Author's Note: Okay you guys, the next chapter will be the last, but I want your opinion and your comments. When I end the story do you want a good ending, a bad ending, or (if I'm tempted enough) a cliff hanger with a promised sequel? Sorry I haven't updated in a while.
Warning! Lots of swearing.
"Kili! Earth to Kili!" Tauriel waved her hand rapidly in my face as I blinked back to life. The tall red head was done up nicely today; my guess was that she had another secret date with Legolas. They had been going out since I had given her the love letter the blond boy had written for her. I didn't tell anyone that I liked her anymore. I had a metaphorical half of myself hanging out of the gay closet. I would probably tell Uncle and mum soon, I knew that it would some how be easier to tell them with Fili now by my side. I could never come completely out though, my heart would always be hidden in the dark corners of the secluded closet space and no one but the crappy chem teacher would ever know about my feelings for my brother.
I rubbed my eyes as if awaking from a slumber. This was all I had been thinking about since Sunday night. It was only eleven thirty in the afternoon; it was really to early to be distracted by this. I looked over at Tauriel and raised my eyebrows so I wouldn't actually have to ask her what she wanted, I was just too lazy to actually respond. She started to prattle on about her nails and what movie she was going to see with her new stud boyfriend and I nodded absently along, pretending to listen. Tauriel was my best friend, but I didn't fit the gay friend stereotype. I didn't know what Gucci was and I hated shopping with a passion; she didn't understand that I was still the same guy who used to play in little league with her just quite yet.
The bell would ring soon and I would be able to go to lunch. I let my mind wonder aimlessly about small things, like whether it was sloppy Joe or mystery meat on the menu today. It was refreshing to have even a second of peace, not to worry about things. Of course I had come to realize this and it was instantly jinxed by a ringing phone. The financial literacy teacher, Mr. Smaug, picked up the phone with a sneer, upset that the ringing machine had woken him from his dozing on the front desk. He paused listening to the voice on the other end of the phone, his face pulled back into a silent snarl. His terrifying eyes scanned the now eerily silent class; all of the students were terrified and anxious to see who would be the next victim. His gazed landed on me and stopped. I swallowed the bile I found in my throat as I heard him grunt out an affirmative into the phone. He gave a final grunt and said his goodbyes without looking away from me.
"Lunch detention in Greenleaf's room, Oakenshield" I nodded and shrank back into my chair. I felt Tauriel's consoling hand on my shoulder, trying and failing to reassure me. It seemed that nobody liked Thranduil, even the nearly as hated Smaug, but what bothered me was that out of all the people he had to pick on, it was me. I yelled at myself mentally for being selfish. If anyone could take the wrath of a Greenleaf if was an Oakenshield, our families had hated each other for generations. I had the smallest and slightly sickening bit of hope that the cruel teacher would just disappear. Maybe Legolas and I could actually become friends and our families would get along. Along with a million other things in my life however, that just would not happen. The answer was clear, the universe hated me and there was nothing I could do about it.
I grabbed an apple on the way to the room, after all it was a lunch detention and I knew it would piss off Greenleaf. I took a bite and made sure the sweet juices were running down my chin sticking to my neck and stubble. Disorganized and messy, just the way Thranduil hated it. My small rebellions against his black mail was getting bolder, just like myself, it may not have been too long until the blond teacher became fed up with my behavior and gave up his scheme. I entered the class and the first thing I saw was him, with a look a disgusted on his face, which I returned with a smirk.
There was the sound of shifting to the side and a blinding flash of golden light. I heard a deep rumbling chuckle and I knew instantly who it was. Fili was in the second row, his feet propped up on the desk in front of him and his elbow perched on the desk behind. The sun from a near by window was reflecting off his beard and hair; it looked like he was glowing. My breath was taken away and I just stood there staring for the longest time. Fili smiled at me, his mouth stretching from ear to ear, the kind of smile that warmed your insides like a fire.
