A/N: I'm back! It hasn't been that long but to me it has. Writing is my escape and I have been preoccupied recently with school and other things but I promised this weekend and here I am! This was more or less a filler chapter setting you up for what's to come so enjoy!

Disclaimer: Cassandra Clare owns the Mortal Instruments but kevin is mine! MINE!

Dawn was slowly approaching when I felt the sliver of cold air hit my legs under the covers. I felt Kevin get in bed and slowly curl himself in my arms. He slowly looked up into my eyes and I stared into his golden, honey brown eyes with a tint of green. His strawberry blonde hair was tousled like he had a restless night of sleep and has been rolling around on his pillow.

"Kevin, this is your third night in here. You need to stop worrying that something is wrong. Mommy is fine."

He shook his head, "No, I know something's wrong and I don't want my mommy sad. You always make me happy when I'm sad so I'll do it for you too." I smiled at his worried words. To some people, children were burdens but to me, they were blessings.

"Okay fine," I kissed his forehead. "You can stay but remember you can't be a worry wart forever little man." I closed my eyes, breathed in a deep breath, and tried to get some sleep. It had been two days since I saw Jace and ever since then I have been so overcome with the past that I haven't been able to focus much on the present. I knew I was walking around like a robot and sometimes I couldn't even remember what I was doing and where I was. Kevin had been noticing this change in me and ever since has been very persistent to make me feel better.

Today I was going to finally compose myself because I know that Kevin doesn't need to worry about me. I should be worrying about him for goodness sake not the other way around! So in order for him to stop worrying about me I called Macy, Carson's mom, and set him up to go over there again and for her to take him to practice. The other day when Kevin went over there he had such a fun time that I knew that he needed to do it more. Luckily for me she agreed.

Little did they know though that I was also doing this because Izzy, Alec, and Jace were going to eat dinner at the apartment and Kevin couldn't be here. Me, Raphael, and Magnus were going to do our own thing since this was for them and we didn't want to be in the middle of all three of them. But Alec and Jace better be happy I'm making dinner and not Isabelle. No offense to her but her cooking was atrocious.

I was so lost in my thoughts that I didn't realize that I had fallen asleep until I felt someone shaking me awake.

"Mommy wake up Raphael's here and he made pancakes!" Kevin squealed. That was all I had to hear as my eyes shot open and I moved Kevin off of me.

"Get out of the way I call first dibs!" I called as I heard him laugh and run after me, both of us barreling down the hallway. As soon as we reached the kitchen I sat down at the kitchen island and dug into the delicious, gooey, goodness.

"I don't think I've seen you run that fast since Black Friday and they had art supplies for half off. That was definitely impressive to say in the least."

I glared at Raphael for a second while chewing my pancakes and said, "Don't get your panties in a wad because the next time you see me running I will probably have a knife and it will be coming towards you."

He blinked and then held his hands in surrender, "I give up, you win. Just please don't kill me. You would be so lost without me and my scrumptious pancakes." He said dramatically. I just rolled my eyes.

"Scrumptious? Where'd you learn that one? Magnus the magnificent? If I didn't know you as well as I do, I would probably think you drop your soap in the men's locker room if you know what I mean." I winked at him and began eating again. I couldn't wipe his mouth, open in shock, out of my head. Priceless.

"Done," I heard Kevin say as he picked up his empty plate and carried it to the sink. "Thank goodness I'm finished; I don't know how much more I could take of you two. It's just a shame." He sighed as he shook his head and walked into the living room to watch TV. Me and Raphael burst into laughter.

When I could finally compose myself I told Kevin, "You need to get dressed soon, it's eleven o'clock and you have to be at Carson's at two."

"I know mommy." He lazily said as he was watching his cartoons. I shook my head and smiled at my adorable baby boy.

I turned to Raphael, "Could you get him dressed please? I need to pack his bag and get dressed myself."

He nodded his head in response, "Come on little man let's get you dressed." He picked Kevin up and put him on his shoulders, carrying him upstairs. I smiled at how grateful I am to have everyone that always helps me with Kevin. I don't know what I'd do without them.

