Disclaimer: Nothing's changed. i still don't own these beautiful characters.
Sora sat down beside Riku.
And suddenly the silence felt like it was engulfing the both of them, choking Sora and weaving its icy fingers through his skin. Making him want to claw at his body in an attempt to rid himself of its uncomfortable grasp.
"I don't get it." he finally spat out, needing to say something before his own thoughts consumed him, "you were the most normal out of all of us."
Riku chuckled.
"So, am I not normal anymore?"
Sora didn't answer.
The silence continued.
"When I was younger, my mom would always tell me to smile more. We had arguments about the fact that I didn't smile enough, can you believe that? And I tried; I tried to smile for her sake. But I didn't know how to tell her that it felt like the darkness in me wanted out. That every drop of happiness in everything that I saw and witnessed was eventually consumed in this unexplained darkness. But I kept quiet because the illusion of my happiness made it easier for her to pretend that she was happy. So I watched. I watched when my dad hurt her and I continued to act like we were a happy family. I watched as she suffered because of her dependancy to a man that honestly couldn't care less about her. And I pretended to be happy. And she pretended that everything was okay. And we pretended together."
"Riku... "
"But I can't pretend anymore. The darkness that I worked so hard to ignore... it's back. And I don't know how to make it go away. It's consumed everything."
Sora clenched his hands so that his nails dug into his palm, the pain reminding him that he was still there.
"Riku, we can fight the darkness together. We can."
"No we can't, Sora. Don't you get it? I don't even just want to die anymore, now... now I just want to cease to exist. I want this great big... nothingness that I feel to consume me so that I disappear because I cant do this anymore. I don't want to do this anymore. I'm tired of fighting."
So university has finally released me from it's evil grasp.
i'm on holiday for 6 weeks. Woop Woop.
i solemnly swear to work on the requests that i've received.