I'm so sorry! I know I said I was going to update a month ago and I didn't but remember that I told you some time ago that I was going to move?, well I'm the middle of that, packing all the crap I have join in my 18 years, cleaning and throwing away things that are useless, then my winter holidays finish so I had to go back to my last year of high school which means that this is my second part of the year and the most difficult because in November I will be graduating so I must have all the subject pass, I return to my first certificate lessons too so I'm working on that too and then this week my computer where I have all the chapters and the information I use broke! So I have to start writing this chapter again! I was in the middle of the chapter, I want to kill myself I hope that I can fix it for next week but I really doubt it, so I don't know what I'm going to do. But anyway now here I'm again with my coffee, my lemon pie, my cigarettes, my music and this other computer. As I don't have access to this computer all day, just some hours per day I don't know how much I will be able to write or how long it will take me to write new chapters. I hope it doesn't take me another month to next chapter, I will do my best.
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Ana PoV
This last past week have been wonderful, a lot of things have happen, my mom went back to Georgia, Mia s birthday, our fourth months scan, the visit to the house which is almost finish, Christmas shopping for the family and the decoration of the tree we put here at Escala and finally the most important my baby bump have finally make an appearance and finally the press now is aware that Christian and I are waiting a baby they catch Christian and I in a restaurant and took a picture of us.
When my mom went back to Georgia the goodbye was terrible and thankfully to my pregnant hormones I couldn't stop crying and my mom known as the drama queen she is join me in my tears party Christian wasn't really pleased to see me cry like that but he understood that nothing was wrong and I was only sad because I was saying good-bye to my mom, she leave promising me to come back for new years eve or the first week of the year which is no so far away from now. When we were riding back to Escala I cry so much that I fell asleep in Christians lap when he was trying to comfort me.
Mia s party was another thing nothing to do with sadness, it was a beautiful party, full of people and happiness, as she turn 21 she made a big party. Everything was beautiful, the place she chose which look exactly like the castle of a princess, her light purple dress that was wonderful, the decoration, and one of the best things was the food! I know I m eating a lot lately sometimes I think I have a monster inside me; Blip makes me eat all day no matter the time or the place where I'm. obviously Christian is more than please to see me eat but if I continue eating like this when I'm near to my due date I will be as big as a house and I don't think I will be attractive to Christian, even if he reassured me every day how beautiful I look pregnant. Well continuing with the party, the theme was girls is in blue boys in pink. I remember how Christian and Elliot react to that, they told Mia that there was no fucking way they would wear pink but as always what their baby sister wants they baby sister get so they wear pink and I must say that they look wonderful, even if they weren't so pleased. Grace took a picture of the three girls and then the three boys, then one of Mia and Ethan, Kate and Elliot and then one of me and Christian and finally one of the six of us. I made a collage with them and now it is in my desk at the library, this pregnancy is making me dedicated to art and craft I even make Christian help me with an album of photos I'm making, he was like a little kid all dirty with paint and glue. He is learning a lot of things.
Talking about couples and love… Mia and Ethan are now in a serious relationship, when I have lunch with Kate and Mia some weeks ago, Mia told us that Ethan was no longer having problems with being with her knowing her brother and his sister were engaged, so they move on but with that said, there were not boyfriend and girlfriend but they do were exclusive and were knowing each other better so now after Mia's birthday they are officially a couple, the morning after the party Mia call me screaming that now she has a boyfriend. I'm so happy for them; they make a wonderful couple both of them really pretties. Mia said that she call me to tell me because I was the one that make them meet each other and even if they were going to meet each other occasionally because of Kate and Elliot, I was the one that introduce them.
Our fourth months scan was great, blip is not anymore a little blip now he or she is a bigger one, one that is growing perfectly fine and healthy, everything went fine but not one of things we were dying to know. The sex of the baby, Blip didn't let us see if we will be having a baby boy or a baby girl. I guess Blip wants us to wait a little longer and there is nothing wrong with that but Christian was really excited to find out the sex of the baby he even talk to blip the night before.
The night before the scan…
I'm lying on my back with Christian on his side with his head on my chest, one of his hand on my stomach and on leg between mine, both very sated after our round of making love.
Suddenly he sits up and put his head next to my belly which has grown considerably lately. "Hi, little blip, how are you doing in there? Are you comfortable inside mommy's belly? Is she feeding you enough? Are you growing healthy? Do you listen to me?" he says to my belly stopping to kiss it. When he is doing I feel this feeling of little butterflies which I'm not sure if they are because of how much I love Christian and how it melted my heart to see him talk to the baby or if it is Blip that is moving inside me.
