Chapter 5

The sun was up, heating everything that was in it's the plants with rays that warm up every inch of their being. I laid out arms spread and all. Soaking up what little time I had in the sun. Savoring every moment that I could remember, cause let's face it. Knowing my life, I would have a better chance at being killed, then having a chance to enjoy my life. The dream last night was an old memory. I was nine back then and I didn't know what I was doing. I was too young, but know as I think about it, I did have feelings for him, but at the same time I have these ever growing feelings for Bill. What would I decide a guy that I barely know or a guy that I've met when I was eight.

I stepped inside the house and started to shower. As I stepped out and picked out a black and white dress to wear for tonight. I was brushing my hair as I spotted the necklace that was laid out on top of my vanity. I took it in my palm as I grazed my fingers around it. Letting my mind know every crack and corner of it. Not allowing my brain to ever forget it, in fear of it disappearing, and having no reminder of my travels. Not knowing of what Eric's and my journey was even real or fake. I lifted it up and unclasped it as I laid it around my neck clasping it, so it stayed. I looked in the mirror that sat on the vanity as i saw the reflection. Noticing that it didn't look that bad. I stepped out and drove to Shreveport, where soon I would be with Eric. It's been such a long time since I saw him and talked like we did as we were kids. It would be strange. But I had to know what my feelings were for him. I know that my feelings haven't changed ever since I was little, I knew. But know I don't know. Life was just to complicated. I didn't know how people could live through life without drama interacting with a person.

The parking lot was full. Filled with all sorts of fangbangers. The air smelled of smoke and bile that I quickly came to the entrance. Where a blonde vampire stood, as I remembered from last night her name was, Pam. I held my id to her. Not sure if she remembered, but as soon as I pulled it out she shook her head and lead me the way. She opened the door and there was a blonde vampire viking sitting in a chair. He was filling out paper work as Pam entered. He looked up, and suddenly he stopped attention elsewhere, clearly not interested in the paperwork anymore. He slowly stood up and he ordered for Pam to leave. As quickly as she closed the door the sooner where Eric stood just mere inches away from me. I gulped, clearly not liking the way things were going. He reached a hand towards me, acting on the same instinct as last night. But then he noticed the necklace as his hands entangled it. His eyes were filled of recognition and remembrance as he looked to the necklace to me to back at the necklace. We stayed like this for what seemed like ages as he then looked at me for what seemed like the umpteenth time.

"You didn't forget." I shook my head smiling in response.

" How could I forget. You gave me this, where you could have given it to anyone. It was passed from your father from your father's father. You could have kept it, or you could have given it to anyone. You choose me so I honored your memory and kept it. Always remembering the viking." I picked up a frame upon his desk. It had a picture of a women and a man. Both of them having a resemblance to Eric.

"I remember, how nice she was. How she was always protective towards us. She was strong and you should be proud of being her son." I stated as he came near me and took the picture away from me setting it down on the desk beside his still ignored paperwork.

"I was and she was." he said as he came around to sit again at his desk. I sat down in response. As he did also. We sat there for awhile. Still not believing this was true. That the Eric that I knew from so long ago was sitting right here in front of me. The guy who gave me my first kiss as I remembered that I could start to feel my head getting hot as my cheeks became red, I looked up at him and tried to get all my thoughts into a sentence but I couldn't, I didn't know where to start at. There was to much.

"Sookie?"

"Yes"

"How was your life? I mean growing up. Did you ever have thoughts about me? Our kiss?" He smirked at that and I had to roll my eyes. All guys ever think about is kissing why can't they just think about non relationship things. Like the weather or something. I shifted my legs in my seat as I began to speak. "So far my life has been the same, I just recently gotten into a relationship with Mr. Compton, but I'm not totally sure on my feelings towards him." Wow did I just tell Eric about my feelings, something must be wrong. "Does he do things, that bother you?" he replied back questionably.

What was this therapy? I shook my head horizontally in answer of his question. I stood up then and Eric came to be by my side. He inched closer our bodies touching. Our lips were close enough that if I moved we would kiss. But did I still feel this way towards him. My body would say yes, but what about my heart. I knew half of it was with bill because there was a inkling feeling that I had for him, the other half was with Eric: who I would always remember being my first crush, my first kiss. But at the same time he captured my heart too. My heart was beating fast as I was sure he could hear it. He didn't give any inclination of hearing it as his mouth got closer my body was answering and my mind was turning to mush. For this second I let it. I needed to know if I still had feeling for him, sure enough as we kissed I could feel the connection. All of the sudden nothing mattered anymore as he held me close. Knowing after all this time he was the same but more experienced. In that instant my feelings were decided. As both of us clasped our palms around the symbol of our love. As we kissed my mind wandered until it found something horrifying.

The horrifying thought was " How to tell Bill that I didn't have feelings for him, but somehow remaining in the friends stage" that was going to end well. I guess that was something to look forward to after tonight. Tonight was about Love. Let tomorrow bring Sorrow, where i'm sure i will drink to my hearts content.

~X~

It was tomorrow night, well it was Friday night and Merlottes was busy. Arlene and me were servers tonight where Tara was a bartender. It was busier then usual. We actually people waiting forming a line. Merlottes was a an average place, where people could hang out and have a good time. I headed over to my section and found the people looking at the menus. I asked them what I could get them for drinks. I wrote down 2 Cokes, 2 Bud Lights, and a Sprite. Heading my way towards the bar. Tara was so busy, that me and Arlene had to actually go behind the bar and get the drinks ourselves. Sam was working the customers, making sure there food was alright and to see if they were having a great time. Which I think, he could at least be helping Tara at the bar. As I filled the two cokes, I let my mind drift off sensing everybody else's thoughts.

I could hear all sorts of thoughts like:

As soon as I get out of here

I'm going to sneak out so I can hang with my friends

Damn! Why can't I be as hot as Marie

I miss Dawn, she was like an angel making my mind wild. Her hair was like a flower.

I looked right in front of me and Hoyt Thortenberry was the sweetest guy. I walked over towards him and gave him a hug. Our waitress Dawn had just died and nobody knew what happened. They suspected that my brother Jason did it, but I don't think that was the case. I could never believe my brother would do that. I grabbed my drinks and headed my way towards the five top. I sat there drinks on the table and the room became quiet. I saw many faces turn to the entrance to the bar. Everyone's faces were priceless expressions as a vampire walked in. A vampire I was dreading to see right now. It was Bill Compton. I walked towards him grabbing his hand leading him outside.

" Bill" I stated.

"Yes, Sookie"

"Why.. are you here? If I may ask." Trying to be as nonchalant as I could be.

"Well, I was wondering if you could accompany me to a night of music?"

"Like a date?'

"That would be the word for it. I guess." He inched closer to me taking my hands in his. This was just all to fast. I knew my heart was beating at a pace. But last night I've been so sure about my decision, but there was something inside of me, that couldn't possibly see the sight of this man broken. I closed my hands around his, trying to ask my heart why it was doing this to me. Why I couldn't just make a choice. Why this was so hard.

'I would be happy to" I smiled. Not wanting to break the other half of my heart. I walked back in to the battle zone. A zone filled with drama and dread that if you were telepathic you wished you were dead.