Yo, I'm back, Minna~ .

Almost deleted this story because someone commented "check your grammar, dude". First of all, I admit that my english isn't really good. I have problems with grammar (Est-ce que je dois écrire en français ou en indonésien?). So why do I write this story in english? Weeeell, simple. To train myself. So sorry if you find many errors. I'd prefer to have someone comment on my story like "hey... you made mistake here blablabla it should be like this blablabla" :) It'd help me a lot, actually :)

Sooo.. this chapter is a flashback. Next chapter = the last chapter... :) Thinking about writing a story of RivaPeto or SakaMutsu.. BUT yeah, think I'll write it in bahasa (indonesian) instead.. :D

Minna-san, enjooooooooooy, Kamen Rider! ^_^ Sorry if I talk to long u_u

3 years ago, Gin-chan was gone. We couldn't find him anywhere, even just his dead body so we could have a proper funeral for him. He didn't say anything before he went somewhere. He even stopped drinking and getting drunk, I thought it was for good. I thought he'd change and we could form a better trio, with the same leader but with more dependable personality. We could win over Hosen, we could beat those pirates from Harusame, we could even kicked those Shogun's samurai's asses.. But we should've known, we CAN'T win over something called "destiny". We can never beat it. We can't even guess its next move.. Gin-chan isn't with us anymore and this is our destiny…

I really love this house. Well… this reminds me of those days when we were still together. Gin-chan, Shinpachi and me… I still remember how scared Gin-chan was when Otose-san or Tama asked him about the rent. I still remember Shinpachi always did the chores, sometimes I still can hear that sound Shinpachi made when he swept the floor.

I walk to the table, where Gin-chan usually sat down behind. Whenever he could, he would just sit on a chair behind this table, picked his nose and started saying some nonsenses. Or when the new edition of Jump was out, Gin-chan would buy it, then laid on the sofa, read the Jump all day long.

"He will be back.. He'll open that door, looks so drunk and then passes out after tries to take off his boots.." I keep repeating those words in my head every second, to convince myself that he'll come back. He's not dead yet. He's still alive somewhere and maybe he's just so drunk to the point he forgets which way he should take to get here…

"You're still here?" I turned my head just to find Otose-san behind me. She's standing there, looking at me with that painful looks.

"Yeah.. I should come here often, right? Just in case... he'll come back and fall asleep in front of the door. If I don't come here anymore, no one will put the blanket on him... No one will prepare a breakfast for him in the morning... No one-" I can't continue it. My voice was already cracked and now, I really just want to cry.

"But he's already..."

"NO! He'll be with us again. I'm sure about it, Baa-san! I-"

"You're still playing house, Kagura-chan?"

Tch, here comes a really annoying one. Wearing glasses, looking so cocky now. Yeah, that human-wearing glasses, Shimura Shinpachi. After 3 years, he changed into other character. Now he really looks like the captain of seigaku tennis team and he even threw away his personality, his role as a straight man. Yeah, we can say, he's just another stupid character here.

"And you, megane saru.. Still can't move on from your 8th grade syndrome?" Smirking, I turn my head to him.

"WHO HAS THE 8TH-! so close.. You think you can revive the straight man inside me by saying that?" Shinpachi fix his glasses. As I noticed, when he does it, actually he feels kinda mad or uncomfortable.. Well it depends on his facial expression too. And judging by the expression on his face now, he must feels angry.

"Nope. I was just stating the truth... By the way, I don't have time to talk with a weakling. See you! I'm leaving, Baa-san"

I walk out of the house, leaving Shinpachi and Baa-san behind. I don't know what they're thinking of me. Maybe they think I'm kinda crazy or whatever since I keep believing that Gin-chan is still alive out there and I've even chosen to stay on Earth, in Edo, even though Papi kept asking me to go with him to hunt aliens. Yep I want to be a strong alien hunter, just like Papi. And I know I need some training and only Papi who can teach me to go hunting aliens. But not now. I'm waiting for Gin-chan. I can't leave this place because Gin-chan will come back someday.

"Ah I think I'll buy sukonbu.. Should eat it when I feel sad" As I think like that, I'm walking to the little shop where I buy sukonbu everyday. But someone pulls my hand and now, I'm walking to some alley. I can see who's pulling my hand. He's running in front of me, but I don't know him at all..

Who is this guy or girl? Wait, this hand.. Ah it certainly belongs to a guy. I don't know him. I don't know anyone like him. Having long hair, wearing red kimono, carrying sword.. WHAT?! A sword? Samurai?! Maybe.. maybe he's a friend of Gin-chan? Is it possible? Does he know where Gin-chan is and he's planning to tell me about it?

I'm smiling just by thinking about that. This is the day I've been waiting for. This guy definitely wants to tell me about Gin-chan. I mean, I don't know him. I think I've never met him before. If he's just some bandit who holds a grudge against me, he wouldn't pull my hand. He'd kill me instead.

Finally we stop running. There no one around us right now. And there, I only can see his back. Buuut... yeah.. finally, he's starting to turn around.. Yahoooo, I can see his right cheek now. Yeah, just a little bit more.. moo..

