A/N: Well, due to the freak ice storm last night I got a day off of school so I had time to write! After this though I probably won't be able to update until this weekend but I'll try my best. Just know that my update dates will probably be every weekend and Wednesday. But if I have nothing to do then I will update sooner. I know that cliffhanger was mean but I really wanted to leave it at that because now it gets really intense. At least I think it does. See you at the bottom!

Disclaimer: I do not own The Mortal Instruments and I forgot to do this in my last chapter and I have to freaking do this every time. Ugh.

A few seconds later Izzy stormed in through the bathroom door looking flushed, already in her uniform.

"Izzy, I didn't know you got here early." She ignored my question and said the one thing I didn't want to hear at the moment.

"Clary," she took a breath. "We have a problem."

I stared at her for a few seconds before cautiously saying, "What's wrong Isabelle?" She stared at me in the eyes for a moment and muttered something I couldn't hear.

"I'm sorry, what was that?" I asked her. She muttered something a little louder, still too quiet for me to hear.

"Izzy, tell me right now!" I raised my voice.

"Jace and Sebastian are here!" she yelled at me. As soon as she said that my breathing got shallow and I started seeing black spots and I couldn't help but remember something that happened six years ago.

*Flashback*

It was two weeks since I lost my virginity to my boyfriend Jace. He meant the world to me and I was glad he was my first time. It was everything I wanted especially since I shared it with him. He was so gentle with me that you'd think I was made of glass. We were only juniors but I felt like it was right. We've been dating for over a year now anyway.

I was so concentrated on playing the night over in my head while I walked to my house from school that I didn't see Sebastian's car come from behind me.

"Hey Clary," he shouted from the open window of his car, making me squeal.

"Oh my god Sebastian you scared me!"

"Do you want a ride? I was on my way to my aunts and I thought maybe I could drop you off first," I thought for a moment and said what the heck, he was my best friend. But something wouldn't stop telling me this is a bad idea. Jace always told me to 'stay away from Sebastian' but I always thought he was crazy. Sebastian was only trying to help right?

I got in the passenger's side of the silver Audi A7 and closed the door trying to calm myself down. Everything's going to be okay so why am I so on edge? I pulled out my sketchpad and was about to start drawing when Sebastian spoke.

"So Clary, I heard you weren't a virgin anymore." His voice startled me yet again so I had to bend over and pick up the pencils I spilled.

"Where did you hear that?" I asked him cautiously.

"Isabelle told me when I noticed you and Jace have been much closer," he said with sadness in his voice. Why was he sad? Wouldn't he be happy that I'm happy? I picked up my last pencil and looked up, about to ask him why he was so unhappy when I realized where we were. We were in a secluded area that looked almost deserted. This is when I start to panic.

"Sebastian, where are we."

"I'm sorry I just wanted to know why him? Why did you have to choose Jace? Don't you see how hard it is for me to move on when I see my best friend, someone I love with someone else?" Someone he loves? Oh no, this is not good. Not good at all.

"Sebastian I'm sorry that I don't return those feelings that you have. I understand that.."

"No, you don't understand and you never will Clary. I just have to make you see and show you who's better." Unexpectedly, he grabbed my face with his hands and pulled me against his lips. It was nothing like kissing Jace. It wasn't bad but it wasn't good either. He pulled us both to the back seats of the car and no matter how hard I tried I couldn't get him off of me. I punched and kicked him but with me being so small I was unable do anything. I even bit him but he still kept going so I eventually gave up. I was too traumatized to cry and I just let him do what he wanted. I couldn't move.

The whole time all I was thinking about is how disappointed Jace would be but I had no other choice. I couldn't fight him. He used protection but not that I cared. I just thought about Jace. I'm not even sure if it was considered rape but it was something of that sort. The thing that made me confused was afterwards when we had our clothes back on and we were sitting in the front seats again, he cried. I was confused but then I realized that he was sorry for what he did and being the person that I am, I forgave him.

I know that that sounds really wrong and I should have tried to report him but he was my friend and I could see how he wanted me but I didn't want him. He made me promise that I wouldn't tell anyone and no matter how bad I felt about doing that to Jace, I couldn't do that to Sebastian. I kept it a secret but eventually told Izzy when we came to New York.