I giggle and answer him. "I think that you can notice that Blip is being feed enough and is growing healthy, have you seen the size of my belly? When he or she is ready to born I will be as big as the new house!" I tell him caressing his hair.
"I don't care how big you get Anastasia as long as my baby is healthy if you need to be as big as a house you will be as big as a house, I don't want to discuss this again." We have discuss my problem with gaining weight more than one time, and if I'm honest it doesn't bother me any more I think it was just the shock of being pregnant at the beginning and my insecurities of not being enough for Christian but now it is all over and I'm more than happy to eat if its mean that my baby will be healthy, Christian has make sure to make feel beautiful every day.
"I know Christian, and I don't care how big I get if it to keep my baby healthy. It really doesn't bother me anymore" I say to him.
"Good, because I don't want to talk about that anymore, and I must tell that I like seeing you eat, before you were not eating enough" he stop closing the topic and turn his attention to Blip. "Will you let us know if you are a girl or a boy tomorrow? I can't wait to go shopping and buy you lots of cars if you are a boy or lots of pink clothes and dolls if you are a girl and then going to Dr. Flynn office to have long talk about how I'm going to deal with you and your mother if you are a girl." Christian has now accepted the fact that maybe Blip is not a boy and can be a girl.
"Honey, Dr. Greene said it was not sure if she will be able to see the sex of the baby tomorrow and it depends on the mood of the baby and if he or she is willing to let us not maybe he doesn't want to let as now and he doesn't. So don't get too excited because if we are not able to find out you will be disappointed and I don't want that for you. "I tell him sincerely I don't want that he feels bad tomorrow if we don't find out.
"I know baby but I'm too anxious and want to know now, I don't think I can wait to the next appointment, I want to know now, so I can start buying things we also need to start looking for furniture, we have already decide which room will be the nursery so now we have to start organizing" he tells me
"I know baby and believe it or not even if I hate shopping I want to go shopping for blip too, but maybe we will have to wait to the next appointment to find out and besides in the next appointment if we see the sex of the baby the percentage will be higher, so we will have less chance of have a mistaken result" I say to him.
"Don't doubt that as soon as we find out we will be going out shopping" he says grinning happily. "Well Blip is late and mommy and daddy have to sleep to they can see you tomorrow, sleep good baby, see you tomorrow when you let us know if you are a beautiful boy or a beautiful girl just like your mommy. Love you." He says sincerely kissing me belly once again; I love how he has come accept the baby and the idea of being a parent. Then he returns to his earlier place, next to me "And for you Mrs. Grey is time to sleep too, we have a very important appointment, one I have waited for a month, and you have to rest. Good night I love you" he says placing a leg between mine and one hand in my belly as every night.
"I'm excited too, but you need to calm down a little, the anxious is going to go against you then, Good night, love you more" I murmur to him placing one hand with his on my belly.
When we couldn't see the sex of the baby Christians face drop, at the thought of having to wait another month to figure it out, anyway he was really excited and happy because we saw the baby and everything was perfectly fine…
Before my mom went back to Georgia, Christian, my mom and I went to see the house and Elliot gives us a full tour around the house it is staying really good, Gia made a really good job with the draws and the little changes we wanted and Elliot's team have made a really good job remodeling the house, we already decide which room will be nursery of Blip, he or she will be sleeping in the room next to us, obviously Christian made sure that all the rooms were sound proof. I feel in love with the kitchen and I'm sure Gail will love to cook in there, it really big with an island in the middle, all the furniture are black and white, the breakfast bar is even prettier than the one at Escala and one of the most wonderful things is that it has a big window where you can see the meadow while you cook. As we were walking around the house Christian starts feeling annoying because he told me the workers were staring at me, I thought we had pass this feeling when he thinks everyone is looking at me and waiting to be inside my panties, although my mom was thrilled with the house and of course she got emotional and start crying obviously I joining her and when Christian saw me hugging my mom and crying he roll his eyes muttering women and hormones, my mom told me that she was really happy that I was getting everything I want and more and that I was happy and starting my own family. Almost all the new furniture we already buy has already been delivered and occupies their place, the living room is almost ready, the kitchen and Christian and mines office, the pool, the new gym and the TV room as long as the playroom is all finish, the rest of the rooms just needs little things to be totally finish.
