULD STOP YELLING A ME I MIGHT HAVE A MOTHERFUCKING ANSWER FOR YOU."

Dan immediately went silent. Phil didn't mean to snap but it was the only way it used to shut him up.

"Well?" Dan said impatiently. "Speak up!" Dan gripped Phi's Shirt tighter.

"If you would fucking let me go it might be easier."

Dan let go of Phil's shirt and stepped back slightly.

"Five years ago.. You joined my school after being bullied at your old school.."

Dan suddenly remembered the intimidation he felt in his days at secondary school. How he was bullied.

"We became friends and eventually.. Eventually" Phil went quiet.

"Go on.." Dan said softly.

"We fell in love.."

Dan flinched and looked terrified. Those memories he had experienced the night before came whooshing back.

"Then what happened" Dan choked.

"Well.." Phil started to tear up. "My dad wasn't really the best of fathers then…" Phil raised his head to meet Dan's watery eyes. "He beat me and you always took me in and cared for me…" Dan remembered their embrace that evening, Phil's soft touch.

"What happened." Dan said fiercely trying to hold back tears.

"My Dad bought us tickets to see Muse in Paris. We spent two days there before the concert and went on the Eifel Tower.."

Dan remembered the lift, rising up over the twinkling lights of the city. The warm glow reflecting off Phil's face and kissing him in the dimmed room.

"I remember that…" Dan said quietly. "Go on"

"And when we went to see Muse, Matt Bellamy sang Starlight dedicated to us.." Phil chuckled quietly.

"BUT WHAT WENT WRONG" Dan cried.

"Wh-" Phil started to choke on his words "When I got back… My dad said we were leaving. He had sent us away because he was leaving. He pretended to be nice to trick me"

A small tear rolled down Dan's cheek slowly

"I never had the chance to tell you that.." Phil whispered "He then made me call you, and… He made me leave you.."

Dan exhaled sharply. He started to get short of breath. He was crying more.

"PHIL PLEASE CAN WE JUST TALK ABOUT THIS?" I cried

"I'm so sorry Dan.."

"PHIL PLEASE I LOVE YO-"

Beep

Dan took a few steps back, never breaking eye contact with Phil.

"Phil…" Dan hushed

"Yes Dan.." Phil smiled "Its me.."

Dan rushed toward Phil and threw himself over him, hugging him tightly, sobbing gently into his shoulder.

"I am so sorry Dan…" Phil whispered into Dan's soft hair. "I am so sorry for everything.."

Dan pulled away and kissed Phil firmly on the lips Phil responded instantly.

Oh how long it had been. Dan was so warm and welcoming, he tugged on his hair lightly.

"Phil.."

Phil broke away.

"Phil I have a boyfriend…." Dan said guiltily

"Go back to him.. He deserves you more than me.." Phil said sadly

"I love you so much Phil.."

"I know, I love you. But I can't handle the guilt" Phil looked down at his feet.

"But Phil i-"

"Go, Dan." Phil interrupted calmly. "Be happy. For me."

Dan leaned in to plant another kiss on Phil's lips.

"Goodbye Phil. I won't stop loving you."

"And I, you" Phil replied longingly.

Dan started to walk away.

"Oh and Dan,"

Dan turned. "Yes Phil"

"Remember me. Remember the times we had.."

"Always."

ELOH.

ITS ME AGAIN

Sorry I haven't updates for ages, i've had so much homework you would not believe. I hope you enjoyed this and don't worry guyz, this isn't the end. all I can tell you is that Dan has to make a difficult decision. and more Phan moments lol this is what the fic is about.

Anyway, ill hopefully update within the next few days if not then by the end of next week if I haven't suffocated in my homework.

I quoted harry potter at the end (disclaimer will be published when the story is finished) because NEW JK ROWLING FILM LOL OMG I CANT

anyway

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