*End Flashback*

"Clary, Clary please wake up. Clary come on you have to wake up. CLARY!" I quickly opened my eyes to find myself on the floor and Izzy above me.

"What happened?" I asked.

"You had a panic attack and then you passed out but you're okay." I rubbed my hands over my eyes.

"I really need to get some medicine for this. If I have another panic attack who knows what's going to happen. I could end up in a coma."

"Don't you dare talk like that! That's really ugly to say."

"I know, I know," I sighed. I got up from the floor and fixed my hair back into another bun. Sometimes I get panic attacks from trauma. They've happened all my life since the car crash but Jace would usually calm them down. Recently though since he hasn't been here, they came back. I couldn't help thank the angel that I didn't get pregnant with Sebastian's child. I shivered at the thought.

"Please tell me I don't have to go out there until they leave. I can't do this," I said.

"I don't want to go out there either but we're getting really busy and they didn't see me so hopefully they will be at Kaelie's table for tonight." I nodded my head in agreement but I knew life sucks and I had a feeling this was going to be one of those sucky moments.

"Let's go see which tables we're assigned to," I told Izzy. Good thing we were in the employee bathrooms. That would have made for a very bad situation. We walked over to the schedule in the kitchen and looked to see our tables. The only problem was there wasn't a schedule. I went to find the owner of Taki's, Aline, but she told me that she wanted this to be a break for us and take any table we wanted for tonight. This was going to be awesome! Lol not.

"Maybe Kaelie chose their table," Isabelle suggested.

"What table?" Kaelie said from behind us. She was holding two trays with dirty dishes and fresh drinks. Kaelie was always an overachiever for everything. She humped guys like they were toys then threw them away like trash. She was such a slut that me and Izzy figured that her motto was 'Suck and fuck'. Wouldn't surprise me if that was true.

"The table with the blonde and the dark haired guys," Izzy said with a bored tone. I knew Jace was Kaelie's type and no matter how much that hurt me to know he was probably sleeping around, it would be better not to have them see me or Izzy. It would be better if one of them got her and left.

"Nope, sorry for inconveniencing you but they just came in and I'm already loaded so stop standing there and get your asses to work." She turned around putting the dishes beside the sink and walked out. Great, this was perfect.

"I'll take their table," Izzy said.

"No, it's better if I do this."

"You're working in the kitchen Clary and that's final. Don't argue with me. It would be better so if Kevin comes out then they won't see you or him back here." I was about to nod my head in agreement when Simon came in.

"I'll take their table. I'd like to give them a piece of my mind too but I'll try to be civil."

"How long have you been standing there?" I asked.

"Long enough now give me a tray and Izzy stay as far away as possible so they can't see you." Izzy went out the door and stayed out of their line of sight while Simon grabbed a notepad and a tray to go take their order. Simon knew about Jace and Sebastian but that's what worried me. I just hoped he wouldn't screw this up.

I folded my arms across my chest and watched Simon, from the small window in the kitchen, take their order and walk back. He quickly walked back over and handed them their drinks, managing to spill a little on Sebastian and Jace. It was obvious he didn't do it on purpose because he was so clumsy but it's not like they knew that. I could hear their voices rising as I looked at Isabelle in alarm. She stared wide eyed at me, unsure of what to do when I made the decision for her. I quickly grabbed some paper towels from the kitchen and ran out to the dining area and pushed Simon away and began cleaning up the mess on the table. The voices immediately stopped as all three of them looked at me in shock.

When I was finished, I quickly said, "There, now you can stop being babies and be nice to each other. Excuse us if were out of pacifiers but they're in high demand for ignorant boys like you." I walked back into the kitchen and it wasn't until the door closed that I could feel their eyes off of me.

I went into the back room to tell Raphael that he needs to get Kevin out of here. Of course he wanted an explanation so I had to quickly give him one quietly so Kevin couldn't hear.

"I'm coming back. There's no way I'm leaving you and Izzy alone with them. Who knows how long they'll be here. I'll take Kevin to my place so Alec and Magnus can watch him then I'll come right back." All I could do is quickly nod and usher them out the back door, quickly giving Kevin a kiss on the cheek as I could feel another panic attack coming on. The last thing I saw was the back door closing as they left before darkness took me again.

