I was suffocating. Viktor had gotten hold of me. He was stripping me down. Slapping my skin until it was raw. He had a hold on my neck, enough to inflict pain, but not let me out of breath.
My body was shutting down.
I knew for sure this time I was going to die.
He grabbed my undergarments and ripped them apart.
"You're about to know what real pain is, bitch!"
Oh no no no. This can't be happening. Why? Why now? Why me?
Dimitri...Where are you?
Dimitri.. Dimitri! DIMITRI ! I need you! Dimitri!
"Roza, I'm here, I'm here. Everything is okay." I was suddenly brought out of my nightmare. I rose from the bed, gasping to catch my breath.
I was sweaty and sticky. Disgusting. My mind was reeling with the thought of Viktor's hands on me, I shuttered.
"Are you okay? It was a nightmare, nothing more. I'm here" Dimitri whispered. Slowly reaching to touch me, but afraid that I will reject his touch.
I nod my head and rest it against his chest. I always thought his touch would bring me uneasiness but it brought comfort and safety. Safety.
"Can.. Can you stay here tonight? Please, I won't be able to go back to sleep otherwise." My voice was dry but desperate, showing how much I needed Dimitri.
"Of course Roza, there's nothing I wouldn't do for you." He shifted our position, and without letting me go, we found the right way to settle in. Laying down, me on his chest, my legs draping around his.
He reached over to turn off the lamp and then he settled back in.
I didn't give much thought to anything around me anymore as I fell into a dreamless state.
Or not so dreamless after all.
All I remember is that it had been the best damn dream of my life, when Mason came in crashing through the door.
"Rosie, why are you sleeping with our new daddy?" He yelled in his sweet innocent voice. Dimitri's body was startled but he didn't wake up. Now looking at him sleeping so peaceful made my heart ache, in a good way.
His perfect features were careless in a way, no longer pensive or with worry lines, just free and passive. He was more beautiful, if that was even possible.
"Ah, Mase well you see Dimitri is not your new dad." I replied.
His face turned into a small frown but then his eyes sparkled.
"Is he your boyfriend then?"
"Who's Roza's boyfriend?" Said Dimitri's sleepy voice. I hadn't heard him getting up, but he was already out of the bed.
"You, silly! Who else" Mason shrieked, and pointed his small finger at Dimitri.
"Oh" Dimitri stood at the edge of the bed, a look of confusion on his face.
"Don't mind him Dimitri, he's talks nonsense all the time. Come on Mase I have to get you ready for school. It's Friday! Tomorrow is camping day!" I yelled as I picked him up and carried him to his room, him making little noises and laughing, trying to be serious and tell me to put him down because he was too big for me to be doing that.
x.
At 7 o clock Eddie and Mason were leaving, safely in the bus.
I went back to Dimitri's apartment and got the toast ready and some milk. I didn't want to make a more elaborate breakfast because I knew it would take long and Adrian hated waiting.
I heard the shower being turned off and I couldn't help but think about the last time Dimitri had taken a shower. And the things he made me feel.
The things that were so foreign to me that I couldn't believe they had actually been felt.
I went to gather my clothes for school before I saw Dimitri again; knowing that the memory of him butt naked will forever stay with me.
After I heard his door close silently, I rushed out the door and quickly got in the bathroom. The cold water hitting my skin, this is exactly what I needed to get the dirty thoughts that were circling my mind out.
I was out of the shower and dressed in less than twenty minutes, waiting for Dimitri to come into the kitchen and eat his toast.
"Umm, it smells good Roza" Dimitri said as he came in through the dining's room door.
"Calm down your panties Comrade, it's only toast and Nutella" which I had mention that I developed an obsession with? The only reason I didn't eat it all day was because it made me break out.
"Oh Rose. I still appreciate it. And who doesn't love Nutella?" He smiled at me as he took both plates out of my hands and led to the dining room, me on his tail with two tall cups of milk.
I said my goodbye to Dimitri with another kiss on the cheek, this time slowly taking my time to get a good sniff of his aftershave.
Oh god he smelled divine, I fell hot everywhere and decided to ignored it. That was just my body's response to everything that was Dimitri.
x.
"Earth to Rose, earth to Rose." Adrian touched my hand that lay just next to him.
It made me flinch but only because I was caught off guard. However, Adrian had taken it as if it had bothered me and moved his hand instantly as if I had burned him.
"Oh yes, sorry I was out of it. You know, just thinking about how fun Prom is going to be." Lies.
I had been thinking on what I've seen yesterday in the bathroom. Somehow I couldn't rip that image out of my mind, no matter how much I tried. Or shouldn't I say I didn't try? I wanted that image to stay there, if I was being truthful. Thinking about Dimitri and how it would be for me to make gentle love to me was the only thing that kept my mind busy from going to the bad memories of what Viktor had done to me.
"It's okay Rosie. I would offer you Starbucks but my love decided to be late today and it would be a miracle if we got to school on time." It seemed that my goodbye to Dimitri had taken longer than I had imagined. Which didn't appear so now that I thought about it, it had been rather fast. Too fast for my liking.