Our bedroom is almost finished; the workers are finishing our closet, which is huge! At the beginning we had decide that we wanted separate closet but then we decide that it would be better to have only one instead of two, so now there is a huge closet it's almost two-time bigger than the one at Escala I don't know what we are going to do with so much space.
We decided to leave Blip room white because as we don't know whether we are having a boy or a girl we don't want to choose a color yet, so when we finally know we can decide which color we want and buy all the furniture.
Eliot told us that surely the first week of January we will be able to move into the new house, so I start to unpack some things I want to take to the new house, Christian already told me that all the furniture of Escala will be kept there and the new house will have new ones, he also told me that I should leave some clothes here and other stuff in case we need to stay here one night in the future or when we want some time for us in the red room, before we knew about the baby we had already decide that we didn't want to have a red room in the new house because we knew that in the future it will be a family home, what we didn't know was that we will be starting our family so soon, so even we haven't gone to the red room in a long time, because Christian refuse to take me there, he thinks that in the future maybe we will spend some night here.
The day after my mom left to Georgia Christian and I went to buy a Christmas tree and the decoration, Christian insist that he could have someone doing it for us, but I insist him that as this was our first Christmas together and the only one before our baby arrives I wanted to do the decoration with him. Finally he agreed and we decorate a beautiful big tree with white and red ornaments, when we finish with the decoration we eat dinner next to the tree and in front of the fireplace after eating we were cuddle in the floor with some cushions while we were lying peacefully there with Christians hands in my belly he told me about his first Christmas with the Grey s.
"I remember being with Grace in the house and she bringing a box full of ornaments, I help her putting them in the tree, I liked the sound of the bell, at that time I don't speak to any of them so I remember repeating all the things she told me, when Elliot return from school my dad help him putting the star at the top of the tree, I remember wanting to put it but I don't want to him to carry me and helping me so I never did it. It was all too new for me so I was still adapting to it"
it really break my heart to heard that he has to go throw all that as a kid, so young, so innocent, so helpless, when he was not able to defense himself, I know he will never do something like that to our child or allow someone to do that. I know he will do anything to keep us safe.
Some days ago Christian and I were having lunch in a restaurant, the press took some pictures of us, I must say that the pictures were really good, it show us enjoying each other company in our little bubble, very happy and smiling most of the time, there was a moment during lunch that Christian put his hand on my belly I was watching him with our eyes lock in each other and then there is sequence of picture of us kissing with his hand still on my belly, after they took those picture they start with the rumors of us expecting a baby, the article they write talk about how well I was healing after the incident with Jack some time ago, which was not necessary but they also remark that during our lunch we show them being very in love and happy with each other company, they remark that they saw Christians hand resting in my belly and that that might be a sign of expecting a baby. After that they start chasing us so we didn't have another choice than to make an announcement to the press confirming the news about the baby we were really clear that as we were keeping this between family until now we want them to respect our privacy and didn't want them being after us all the time trying to catch a glimpse of me, or the baby bump, when I arrive at my office the day after the announcement my office was full of congratulations gifts from people who I don't know, there was flowers, chocolates, teddy bears, books about parenthood and babies, Christian told me that he receive gifts too, a lot of them were chocolate which we enjoy eating them together, most of the gifts were made by co workers.
I'm brought out of my thoughts by a knock on the door.
"Come in" I tell whoever is on the other side of the door.
"Hi Mrs. Grey, why aren't you picking up your phone, I have called you." My sexy husband tells me walking in and closing the door.
"Hello beautiful, sorry I have my phone on my purse, I didn't take it out today yet" I say to him and grab my purse. I don't know why I have so much things here, I have chewing gum, lipstick, a mirror, my agenda, some pens, my wallet, some chocolates, gummy bears, a lot of papers, as I'm looking for my phone I see that Christian is watching me with a smile.
"I don't know why you have so much shit in there, you should use one that is smaller so you don't have space to put all that shit, you never find anything in there. " he tells me coming to rest against my desk.
"I don't know either, the bigger the purses are more shit women put in there" I tell him and finally at the end of my purse is my phone. "Here it is" I say smiling at him and showing him the phone. I see my phone and see that I have 5 missing call and three messages, all of them from Christian.
Message number one: "I talk to Hannah she told me that you are in a meeting call me when you finish, love you"
Message number two: "Are you still in your meeting? I told you not to work too much. I'm waiting your call."
Message number three: "Anastasia, why aren't you picking up your phone? I told you that you have to carry your phone everywhere, call me in 5 minutes or I will have to go to check on you by myself, you know I worry when you don't answer me"
"Sorry I don't answer any of your calls or messages, but I really forgot about my phone, I have a meeting and then I have some manuscripts to read so I don't even remember my phone and I don't listen to it either" I say to him rubbing is leg.