*Flashback*

It was our second month in New York and me and Izzy just moved into our apartment. I was 8 weeks pregnant, barely showing, but you could see a tiny little bump forming where my healthy baby was growing. Isabelle had decided to order some take-out and left me to unpack some more boxes. I was unpacking some clothes when a knock came on our door. Odd. No one could get up here without a key.

As I was opening the door, I almost had a heart attack. My hand instantly went to my stomach when I looked into the eyes of Sebastian.

"How did you find me? And better yet, how did you get up here?"

"Now that was kind of rude considering I came to see my bestfriend." He smiled at me and I opened the door further to let him in. Hopefully I could get him gone and never to come back. But that was just wishful thinking.

"My father had connections with the professor of NYU and gave me your address. As for how I got in, I told the lady at the front desk that you were my sister." I laughed at that. I knew he flirted his way up here. it's just what he does best.

"Well, what really brings you here Sebastian I know there's a reason." I turned around to look at him.

"I know about you and Jace and I was just coming by to make sure you were okay. I don't want you to do anything stupid because he broke your heart."

" I won't do anything stupid over anyone. I have a future to live not destroy," I told him. He met my gaze as he nodded his head and looked around.

"Quite a place you got here Clary. It's really big for just one person. Why so many bedrooms?" I quickly tried to change the subject.

"Would you like something to drink? I've been unpacking boxes all day and I'm thirsty." I turned around and was hurriedly walking to the kitchen when I slipped. My mind instantly went to my baby when I felt arms catch me from behind. I was quickly put on my feet then I felt Sebastian's arms jerk away.

"What the hell is that?" He asked me, pointing to my stomach.

"Sebastian please, it's not like you think.."

"He left you alone with a baby Clary, that's pretty obvious."

"That's the thing Sebastian, he doesn't know. I didn't tell him. He broke up with me so he obviously didn't want me so I wanted to keep his life happy without me." He blinked a few times before laughing for a little while and turned back to me.

"Now darling how that would have been excellent on your part if it wasn't for the fact that you were pregnant," now I was confused.

"What do you mean?"

"I told Jace that you cheated on him with me. I had enough of you two and I wanted to end it. You just had to get pregnant though didn't you? You ruined it."

"You raped me Sebastian!" I screamed at him.

"You didn't tell me to stop."

"Because you wouldn't get off me!"

"No, okay I'm done and you better wait my darling because Jace might just find out your dirty little secret."

He was halfway to the door before I spoke up, "And by the way, you would have never been the man he was. At least he was bigger," I spat. He spun around and walked right up to me so fast my mind couldn't register to run away before I felt his hand on my cheek and the resounding crack that echoed off the empty walls.

"You know what? Forget Jace knowing, this will be much better. Plus, as long as he doesn't know about you being pregnant it will bring enjoyment to me when I make sure he never wants to be with you again." Then he had me on the ground but this time, he was hitting me and punching me. I was screaming for help but I knew no one could hear me. The walls were soundproof.

The next thing I knew I was in a hospital bed, reaching for my stomach. Izzy told me he barely missed my baby and he escaped so quickly police couldn't catch him. We tried filing for a lawsuit but when the court date rolled around, the proof we had against him went missing and the court called it off. I wasn't shocked about this. It was Sebastian after all.

*End Flashback*

My eyes slowly rolled open and my muscles groaned in protest. I was on the couch though how I got here I didn't know. I looked over at the clock to realize that I had been out for an hour. Raphael must have moved me since he should be back by now. I wanted to go out there and find someone but I couldn't will my feet to move. That night was the last time I saw Sebastian and I remember being on lockdown for months after that. Even Raphael didn't handle the news very well knowing Sebastian came from an abusive background but was a sweetheart. They always say the apple doesn't fall far from the tree.

So what was he doing back here with Jace? I thought they hated each other. But more than anything what was he planning? Raphael walked in as I was standing up and quickly walked over to give me a hug.

"I'm so sorry this happened to you and I know this is hard but I can't seem to get Jace to leave. Sebastian left with Kaelie but Jace stayed behind and said he wouldn't leave until he got to speak with you." That shocked me just a little. I knew Sebastian was planning something but he didn't seem to care that Jace wanted to speak with me. He probably made me look so bad that Jace wouldn't believe me anyway.

