Pain 5

By Female Heero Yuy

Disclaimer: If I owned Yu Gi Oh 5Ds this would be in the manga. XD

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Sitting around the pizza box and cheesy bread sticks they each had a slice in hand in preparation to eat. Yusei took a bite of his own slice before deciding to talk. He sighed. "I don't know where to begin really, but...I guess I should start off by saying this isn't the first time i've felt this way."

Yami took a bite of his pizza while Yugi was holding a can of coke to his lips to take a sip. Both were eagerly prepared to listen.

"I'm not good with stating my own feelings really. As a kid i'd gotten left out quite alot actually. Even before that well...I guess i've always felt like I was cursed."

"Cursed?" Yugi looked puzzled. Since Yami had his slice in his mouth he only raised a brow in question.

"Before I was taken to the orphanage, my parents were working on a project. Which caused something we call Zero Reverse. It split the city in two, and i'm the only survivor from that incident. My father put me in an escape capsule."

"To save you right?" Yami asked.

Yusei seemed to look depressed. "I don't know. Before I did use to think that. That he did it to save me. But...after a while...I started to question it."

"Why?" Yugi asked before taking a bite from a cheesy bread stick.

"When I was at the orphanage. Of course many people would come looking for a child to adopt. Alot of adults would come, and spend some time with us. Everytime I thought a family wanted to adopt me i'd get looked over when the paperwork came into play. It was hard because all those families would spend time with me, and tell me how much i'd make a wonderful son or something, but then they'd adopt someone else that they didn't even talk to at all. Of course I was happy for them. They got to have families. But I couldn't help but wonder why I was always overlooked in such a manner. Atleast until one day, a strange man appeared.
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A four year old Yusei was playing in the yard with his friends happily when a man in a tattered robe that was a dark brown stumbled into the yard and fell over. Yusei ran to him and shook him, "Are you okay mister? Mister!" he persisted until the man turned over. The other kids huddled around them unsure of what to do. Though a couple of kids ran into the orphanage to get Martha.

The man looked at Yusei, and his eyes became wide with fear. "Y...you!" he scooted back away from him even as Martha came running up to them. "Stt...stay back!..." he shouted. "Keep that horrible child away from me! He'll curse me! He's a cursed child!" he shreeked.

Yusei watched the man with fear. "Cursed?" he repeated.

"He'll kill us all! He'll kill us all!" he shouted.

Yusei didn't understand why the man was saying such a thing. But soon a bunch of whispers surrounded him. It was the other kids, whispering amongst themselves. "He's cursed?" someone questioned. "That's scary, we should stay away from him." came another voice. There was more, but he couldn't hear it due to so many speaking so low and at once. Yusei looked around unsure of what to do.

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"Strange how the very ones I considered my friends had stayed away from me after that. They'd known me for years, but it only took one man to get them to shun me away." Yusei stated. "Even Martha at first...after that...she wouldn't even touch me." he had light tears in his eyes. "She'd look at me with fear even though she'd taken care of me for those four years." he sniffled for a moment. "I was so alone, completely alone for almost a year. I didn't even sleep in the same room with the other kids because they were scared of me. So I took to sleeping in a closet. If I touched anything, no one would go near it at all. I couldn't stand it anymore."

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Yusei watched the other children play from where he sat in the corner of the room. It was raining outside, so Martha had told them to play in the playroom. He wanted to play too, but all the other kids were at the other end of the room to stay away from him. Hugging himself, he wished they would ask him to join in. But he already knew what the outcome would be. He was surprised when a ball roll near him. Reacting he grabbed it and stood up.

"He touched it." came the whispers. "It's cursed now." came another. "That sucks I really liked that ball too." came another.

Yusei just closed his eyes in an attempt to keep the tears from falling. Physically he was trembling as the whispers were hurtful. And it was painful to stand there to listen to them.

