Just a bit of a warning... this chapter is kinda internal, something Sam's struggling with but its going to lead up to Sam and Dean's talk about where Dean was for the last year, which wil hopefully be way more fun to read!

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Sam knew that the whole truth was best left until morning. Who wanted to talk about demons at 1 am? But waiting for morning to come was another thing entirely. She knew the truth about who he was now. Or at least the essence of who he was. He had seen a hint of recognition in her face when he had said his last name. But then, he wasn't really surprised. He and Dean had been on America's Most Wanted list for longer than he could actually remember. Hell, he was fairly certain they had even made it to the damn TV show at some point. Not that either of them had ever taken the time to check. But the biggest story wasn't the murder, or the bank robbery, but the explosion and their death. They had been thought dead so many times, but when that police station had blown up, that had been the end of the Winchesters. And again, they had made national news.

Somehow, since then they had managed to stay off the radar. I mean, they had a few altercations with the law. And Dean somehow had managed to get arrested again. Yet, they hadn't even made the local news. It hadn't made waves. As far as the government was concerned Sam and Dean Winchester were dead. And he had told her that Dean was dead. So, to read about how they were both dead, some of the FBI's most wanted criminals. How was she gong to handle that. Especially once the entire truth was out there. Not only did he have to explain reports of deaths, but actual deaths. Both brothers had died multiple times.

He doesn't like to think of it as lying, but essentially that what he has done. He didn't tell Amelia who he was, which was as good as lying. Even under the pretense of protecting her. But now that the name was out there, everything would be out there. And she would be worried about the government. But he knew that the resurfacing of the name Winchester would bring up a whole lot more trouble underground.

Having been out of the game for a year didn't mean that he had forgotten the hazards that came with his name. That had started with John, and been passed on to his children. But, he and Dean had accepted it. Both of them had escaped. Dean had spent a year with Lisa and Ben and he had run off to Stanford. But they had both come back. This was the path that they had chosen. And even getting out hadn't been enough to save Jess. His family's lifestyle had sentenced her to death before either of them even realized it. Could he really do that to Amelia. Could he risk the life of someone else he cared about. So many people that he had cared about had already been lost to the cause. Could he really sentence her to that fate.

Before Dean had shown up at the door, Sam had been living under the delusion that they were safe. That no one could find him. Looking back at that now, he can't believe he hadn't already. Sure Dean hadn't said much and it went without saying that Dean knew him better than anyone, but it didn't seem like he had had all that much trouble tracking them down. And why should he have. At the time, choosing Bobby's last name had felt like a fitting tribute, as well as something so obvious that it wouldn't even have made the radar. But come on, Sam Singer. Who was he kidding? And yet Dean had been the first one to knock on the door.

"Stop second guessing yourself Sammy. I know you. Of course I found you. But, you've done a good job staying under the radar so far. Let's just hope she doesn't blow it for you and we end up having to high tail it out of here. "

Dean's voice brought Sam out of his thoughts, and back in to the present. Not that it was much better. He hadn't even heard his brother enter the room.

"Dean, all she has to do it type one of our names in to any search engine and thousands of horror stories will appear. How do you explain to someone that despite everything, you're not a bad person and how do you explain the deaths?"

"Sam, she wouldn't have moved in with you if she thought you were a bad person. She wouldn't have invited you into her life. As for the deaths, it depends on which one you're talking about."

"Where were you Dean?"

"So, that's where this is going. Can't say I'm really surprise but the short answer is when Dick exploded, I was standing a bit to close. And apparently Cas was to cause we got sucked in with him."

"Sucked in where Dean? Where were you? What happened."

"Purgatory, Sammy. Purgatory happened."