The Chapter is finally here.
I was having trouble ending it so I didn't post it until now.
Thanks for the reviews lovelies!
Rose's POV
I was scared out of my mind.
What if Viktor didn't agree with us leaving?
What if he tried to stop us? Like using the shot gun that he kept in his closet?
What if he takes his anger out on Mason and Eddie?
Oh god. No. I'm fucking scared. I can't do this. I'm not strong enough!
"Rose, everything is going to be fine" Dimitri reached out for my hand. I let him hold it and warm spread through my whole body, giving the safe feeling that only he could give me. That feeling, unlike Christian's and Adrian's, that feeling that actually said you're strong enough to do whatever you want, you're so strong and you will be victorious. That feeling that he truly believed in me.
"Where does Christian's aunt live so I can go pick Mason and Eddie up?" I pointed towards her building and I let out a breath. I was so terrified, but this was finally the end. Mason and Eddie were finally going to have a normal childhood. They were not longer going to witness all the violence that they did with Viktor. They were going to be happy.
"You have the phone I gave you right?" I nodded. "Use it if things don't go as I planned" I nodded again. I was scared. But I knew I had to do this, not for me but for them. My beautiful baby boys.
I got out of the car after rehearsing once again the plan with Dimitri.
I breathed in and out and finally opened the door to our crappy apartment. No. Not our crappy apartment, their crappy apartment, this was no longer going to be my home. I was finally getting out. Leaving forever.
"What the fuck is this? You're late again bitch! Where are my sons?" Viktor yelled from where he was standing in the doorway to the kitchen.
I flinched, that voice.
That revolting voice.
Okay Rose, this is it. Do not freeze; tell the fucker how it's going to be.
"Look Viktor, I'm done with all your shit. We're leaving!" My voice was much stronger than I felt. The fear was still in there but I knew I had to do this for Eddie and Mason.
It's for their happiness. It was like my mantra, the one that kept me going.
Viktor's laugh was disgusting. He laughed and laughed, staring at me like I was out of my mind. Maybe I was but he had done this to me. He kept going on, laughing like the psychopath that he was. Then he stopped short on one laugh.
"Oh you're serious!" His face turned into that monster I always saw when he abused me.
I wanted to go back to Dimitri, to hide in his arms. He might have found out about the hitting but I hadn't mention the other things Viktor had done to me. Those filthy things that gave me nightmare.
"Yes! I am… And you will let me go unless you want everyone to know about what you've done to me. And I don't mean just the physical abuse Viktor. I have evidence. Hard evidence that would land your fucking ass in jail for the rest of your whole fucking worthless life." I wanted to get the fuck out as soon as possible. And I really hoped he didn't call my bluff.
"You're bluffing, you fifthly whore!" No he was bluffing; I could see it in the one he stood. It was as if for the first time he finally realized what my silence was worth. Like he was fucking scared of me, oh the joy my heart felt. Yes, fucker. I can control you, dumb-ass.
"Really? Do you think I'm stupid? No, I've been working on it for a long time now Viktor. However, I'm willing to make a compromise. I offer you my silence for our freedom. You don't look for me and my brothers and you let me keep living my life. Also you don't harm Janine, because I will check on her and if I see any sign of abuse I will take you to the authorities and make you rot in hell." My breath was short but I felt so good. Telling Viktor things I never thought I could.
"And don't even think about just killing me. I'm not the only one that knows about this evidence. This person doesn't necessary know about what you've done but they have a copy of the evidence and they will send it to the authorities if I'm missing or suddenly turn up dead. I'm not stupid Viktor, I let you go on for so long but now it has to stop"
His face was neutral; he didn't want me to see what he felt. But his body language screamed out all of his fear and anger. His fingers were shaking and I knew he wanted to hurt me. He got this way with Janine.
I could remember when he had first started abusing her. When she complained about something or told him if he did something wrong, this is what he would do. Shake his fingers, wanting to get them around her throat for defying him.
But he was sweating, showing his fear and nervousness.
He sweated when Janine threaten to leave him and take the boys with her, it had been in the early days of the abuse but she had given up.
"You bitch"
"You fucking bitch!"
"I should've killed you when I had the fucking time!"
"Now you're fucking me over! Whatever! Bitch, but you will regret this!" Those were empty threats, I knew. He valued his life more than anything.
"You can fucking leave, but you can't take Mason or Eddie" He tried to stop me as I headed to my room, but he didn't dared touch me. Now it was like he was truly afraid of me.
"The terms are that I take Mason and Eddie, or no compromise at all Viktor!"
He was struggling, I knew that he didn't want me to look at him in his weak moment, but I was. He was willing to agree with everything right now.
"And no harm to Janine, Viktor I mean what I fucking say!" I know that I shouldn't care what happened to Janine, she never cared what happened to me but I did. I hoped I could bring out the mother I had when I was younger, the one who read me the bed times stories.
"Whatever bitch, but you better not open you pretty mouth or I will slice her up!" He went back into the kitchen where I assumed was Janine. He was still shaking with anger and I knew he couldn't believe that I actually had the balls to stand up to him.
I couldn't believe that I was actually going against him. If it wasn't for Dimitri, I wouldn't have found the strength to do this.
His support and faith in me, gave me the strength to get through this. To fight for Mason and Eddie.
I wondered why Janine had not said anything about our leaving but I soon found out why. She was in her room, knocked out. Oh, Janine why do this to yourself? Is it because you can't live with the fact that you have a monster as a husband?
I kept going, I wasn't going to dwell on her anymore, she had so many choices and all the time she chose wrong.
I grabbed the only suitcases that we owned, they were old but useful. I started packing everything that was Eddie's and Mason's. Mostly their toys because I knew they couldn't live without them and it was like they had much. Next, were their clothes, 3 pairs of jeans for each, 5 shirts, 3 jackets, and 2 coats. And lastly, their only spare pair of shoes.
After that I packed my clothes, 2 pairs of jeans and 4 shirts, a hoddie and a jacket. Then my books and after that they was really nothing else.
Everything fitted in one suitcase.
This was it, we were finally going to have a better life. I would be out and this would be over.
My freedom was ten feet away when I felt a punch to the side of my head.
"I almost forgot your goodbye bitch"
He punched me and made me land straight in my ass.
The impact was less than I thought but the shock was what made me stay on my ass and therefore giving him the advantage to get me.
I had felt so confident telling him off, that I wouldn't have expected him to go against it at the last minute.
He proceeded to take my clothes off, slapping and hitting me every times I struggle against him.
I yelled and yelled but no one could hear me and the phone that Dimitri had given me was thrown out of my reach.
I was now only in my bra and underwear because he had ripped my shirt open and had pulled out my pants.
When he pulled his zipper down, I froze.
I was terrified and I froze.
My head yelled at me to kick him and do something to call Dimitri but I just stood there frozen and recalling all the other times he had done this. I felt pain, and hurt, and disgust. It felt cold and I wanted to go away, to hide in my darkness.
My body was going numb, trying to go shrink and not feel what it was feeling. The disgusting, sickening, awful feeling that he gave me whenever he touched me.
My eyes were full of tears. Angry fucking tears I couldn't let out. I couldn't let him win.
If I broke down it would be as he was finally winning.
He could subdue me to surrender to his atrocious abuse but he couldn't do that to my mind. I wouldn't let him conquer my mind.
But slowly I was losing the fight, the more he did his repulsive acts, the more I wanted to give up.
And suddenly the door tore open and he was there, charging down the hall like Death in a cowboy duster.
My savior.
Emotional chapter for me to write. I wanted to get all of Rose's emotions right and I don't know if I did her justice.