"Why doesn't he just die already?" came a rather loud statement. This caused Yusei to open his eyes in shock. "Yeah, it'd be alot better if he was dead." came the agreement.

That was it. He couldn't take it anymore. For a child of four to take so much for so long without crying was nothing short of a miracle. But such a miracle had ended. The tears flowed down his face freely and he broke down. Dropping the ball he ran from the room. Feeling a huge urge to get out of there. Even as he ran he wailed in despair loudly, even as he ran past the kitchen where Martha was preparing lunch.

"Yusei?" she was shocked as she saw him open the front door and run outside into the storm.

Her call did not stop him however. He simply ran, ran for cover with the surrounding trees. Ran further than he'd usually gone. Only stopping when he tripped over an upped root of a tree. He continued to cry even as he picked himself up and sat on his legs with his arms limp at his sides. His leg hurt, but it wasn't anything compared to the pain in his heart, the pain in his very soul. His cries only seemed to echo as the storm continued. He didn't care that he was soaking wet, he didn't care that he was cold. None of that mattered. He didn't even care that the lighting flashed in the sky, or that it could even possibly hit a tree near him. He had no reason to care. As far as he was concerned no body wanted him. No body loved him. He was so engrossed with wailing in tears that he didn't even hear his name being called or that someone had run up behind him.

"Yusei!" Martha shouted as she ran looking for him. The low branches of the trees, and slippery earth had made it difficult for her to keep up with him. Earlier she'd lost sight of him. But when she'd heard his cries she'd followed them and found him once more. She was completely soaked. The bottom of her dress was caked with mud. But she ignored all of this. The only thought in her mind was to find Yusei. Finally she'd found him where he'd fallen. Still crying as if it was all that was left to him. He was filthy from his earlier fall. Pushing through the trees and shrubs she got close enough to where she'd be able to grab him. She reached out but the moment her hand was only mere inches away she'd hesitated. Her hand shook with fear. Shaking such thoughts from her mind she picked him up in her arms and hugged him. The first hug she'd given him in over ten months. "It's okay." she tried. "It's okay your safe now." she rubbed him on his back. Noting his ankle was bleeding and swollen. Her words didn't calm him down however as he either didn't hear them due to her talking so softly, or because of the storm. Slowly she made her way back to the orphanage, keeping silent all the while.

After a while Yusei had slowing stopped crying so loudly, and reduced it to significantly lower level as his voice had become tired from before. Every so often he'd hiccup or sniffle, but otherwise he kept on. Martha just held him close even though he'd made no attempt to even clutch at her shirt. When she finally got to the orphanage's doors, she saw many of the children gawking at her in surprise. Even when they parted to allow her through. She'd walked to the kitchen and sat Yusei on the counter. Sighing as she wiped at her forehead of the excess water that was running down her face.

The other children huddled around the door to watch in curiosity. Eager to find out what would happen to the one known as the cursed child. Would he be sent away? Was Martha going to spank him for running out into the storm when they were told not to? So many questions had popped up into their minds. Making them ignore the fact that Martha had actually touched Yusei. So the thought that maybe she'd possibly become cursed hadn't entered their minds.

Martha on the other hand had grabbed a towel and put it over Yusei's head. Grabbing the right side she started to dry him off and clean him of the mud on his face. Even while she did this he didn't stop crying. In her mind it must of been a record of some sort because none of the other children had ever cried for so long before. She sighed as she stopped wiping at his face for a moment and closed her eyes. 'No.' she thought. 'He's not crying for the same reasons.' she thought. 'He's crying because he has nothing left to him.' she chastised herself. She had to admit to herself that he'd been enduring what could only be called a cruel punishment. A punishment he didn't deserve since the start. She called herself a fool for listening to the words of a strange man. He'd called Yusei a cursed child. But before he'd appeared she'd saw Yusei for what he really was. A simple, normal child who'd lost his parents. A child who right now cried because he'd had the love and warmth of a woman who loved children, but shunned him over a man who stated only a few words. She'd broken this child. She thought. Broke him when he needed her the most. When she should of said the man was crazy she'd instead joined the rest and tossed him like he was nothing more than trash.

