Yuuta
I sat at Shun's table like I always did, but it felt so different now. I felt so different now. Every look at his parents was so awkward now considering I was all over their son last night. Now I knew why boyfriends felt awkward meeting the parents. They talked about their trip while Shun's brother grumbled about being dragged along while we had fun.
Shun slyly slid all his onions onto my plate. He was so good at it now that he could do it while talking to someone, not even looking at my plate. I could tell his mom noticed, but she didn't say anything like usual. She gave me a pointed smile, that Shun didn't catch. Fuyuki looked between the both of us and rolled his eyes. He pushed his food around his plate, his eyes drooping. He was probably tired from all the traveling. It was at times like that when he looked like Shun the most.
Shun looked at Fuyuki. "Fuyuki...maybe you should go to sleep for awhile?" Fuyuki nodded and left the table. We all watched him stumble up the stairs. He was always the one to fall asleep during long car rides. They'd always put him and Shun asleep. Shun would often sleep on my shoulder.
"Thank you for breakfast." I said as I walked up the stairs to get my things. I didn't want to leave, but I knew I couldn't stay here all day especially when I'd left Yuuki home. He didn't like being alone even if he didn't admit it. I started shoving things into my backpack quickly when the door clicked shut. Shun leaned against it peering at me from under those long lashes.
"You have to go?" He said it quietly, shifted from one foot to the other, looking at me but not looking at me from under his hair.
"I can't leave Yuuki all alone. Don't worry we'll get some time alone again." I walked over and planted a kiss on his forehead. While I pulled back he stood on his toes and kissed me lightly.
"Okay." I could feel my heart speeding up, but I couldn't let myself get swept away when we were no longer alone. I settled for patting his head and then grabbing my bag. He stepped aside reluctantly. I took the stairs two at a time so I wouldn't look back.
I nodded a quick goodbye to his parents before pulling my shoes on. I jogged all the way home. Looking up at the bedroom window, I could already see Yuuki sitting out on the balcony, manga in hand. His eyes locked with mine and he stood up. I let myself in and walked up to our room. He stood in the middle of room, manga in hand staring at me like he did when I went somewhere without him.
I smiled. "Idiot. Why do you always look like that?" He frowned. He stepped forward, let his head fall on my shoulder.
"Why am I such a baby?" I smiled to myself.
"I missed you too Yuuki." I could feel the small smile on my shoulder.
"I think I read my manga too fast when you're not there to bother me, and then I run out of things to do faster. I tried to clean but it wasn't any fun." I shook my head, but left him alone for today. I plopped down in the desk chair.
"Were you lonely?" He shook his head.
"Kaname came by for awhile." Kaname? He must've been really bored or thought that I would be home. "It's not like I can't handle being alone Yuuta. I just don't like it all that much. So don't worry, you have to get exposed to your fears." Sometimes Yuuki really made me laugh. I held it in since he was serious. He said smart things only ten percent of the time.
I stifled a yawn. Whenever I got woken up in a way I didn't like, it was like I never slept at all. Honestly I felt exhausted. I knew all this sneaking around was going to get old quick. My eyes met with Yuuki's. "So did everything go okay?"
"It was fine. Nothing really happened. We ended up just going to sleep." Yuuki laughed.
"Lame." I smiled.
"I know." He stood up and patted my head. It was something I usually did to him, being on the receiving end felt weird. "Go to sleep." He walked out of the room, but not before bumming some money off of me for manga and snacks. He deserved it though. I plopped down on the bed and closed my eyes, thoughts of Shun swimming through my head. I fell asleep with his face in my mind.
Yuuki
I walked to the bookstore, hands shoved in my pockets head down. Things were going to change a lot. I knew it for sure now. There were going to be more nights like last night. It was time I found a new hobby or something. I always knew I relied on Yuuta too much, but now it was so clear. It felt good having him need me for something, having him be the one with the secret. It'd only been that way a couple of times before.
The bell rung as I walked in the bookstore. The countergirl looked up and waved once she saw my face. I was here often. It was one of my safe havens. I nodded and walked back to the manga section, looking straight ahead. I felt sad being here for some reason.
I picked up a few books and flipped through them, but I couldn't get interested. There was a sale, so I bought two anyway. I headed out to the convenience store nearby and picked up tons of snacks. I'd slept in so I wouldn't be able to sleep tonight probably. The sun was shining too brightly today. It was supposed to be winter. I prefered gray skys with clouds spread thin like cotton candy when it was stretched. The air was still crisp and cold though. I inhaled deeply, clutching my bag of snacks.