I pulled away from Raphael and said, "I'll talk to him." He looked at me with wide eyes.

"No you don't have to do that Clary and you know you don't."

"I know but I have to work and having him there will just distract me. I won't tell him anything about Kevin but I will be civil. He doesn't know so why should I be mad at him? If anything all he knows is lies from Sebastian and he doesn't know he's a father. He has every right to be mad with the information he's been given. He was just not given the truth." He looked at me for a second before agreeing.

"You know you don't have to answer any questions that you don't want to and if he makes you mad just tell me and I'll kick his ass." I smiled and walked out of the back room to the dining room. I looked over to see Jace holding a cup of coffee in the same spot I saw him in before I left. He looked up as if he could tell I was there and he looked... hopeful? I sighed and walked over. This was going to be a long night.

I sat down at the chair across from him, never loosing eye contact. He looked different than when I last saw him. His golden eyes looked dull and his blonde hair was a little darker. There were bags under his eyes that weren't bad but noticeable. I probably have bags too but that was mostly from Kevin and sleepless nights at Taki's.

"You look different," I decided to say after he was making no move to start a conversation.

"Same to you," he answered.

"I heard you wanted to talk to me."

"Yes, I do. These past few years haven't been easy for me Clary. Not to mention Sebastian is always telling me things about you. I just want to know the truth." I shuddered when he said Sebastian's name. I'm pretty sure Jace noticed the sudden movement.

"What do you want to know?" I still wasn't sure if I was going to tell him the truth about what Sebastian did to me.

"What happened with you and Sebastian? And when?" I took a deep breath and decided what I was going to say.

"I'm not going to elaborate to you about it all because it still haunts me but the first incident was junior year. To get to the point, he raped me because he wanted me to see that he was better than you." Jace stilled. "It was two weeks since you took my virginity when that happened," I looked down at the table so he couldn't see the tears forming in my eyes.

"I guess the second time he did something to me was the night you broke up with me. I know he was the one that told you I cheated but I obviously didn't." At this point there were tears rolling down my cheeks as I remembered the reasons why I was so hurt about the breakup. Sebastian didn't really know how he planned that perfectly and hurt me not only because I lost Jace. because Jace lost his son.

"And then the last time was the first month here. He came to me and wanted me since you were gone and let's just say I ended up in the hospital." I could hear his sharp intake of breath as I finished. I folded my hands in my lap and looked up at him, tears rolling down my cheeks. He looked defeated and concentrated. He was probably deciding if he should believe me or Sebastian. Then his expression turned hard and he started studying me closely.

"That's not the whole story."

"I told you I wasn't going to elaborate."

"That's not what I meant; you're keeping something from me." There were alarm bells going off in my head but I kept my face expressionless.

"No, there isn't." He looked at me for a moment before a sense of calm went over his face.

"Well, I better get going. I have to finish unpacking all my stuff into my apartment."

"You moved to New York?"

"Yeah, after I found out that Alec and Izzy were here I wanted to see them again. Sebastian is only staying to help me unpack and then he goes back to LA. I guess they really moved out here for you though and that makes me happy that you had them with you." He had no idea.

"Thanks," I said. He stood up, putting money on the table to pay for the bill and was about to walk out the door when he turned back around and looked at me.

"And you know what Clary? I don't want you to be a stranger to me. I want to figure out what you're keeping from me because I can't live my life without you anymore." I knew I wanted him back and he wanted me back but I can't for the sake of Kevin. How would Kevin react to seeing his father for the first time? The man that broke his mother's heart. There's no telling until it happens. Jace turned around, walking out the front door of Taki's. It wasn't until he was out of sight that I finally looked away.

A/N: Now, I hope this satisfies your needs. I really enjoy writing this story and I can't stop but you guys have to tell me do you want more or Kevin? There will be places where he has to be but for the majority he doesn't have to be there but it's up to you. What do you guys think Sebastian is planning? Let me tell you it's a little evil so think evil thoughts. On that happy note I hope you liked this chapter and please review if you want to see Kevin or not. I don't know until you tell me! See you soon!