The first chapter I hope you enjoy and if you don't well I don't really care.

Warnings: There is swearing and some suggestions of things that are plain nasty

Disclaimer: I don't own Naruto

Sakura's pov

'Damn that bastard.' I think as I trudged towards the bar 'Desires'. What a hideous name for a bar. Leaving Hinata back there after I had told her of what I needed to do. Her look was a cross between pity, anger, and sadness. Her and I both know what is going to happen after I get him home.

The crowds started to diminish as I continued walking toward the sleazy part of town. The sun continued to stay behind the clouds as if it din't want to see my horrible fate. The atmosphere may be gloomy to others, but it was prefect to me. I wasn't a big fan of the sun since my mother died.

Flashback 3 1/2 years ago

"Mom look what I found!" A 12 year old version of myself exclaimed as I ran up to my mom. The dou were at the beach a rare, but happy occurrence I showed her the star fish proudly. My mom smiled and patted me on the head as the wind started to pick up.

"Good job sweetie." She said as we started to head home. Which wasn't really even a home anymore. With dad and her fighting almost constantly it was almost like living in hell. Dad always complained that I wasn't strong enough to carry on the Haruno name.

'Well screw him.'' My inner voice said as she crossed her arms. She was always pissed nowadays. Mom had said that when I turn 13 or something big happens my inner will go away. I'm both happy and sad to hear that, because she had grown on me.

Mom and I were walking on the cliff path when a huge chunk of it broke off and started to fall on the path we were on. Mom pushed me out of the way and the ground around her started to crack with all the force. I hit the rock wall and clung to it while mom tried to hold her balance. The area where she stood finally crumbled away taking my mom with it.

"MOM!" I shouted as I tried to reach her but was too scared stiff. I watched as she disappeared from my view and fell into the ocean below. A good 50 foot drop. I knew instantly she wouldn't survive.

"MOMMY!" I cried once more as the ground stopped cracking from the force of the chunk. Taking careful steps I peered over the edge looking everywhere for my mom's pink hair. But I couldn't find it. Falling to the ground in despair I screamed and cried for my mom. After what felt like ages I began to feel angry at myself for not being able to do anything even though I'm a ninja.

The wind whipped around me harshly as if it too was angry at me for my weakness. The ocean waves got more and more angry looking as they reared up and crashed down on the mountain side. I looked up at the sky to see it still very clear as though mocking me with its happiness. I wanted to jump off the edge because it was my fault for not saving her.

"HEY ARE YOU ALRIGHT!?" I hear someone yell at me. Turning to the voice I saw Ino and Hinata rushing towards me. They both looked worried. Tears were still slipping down my face as I tried to wipe them away. Both of them pulled me into a hug as I burst into tears again. I tried to tell them what happened, but I was pretty hard to understand. Eventually my body shut down from the stress.

I woke up a day later in the hospital. It appeared that they had brought me here after I passed out. I have never seen my father cry so much before. The funereal was to be held in a few days. Everything had been taken care of promised the person in charge. That was the beginning to my horrible life. It was also the beginning to my father's drinking.

Flashback Ended

Reaching the front door to Desire I shuddered inwardly at what I might have to face. Opening the door I was hit with different smells all were horrible on my nose. Going inside I found my father still drinking. Gearing up for what I have to do I stepped towards him.

Ryuk Haruno was my father, but he was married into the family. He had always wanted a son so the fact that I'm a girl made him treat me like shit. Even before my mother died I wasn't treated nicely, but at least then he had more control than he does now. Standing at 5'11 he was decent height he also had blonde hair and green eyes. We didn't have many similarities which was a good thing in my book.

"Ryuk, I think you've had enough to drink." I say as I try to pull him out of the bar. The bartender looked relieved to see him go. Father tends to have a nasty temper when he is drunk. He looked at me and seemed to not recognize me, which was good because that would make it so much easier to get him home.

" Sylvia your back. My darling." He slurred as he brought me into a hug. Good for now he thought I was mom, this might be easier today. As long as he didn't realize I wasn't mom we would get home decently.

"Yes, Ryuk I'm back now let's go home." I say in a calming way. He looked at me lovingly and allowed me to pull him home. Along the way he continued to gush about how much he missed me and how he couldn't wait to show me how much. 'Not if I have anything to do with it.' I think as I pull him in the door and take him to his room.

"Now you lay down while I go to the bathroom.'' I say again calmly as he goes into the bedroom and passes out. Thankful that this time he didn't try to fight me on it I walked back out the front door and started to head to Ino's.

Ino had changed over the last few years. She had gotten over Sasuke and stopped being so girly. The change mostly had to do with the fact that Akira and Ariana were adopted into her family. They bullied her constantly until she snapped and cut their hair while they slept. Her parents thought very highly of the twins and kicked Ino out for what she did. That day was the day that Ino went from girly to tomboy, she no longer wore makeup or cared about what she dressed in as long as it fit good. Apparently the only reason was girly was because of her parents, she still has her moments though.

Walking up to Ino's tiny apartment was relaxing and quiet. Knocking on her door I was answered with her sleepily yelling that the door was open. She always knew when I was on my way over. It was the same with Hinata too.

Her apartment was barely furnished and not really all that decorated. Ino wasn't poor, but she wasn't rich either. She always said that one day she'll need to leave quickly and she didn't want to waste her time with useless things. Hinata and I think that she might be psychic with how she knows things. Walking to her room I was met with the sight of Ino trying to wake up. By the smell of things I would say that Hinata was here too.