Instead of heading home I walked to the park near our house where all of us used to play. I walked through the park. Everything seemed so small now...so far away. I crouched in front of the blue tunnel and ran my hand over it's worn surface. I could remember when this was new. I remember reaidng all my favorite books in this tunnel. I remember playing countless games of hide and seek and hiding in the same place almost every time. Everyone laughing because they always knew where I would be, and laughing harder when they found Shun crouched behind the tree because he could never find a place to hide either. I remember Yuuta showing up, holding out his hand, and saying it was time for dinner.
Now thing were the same, but so different at the same time. We had new spots to hide. We had Chizuru and Mary. Everyone had left the worn out tunnels and swing set a part of their past. Sometimes I would stop here and think, remember all these things. Was I the only one who did that? It was suddenly dark. I looked up to see the sun being over taken by large gray clouds. I tipped my head back as the rain started falling. It was freezing harsh winter rain. It felt good on my face. Cleared my mind of all these thoughts I couldn't help having sometimes.
Kaname
My parents were out again. Mom had left me some money for food. I strolled out the convenience store and picked up some riceballs and cheap sushi. I was in the mood for something kind of cold even though the weather was harsh. I took a swig of tea and turned to walk back home. Out of the corner of my eye I noticed that old park where we used to play. I took a couple of steps back. Maybe I would take a look for old times sake.
The rain started slow and picked up quickly. It slapped down all around me fiercely, soaking me before I could even think to run for cover. It was freezing and woke me up. My hair was pressed down to my head and my glasses soaked in record time, still I walked foreward. I stood at the entrance to the park taking everything in. That's when I noticed Yuuki.
He was on his knees with his head tipped back, eyes closed. His bags were discarded beside him. He looked so alive, so different from usual. His clothes were a shade darker, he opened his mouth slightly, tasted the rain water. I blinked a couple of times, but he was still there. I walked closer. His eyes opened slowly and then locked on mine. He stayed where he was though, so I moved closer.
"You're going to catch a cold." I couldn't tell if he was aware that he was crying. He still had that deadpan look on his face.
"So are you." I kept my eyes on him. "Come back with me. Your place is farther." I held out my hand to him.
He took it after a moment and gathered his bags. "You sure it's okay?"
"Yuuta is sleeping anyway, and he wouldn't care even if he wasn't." I followed Yuuki inside.
He stripped right in the doorway. I always wondered how he had any muscle at all being that he was the laziest person I'd ever met. He ran right to the bathroom. Yuuki and Yuuta's bathroom was bigger than everyone's though they didn't have the largest house. The tub could fit three people. After storms like this we always ran here for cover and warmed up under the kotatsu after a bath. I followed him by instinct. He was already huddled in the tub when I came in. "I didn't think it was going to rain." He said quietly. The lights were off so I just left them that way. "Kaname why'd you go to the park?"
"I don't know." I answered honestly. "I just wanted to see it I guess." I slipped in next to him and sat down, our shoulders touching slighty.
"I wish I could still fit in the tunnel. That's why I was sad. I know it sounds stupid." It was quiet for awhile.
"It's not stupid Yuuki. I wish I could still fit in the tunnel too." I could feel him looking at me.
"Oh yeah...you did like the tunnel." He was always hogging it though. "You would read too, but not manga."
I wrapped myself in a robe and waited for Yuuki to bring some clothes down. He came down with a towel on his head, his hair still dripping everywhere. I got dressed and sat down next to the kotatsu. Yuuki sat in front of me and bowed down. He always made me dry his hair. I rolled my eyes, but still toweled his hair off. Shun would usually blow dry everyone's hair, and then Yuuta would do his. Yuuki surprised me by sitting up and placing a towel on my head. He started drying my hair before I could react. "We can't have our Kaname getting a cold."
A little later we were burrowed under the kotatsu. My eyes felt heavy. "Kaname you can sleep."
"This is why I hate this thing...even if I'm not tired..." Yuuki held out his arm.
"I can be your pillow if you want." I'd seen Yuuki sleep a similar way with Yuuta.
"Your arm will go numb." Yuuki shrugged. I laid on his arm and closed my eyes.
"Hey Kaname?" I opened one eye.
"Hm?" Yuuki shifted a bit.
"My arm is numb." He was laughing. It'd been awhile since I heard him laugh like that.
"I told you." I couldn't help but smile.
"But you can stay. It's alright." He closed his eyes. Yuuki had changed and I never noticed. Or maybe it was me who never looked closely at him.