I put my plate in the sink and walked upstairs to get dressed. I could hear Kevin giggling from his bedroom. For the day, I picked out a pair of black shorts and a purple crop top with lace that covers the whole top. After I took a shower and got dressed, I scrunched my hair so my curls would have a wavy look. Then, I put on my purple converse and as I was putting on my left shoe I noticed it was one o'clock. They need to leave soon. I walked to Kevin's room, silently thanking the angel that I had a boy and not a girl. They're much faster to get ready.

Immediately when I walked into Kevin's room I noticed that it was spotless clean. Kevin can't stand a mess for too long. He has to have everything in a certain container and everything has to be organized. And again, he gets that from Jace. But he did inherit my artistic skills and for a five year old, he's really good. I looked over to see Raphael and Kevin playing Call of Duty on his Xbox and as usual Kevin was winning.

I let them continue playing and didn't bother them since they didn't know I was in the room yet. I got out Kevin's soccer bag and put his ball in the bag with his cleats and his uniform. I got out another bag for his clothes and packed his pajamas and clothes for tomorrow along with his toothbrush, toothpaste, and his comb. By the time I finished I noticed it was one fifteen and Kevin needed to leave soon so he can get there by two. New York traffic was a killer in the summer.

"Hey dorks, you need to get going." I said to get their attention. I scared them both since they didn't know I was in the room.

"God Clary, are you trying to give me a heart attack?" Raphael asked.

"No, I'm trying to get you off your butt." I told him.

"Is it time to go mommy?"

"Yes, you need to leave now or you'll be late and you won't get much time to play with Carson."

"Come on Raphael let's go!" Kevin told Raphael. Thank goodness Kevin was happy and not worried about me for once. Kevin grabbed his soccer bag and his overnight bag and grabbed Raphael. Running out the door Raphael said he would be back soon and then they were gone. I sighed in relief that Kevin was taken care of and now I was set to the task of making my homemade Fettuccine Alfredo.

When I got to the kitchen I got out all the necessary ingredients to cook the dish and I got to work. As I was getting out the butter I wondered where Isabelle was when she snuck up behind me.

"Fettuccini Alfredo! Yes! My favorite." I screamed, almost dropping the butter from my hand. This was seriously karma from earlier.

"Where did you come from?" I asked her.

"I went over to Simon's for a little while. He wanted to show me his new game." This was interesting.

"Izzy," I started. "Are you and Simon dating?"

She bit her lip, averting her gaze, before answering, "Yes, but please don't tell anybody. No one's supposed to know yet." I squealed and ran over to her to give her a big hug.

"I promise I won't tell but I'm so happy for you! I've been waiting for this since forever!" We both smiled at each other and got lost in a deep conversation while I cooked dinner. Eventually, I heard Raphael come in and walk into the kitchen.

"It smells delicious in here," he said.

"Thanks, how did it go?"

"Good, he went on in and they were already playing something on the Xbox by the time I was out the door."

I laughed, "Well that's good."

"Do you need any help?" he asked. I was making the salad at the moment and I had much more things to cut up.

"Sure," I moved over so he could help me. I finished the Alfredo and all I had was the salad left then I had to go put some makeup on and fix my hair. My clothes were fine since we were just going to a small restaurant and a movie.

"Well I better go get ready. Alec, Magnus, and Jace will be here soon. Are you sure you're okay with Jace being here Clary?" Isabelle asked.

I rolled my eyes, "Yes, as long as he doesn't go into Kevin's room we're fine." She shook her head in response and left the room. We didn't have to worry about toys or anything of the sort. Kevin was neat and organized so he kept everything in his room.

Me and Raphael finished the salad and we were in my room. He was sitting on the bed watching me put on my makeup. I was finishing up before he spoke.

"Are you okay?"

I sighed and turned around, "No I'm not. Ever since I found out that he lives here I've been so on edge about Kevin that it's really stressing me out." I told him honestly and turned around. He silently walked over to me and gave me a hug, kissing my forehead as he pulled away.