"It's okay, but I told you that you don't have to work so much and you know you must have your phone at all the times, if something happen to you, with your phone you can call Sawyer, Taylor, Hannah or me, and if you don't have it with you, you can't do that"
"I know that and I'm sorry but I forgot about it."
"I had to call Hannah twice to make sure you were here and then I talked to Sawyer to make sure you were still in the building" he says worried.
"Sorry it won't happen again I promise" I tell him standing up and kissing his cheek.
"I hope it doesn't happen again, you know I spend my life worrying about you" he says wrapping his arms around me.
"I know" I say to him and kiss him. As we are kissing my stomach grumbles. Oh shit! I don't eat in the entire morning, I forgot about lunch too? What time it is? Oh no, he is going to be mad if I skip lunch.
"Have you eaten something?" he asks looking me in the eyes.
"Hmmm, no yet" I say quietly trying not to pissed him.
"And are you planning in having lunch?"
"Yes, I guess I don't know what time it is" I say to him and then checking the hour in the beautiful watch he give me in our honeymoon.
"I came here with the intention of going out to have lunch with you if you don't have anything planned" he tells me with hope.
"No, I don't have anything planned and I think my next meeting is with Roach at 3 PM so I'm free for lunch, and you know I love having lunch with you" I say moving forward to kiss his cheek.
"Good, oh by the way I love this picture" he says pointing to the picture of us at Mia s birthday,
"I love it too, but can we go to have lunch I'm hungry" I say to him and my stomach grumbles again.
He laugh and grab my coat to help me with zip it I grab my purse and we make our way out of my office.
"Where do you want to go?" he asks me when we are reaching the car.
"Lately I have had this craving of pasta, but we already eat pasta two times this week, so if you don't want pasta we can go wherever you want to go" Blip seriously loves pasta.
"You know that whatever you and the baby wants you get, I had already told you this two nights ago when you wake me in the middle of the night" he says smiling.
I laugh remembering when I wake him because I had a craving.
Two nights before…
I wake in the middle of the night, I glance at the clock it is 2:15 in the morning, and a little someone it's playing in my bladder, so I try to escape from Christian's arms and legs so I can go to the bathroom. He stirs but doesn't wake; quietly I go to the bathroom.
When I finish with my toilet necessities I go to the kitchen to grab a glass of juice, as I'm filling my glass of juice something occurs to me, I want ice cream, yes, chocolate ice cream with chips, and chocolate sauce, and cream and cherries. Oh my god! I can't be thinking of food at 2 in the morning, but apparently the same person who is playing with my bladder is hungry and wants ice cream.
I go to the fridge looking for ice cream, as it is one of my craving I find some strawberry ice cream, but I want chocolate ice cream. Well I will have to see if there is some chocolate. Fuck! There is only one, well I hope this is enough for Blip until tomorrow when I can buy ice cream.
I make my way to the bedroom again; when I return to the bed Christian instantly wrap his arms around me.
I try to sleep again but I can't, I look at the clock and it is 2:45, I can't sleep because I still want ice cream. Maybe if I wake Christian he can go to buy me some ice cream, or should I call sawyer? He is probably asleep, maybe Taylor, Ryan or Reynolds? Surely someone is working during the night but I'm sure if they would be allowed to go buy some ice cream. I better try to sleep.
3 in the morning and I still can't sleep, would Christian be mad If I wake him? I have never waked him during night because I have a craving. I decide to wake him and see how this end.
I turn around in his arms and touch his face talking softly to him.
"Christian, baby wake up" he doesn't even move, he sleeps like a rock. "Christian" I shake him a little… nothing. "Christian!" I say more loudly. Nothing!
I'm fucking hungry, I want ice cream and I don't want my baby to born with an ice cream in the middle of the forehead. Well that's what people say that happens to babies when mothers don't accomplish their wishes.
"Christian wake up!" I say loudly and sternly. Now he hears me.
Immediately he sits up runs his hand throw his hair and look at me with worries all over his face.
"What happen? Are you pain, is something wrong with Blip, do you want me to call my mom or Dr. Greene, an ambulance, Taylor? Fuck Ana tell me what the fuck is wrong" he talks so fast that I think he is not even breathing.
"Don't worry everything is fine…" I look at my fingers and I think that maybe it wasn't a good idea to wake him it was obvious that if I wake him at 3:20 in the morning he will worry. "It's just that I have a crave" I say guilty
He look at the clock and then at me. "At 3:20 in the morning?" he says.