"Hey china, how are you? Still being stupid?"

SADIST?! THIS GUY IS THAT BASTARD!

"You... what are you doing here? Why are you not wearing your shinsengumi uniform? Trying to be a model?" Now come to think of it, yeah... The colour of his hair, the sword he's carrying... Okita Sougo..

"None of your business. So are you still looking for Sakata Gintoki?"

"Yeah.. why? Do you know where is he?" Wow, maybe he can be useful, I guess..

"Don't be stupid.. You know the truth. He's not here anymore. Simply, he's not in this world anymore, china." He's saying it all with cold expression, just as usual. I shouldn't have expected that he'd help me or whatever. He's a sadist. He's the worst of the worst. If Baa-san and Shinpachi think I'm crazy for believing Gin-chan will be here again, this guy thinks I'm idiot, crazy, and useless. After all, everything he has done to me was trying to kill me.

"Can you please shut up? If you only want to talk about shits, I'd gladly leave now" I'm turning my body and ready to leave him. Man, what will I get by talking to someone who's rotten to the core like him?

"Hey wait!" That sadist once again pulls my hand. He then push my body to some wall behinds me. Standing really close to me, I can see his face really clearly now. God, I've grown much taller after 3 years.. Now I can look into his eyes without tiptoe. But.. what's with that expression on his face? Why does he look so sad?

"You've grown into a fine woman, Kagura.."

Wait, did I mishear something? He called my name? Not china or baka?

"Are you drunk, sadist? Why are you acting so weird like this? Go to hell, please.. just go to hell. Don't try to rape me or else I'll kill you!"

"Hoy china, can you please shut your mouth for a while? I need to tell you something. I won't rape you or anything.." I'm looking at him, can't believe that a sadist just talked to me like that. Woow, he has changed, I guess..

"Sooo..."

"Can you please stop thinking about dana? He's dead, he's not here anymore. Stop torturing yourself by thinking about him all the time!"

"He'll come back to us, I'm s-"

"NO HE WON'T. YOU KNOW IT, DON'T TRY TO DENY IT, CHINA!" Okita screamed at me. Without realizing it, tears has flow down to my cheeks. Yeah, I actually know Gin-chan is gone. I know that 98% he'll never come back here again. I keep trying to believe that he's still alive and he's fine out there just so I can feel better. I can say, it's for comfort me only. But Gin-chan was like a brother, a mentor and sometimes a father to me. I couldn't even say goodbye to him before he disappeared, so he shouldn't have gone too long. Now, I can see that sadist looks so frustrated, angry, sad, and maybe confused. He looks at me for some seconds before punching the wall behind me.

"Damn it.. I'm sorry, china... I didn't mean it. I just want to say that.. can't you start caring about someone else? I like you a lot, china.. It hurted me when I saw you walking with long face.. Yeah I'm sad because dana isn't here anymore but what can we do? We have to move on..."

"What? You like me? Uum you're really drunk, sadist. Go home" I wipe my tears away.

"Not like. I love you... Now you're 17 year old so thank God I don't look like a pedo.."

"Haaaaaah?! LOVE? YOU LOVE ME? What's wrong with you?! I can't believe a sadist like you can't love anyone. And you always try to kill me, how come you love me? You're so sick.. I'm gonna leave. I have other things I have to take care of."

I don't know what he did to me but now I'm in his arms. And weird, it feels so warm and good. He hugs me tightly like he'd never let me go.. Seriously, I don't know this man. I can't believe this is a sadist whom I always fought with.

"I'll wait for you until you can move on and stop thinking about dana. Be well, china.. Don't worry, for me you're the finest woman so I don't want to hurt you now. Thus I will never punch you, kick you or throw things to you again.. Uuum it'll be different if you prefer to be a bad girl and want me to spank you in bed.."

I can feel that my face is really warm now. Man, how come I'm blushing after he said things like that. It wasn't even romantic at all.. But yeah, I don't like those cheesy lines on some dorama. But why am I blushing? What's wrong with me? Why's my heart beating so fast right now?

"Let me go!" I'm trying to push him away. I don't want to be with that sadist. I don't want to fall in love with that sadist, get married and have kids with that sick bastard. What kind of future I'll have if I live with him?

"Okay, china.. Don't forget what I said. I love you.." Before I realizing it, he lifts my chin with his long (and pretty) fingers. Then..

"Muah.. I love you, my china girl" He steals my first kiss. He has stolen my first kiss. It was so fast but I still can feel his lips on mine. Now I'm just standing like an idiot, looking at that sadist who's caressing my cheek. He's smiling, but not like a king of planet sadist. That smile is just.. really beautiful... And wait, did he always look this handsome and charming? Seriously... my eyes, please... I don't want to wear glasses like Shinpachi.

"Okay.. I'll leave you now. I'll be waiting for you, china... We'll meet again when you can stop thinking about dana or when he's with us again... Bye.." He's walking away, leaving me who still standing quietly, can't say anything. He stole my first kiss. He hugged me. He even confessed that he loves me. And in the end, he said he'll wait for me.. What's happening here? I can't fall in love with him. I just can't. He's a sadist.

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