"I promise I won't let anything happen to you or Kevin, ever. You two are my family." I looked into his eyes and saw that he was telling the truth. I smiled and decided what I needed to do. I stood on the tips of my toes and kissed him. He was surprised at first but eventually returned the kiss. If Jace didn't have my heart, I would probably be with Raphael.

When we finally broke away, I looked deep into his brown eyes and said, "Don't ever leave me, I don't know what I'd do without you."

"I'll never leave Clary you don't have to worry about that," he said while stroking my cheek. I smiled up at him knowing that even though we just shared an intimate moment, we were still friends. That was the special thing about Raphael; he would always just be my best friend no matter what we did. I would never have with him what I have with Jace but that doesn't mean I can't kiss someone every now and then. I was about to walk out of my bedroom when I was thrown over Raphael's shoulder.

"You're not coming down until you're happy again," he told me.

"Put me down now!" I yelled at him, hitting his back with my fists.

"No," he said while spinning in a circle making me dizzy. I started screaming and giggling.

"This isn't funny!" I yelled as he ran into the living room.

"Then why are you laughing?" He asked while spinning again. I was laughing so hard that my stomach was starting to hurt. He finally laid me on the couch, both of us laughing too hard to stand. After we finally calmed down we heard someone clear their throat.

"That was interesting," Magnus said. I looked up to see Izzy, Alec, Magnus, and Jace staring at us. Seeing all their expressions I started to giggle.

"See," Raphael said, turning to me. "I told you it would make you happy."

"Shut up dork," I said while lightly punching his shoulder. I got up from the couch. Magnus and Alec were already talking to each other and Izzy and Raphael were putting the food on the table. Jace was just standing there awkwardly so I walked up to him.

"Hey," I said.

He looked up, "Hey."

"So what do you think?" I asked, referring to the apartment.

"It's really nice, I can tell you picked it out since there's such a beautiful view of the city."

"Yeah that was my favorite thing about this place," I told him. He looked around for a second before his gaze met the piano in the corner of the living room.

"That's a gorgeous piano. Who plays?" He asked.

"No one, it came with the apartment," I lied. The piano was actually Kevin's fifth birthday present. Jace looked at me for a second before he nodded his head. I knew he played because I've heard him before. Sometimes, I would crave to hear his music more than I would anything. I would have let him play but Kevin doesn't like anyone but me to go near the piano.

"Clary, let's go we're going to be late!" I heard Raphael yell.

"I better get going, see you later Jace."

"Bye Clary." I quickly walked over to Raphael and Magnus as we headed out the door. The whole time while we were out I couldn't focus on anything as my body wanted to go back to the apartment and beg Jace to play something. Kevin was really good at playing but every time Jace used to play for me, it would share a silent meaning to both of us.

By the time we were back to the apartment, the lights were out and it was silent. Raphael brought me home and Magnus was already on his way home. I went into my bedroom to change into my pajamas and get ready for bed. I was truly exhausted.

"Do you want me to stay?" Raphael asked as I was getting into bed. I nodded as he took off his shoes and got out a pair of sweat pants from my closet. He would usually stay sometimes so he kept some clothes in my room. He slid into bed and got under the covers, holding me close. I breathed in and finally went to bed with someone I trusted the most.

A/N: So what do you think? I know Clary and Raphael are having their moments but my sole intention is for Jace and Clary to be together. Trust me. Now that you all know that Jace is Kevin's dad then the next chapter is going to be in Jace's perspective and we'll finally see Jace to be back to his old cocky self. That's the Jace we all know and love. I'm a little upset at the moment because my sister ran over a puppy and I cried for half an hour so review because it makes me happy! Please? It makes me supper happy when I know someone follows or favorites my story too. I really want a beta because my writing can be really crappy and messed up sometimes so any volunteers? I might be able to get another chapter tomorrow night but it just depends so let's just say Wednesday for now. Thank you all for reading!