Grabbing the other end of the towel she wiped him off with both sides. "Now, now Yusei. Don't you think that's enough water for one day?" she said softly in a loving voice. How long had it been since she'd spoken to him directly? she wondered. Not soon enough she decided. Her words didn't seem to ease his suffering, since he still kept crying. "I guess not." she stated as she tried to think. How was she to ease his little heart? He'd long locked it up in an attempt to keep the pain to a minimum. That much she knew. But as she watched him cry she was reminded of when he was a baby. When he'd been brought to her for the first time, he'd been crying then too. What did she do to calm him? She tried to remember. Then it hit her.

Rushing out of the room she'd gone to her bedroom. Opening a drawer and pulling out a small brown box. Going back to the kitchen she stood before Yusei and opened it. It was a music box. One her own mother had given her when she was a little girl. Upon opening it started to pay it's small tune. It was a soft calming tune, and when he was a baby he'd fall asleep when she'd let it play. She only hoped it'd work now. After a minute, Yusei slowly calmed down, and even opened his eyes to look at it. At which point he just sniffled a few times before completely going silent. Though the tears still kept trailing down his face.

She smiled softly as she looked at him. His eyes completely focused on the little dancers that spun to the tune as if they were really dancing. Grabbing one his hands she got him to grasp the box and finally hold it completely. "That's a good boy." she stated to him as she started to dry his hair. He didn't say anything however. Only continued to look at the little dancing figures with saddened eyes. She then started to remove his shoes, and socks. Taking a look at his ankle and cleaning it gently and then bandaging it. "Let's get you a nice hot bath." she went to pick him up.

"This tune is a lie." he stated in a low voice. This sentence made her stop in her action.

"What?" she looked confused.

"There is no such thing as love." he started. "There isn't such a thing as a truly kind person." he added, even as more tears streamed down his face. "This tune lies." he continued to listen to it.

"Yusei love and kindness exist." she tried as she put her hands on his tiny shoulders.

"No..." he closed the lid to the music box. "They don't." he finished as he sat the box on his lap. Sitting there silently as he looked at the lid of the box.

Compared to most children, Yusei was smart for his age. Compared to all the other children, Yusei had quite the vocabulary. Sometimes in the past when she'd frequently talk to Yusei it was like she was talking to an adult in a childs body. This was one of those moments. "Don't say such things. Love and kindness exist in everyone."

Yusei took a hand and slid himself off the counter. Careful with his wounded ankle. He limped to the kitchen table and placed the box on it before reopening the lid. He didn't look at anyone, even as he hung his head low. "Only as words." he whispered before limping to leave the kitchen. The other children parted to allow him through. Wide eyes of shock surrounded him even as he passed them all by. The tune from the music box slowly fading as he walked away.

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Author's Note: The next chapter will have a continuation of Yusei's story at the start. Thank you everyone who waited patiently for an update. It's greatly appreciated. =3 School is now over, and I finally got my grades. =D I got B's in both my Drawing 2 class, and Math (which is the one I was worried I wouldn't pass cause I suck at math). So i'm really REALLY happy right now, because I won't have to take anymore math courses. WOOT WOOT!

I realize i'm behind on updated my fics, but now that schools over I can try to get some much needed updates in...after I finish the x mas gifts . Oie vie! But whenever I take a break i'll just write on my fics =3 Anyway I hope you guys enjoyed this chapter. If anyone here likes Katekyo Hitman Reborn, i'd appreciate some input on chapter 5 of that particular fic, cause it hasn't had any so i'm wondering if I should just rewrite it honestly. Hope everyone is having a Happy Holiday!

Reviews and comments appreciated. Would like 5 reviews before uploading the next chapter please o3o.