"Yes" I whisper almost inaudible.
"And what is that you want?"
"I want chocolate ice cream with chips, and chocolate sauce, and cream and cherries." I say fast but excited like a little kid.
"You want all that now?" he says surprise.
"No, not I, your son or your daughter want ice cream."
"Well if he or she wants ice cream, daddy will have to go and buy ice cream for their babies" he says placing one hand in my belly.
"Really? Would you go to buy ice cream at this time in the night, just for me or the baby?"
"Of course I would do anything for you or our baby, even if it is going to buy food in the middle of the night" he says rubbing his hand trough my belly. Then he kisses me softly.
When he return and I finally had my ice cream when send emails to our PA to let them know we were going to the offices late surely after lunch.
Christian assures me that when I want something don't doubt to ask him, that is what he is there for, even if it is ice cream in the middle of nights…
"I know and that is one of the reasons why I love you even more everyday" he stops next to the door of the car to kiss me very passionately.
We go to the Italian restaurant which is really good, and is the one that we are attending often.
I chose a caprese pasta salad, Christian chose lasagna.
"So what are the plans for Christmas and new year eve?" I say to him drinking my juice.
"For now, we will spend Christmas at my parent house with my family and Kate and Ethan parents and the grandparents, maybe we will spend the night there, and for New Years Eve I have no idea yet"
"Oh that's good, I love spending time with your family, I wish my mom would come but she says that she has to stay there to spend Christmas with Bobs family" I really wish she could come.
"I know baby but maybe next year when our baby is here and we celebrate his or her first Christmas I think that she will no doubt to be here" he says taking my hand.
"I hope she does, I want her near as and I want her to be present in our child life"
"Me too, did I tell you that Taylors daughter will be arriving tomorrow? His ex-wife is going on holidays with her boyfriend and says that as she is with Sophie all year he should keep her while she is away"
"No, you didn't tell me. Oh that's wonderful! I will finally meet her; we will have to control our selves"
"I guess I forgot to mention it to you, she will be with us for two or more weeks, she is sweetest little girl I have ever seen, she is shy and gorgeous, very intelligent too, Taylor is really excited about this, the most probably is that during this time he will be off of work but he will be staying at Escala anyway, but he won't be driving us"
"That's fine; he deserves to spend time with his daughter"
We spend the rest of the lunch talking about Christmas, Sophie's visit, the new house and the things we need to pack and the one we have to buy.
When we return to SIP, Christian insist on going with me to my office, when we approach my office I see that someone is waiting for me.
Jose, is waiting in the hall outside my office, it's now that I remember that I hadn't told Jose about the baby yet and as the trip to my office was charged with electricity because of Christian and I being so close, I took off my coat and with the clothe I'm wearing today you can see my little baby bump.
When he see us he smiles but then his eyes instantly travel to my belly, I wonder if the news of the baby arrive on Portland.
Well I guess that it will be easier to let him known by the press and not me, it would awkward to tell him, I don't know why but surely it would be weird.
I feel Christian tense a little and tight his grip on my hand.
I'm the first to make a move. "Hi Jose, nice to see you again, it's been a while. What a surprise" I say smiling to him.
"Hi Ana, HI Christian, yes I come for some business and think that I could visit you if you are not busy" he says and I know he is not too comfortable.
"Oh that's great I hope you are doing fine with photographs, and no I'm not busy I just return from lunch"
"Hi Jose, nice to see you" Christian finally speak. "Well baby now that you are safely here, I will go to my office I have a meeting soon; I will be here to pick you up at 5:30. I love you" he says and then he kisses me placing a hand on my belly. The kiss is too long and passionately I know he is being possessive and showing Jose who I belong but I could be more his if I try, I'm pregnant, I'm married, who else does he want a tattoo in the forehead?
"Okay I will see you then I love you" I say smiling to him.
"Bye Jose, good to see you again."He says shaking his hand
Christian leaves with a last kiss.
"Well Jose, should we go to my office?" I don't know how this will go.
I hope that the delayed of a month is worth it for this chapter.
Next chapter, the talk with Jose, Sophie's visit and I don't know what else more yet.
I'm planning on writing a chapter for Ana's birthday next 10 of September, as it is my birthday too, so I listen to your ideas for presents.
If you want to suggest presents for Christmas I will be grateful too.
Any other ideas to have I will appreciate them.
Thanks for reading.
Cami