Thranduil watched this exchange with a disturbing amount of interest and right then I knew how much trouble I was in. Thranduil was a loose canon and could do anything from humiliating me to destroying my life. He pointed to a desk a few rows apart from my brother and looked back down to the papers that I'm sure he wasn't grading. Fili was looking at me; I could feel the hairs raise on the back of my neck as I continued to ignore him. I couldn't risk looking at him. I wanted to stare at Thranduil, and develop the instant ablity to shot lazers out of my eyes, right at his smug face, but I wouldn't risk encouraging him. I lowered my vision to my hands and sat perfectly still, like a gargoyle statue, cold and lonely.
We got half way through the period with out any signs of a commotion, but I didn't dare let myself hope, I could sense it in the air that something would happen. It shouldn't have come as a shock that Fili initiated the problem, but I really was expecting it to be Mr. Greenleaf. Behind me I heard a loud cough, not an actual cough, because this one sounded strangely like Fili had said 'Dick'. I saw Greenleaf shift from the corner of my vision. Another cough came once again that sounded like a profanity, and I glanced up locking gazes with the icy blue irises of the chemistry teacher. He grinned and swiftly his hand swept over his desk knocking over all of his papers and office supplies. He put on a mask of innocence over his barely contained pride.
"Opps, how clumsy" He said his voice a few octaves higher than normal. "Kili, pick this up." There was no please or asking tone, this statement was a demand. I raised myself slowly and began walking over but suddenly a familiar hand was latched onto my wrist. Fili stood behind me, his guarded expression matching Thranduil's nearly perfect if only the ferocity in his eyes was invisible. His chest puffed out and his hand tightened on my arm, and I was reminded of all the shows on animal planet. How animals would claim what was theirs, and I became flushed with embarrassment as well as panic.
"No" the blond stated defiantly "You did that on purpose, you clean it up. Sit down, Kili" I shifted and a glanced between the two of them. Whether or not the teacher had heard my brother I didn't know because his gaze hadn't left mine. It seemed to me like he was trying to get into my head. I heard him repeat his demand and I made a move to go but Fili's grip on me clamped down harder making me wince in slight pain. My brother was now sending me a disapproving stare, no matter which way I turned the spotlight was on me. I knew the decision I had to make as I shook off Fili's hand, already missing it's warm touch.
"It's fine, Fee." I said with a note of soft finality, I could feel him jolt in shock. I leaned down and began picking up the mess, when I heard Thranduil mutter something and I wished only for my brother's sake that he hadn't.
"Fag." It hung heavy in the air like a hammer pounding on an anvil. There wasn't even a moment of silence, there was just a clamoring noise and me once again being thrown between my brother and teacher, only this time I was the one holding Fili. His body shook with rage and I had to use most of my weight to hold him back.
"You wanna say that again!" He yelled jerking every which way to get out of my grip as I tried to quiet him. Thranduil looked like a child on Christmas. His face lit up and he grinned showing us his starch white teeth. He leaned down a few inches and moved his head over my shoulder so he was facing the raging teen.
"I said your brother is a homo. He likes it up the ass"
"Jokes on you! You fucker, I already know!" Fili said laughing in a maniacal kind of way. To say Thranduil was surprised would be putting the term lightly. Once again the monster and my sunshine were wearing the same face, pure anger and hatred. Thranduil didn't like it when his surprises got ruined. But unlike my brother, the chem teacher had been playing the game of torment for years longer and I knew exactly what his next move was. He put his mask back on, his horrible smile stretching inhumanly wider.
"And you never wondered, who the lucky boy was did you?"
"No, no please." I begged in a whisper, Fili looked at me in a confused sense of wonder. My plea was silenced as the evil man continued to call out his checkmate.
"It's not just the fact that he's a no good little cock sucker, it the cock he wants to suck up to."
"SHUT UP! SHUT UP!" I screamed in vain, my hold on my vengeful piece of sunlight was slipping, and I realized as tears welled up in my eyes and my throat closed with grief, that this was probably the last time I'd ever hold him. After this he would see me as Thranduil saw me, he would see a disgusting messed up freak.
"What are you talking about?!" was the last thing the golden angel cried out before the devil revealed the truth.
"The piece of shit is in love with you." He said a laugh ripping itself from his heartless chest. That was the last thing I heard. Fili went limp in my arms and I ran, the winds of a hurricane couldn't travel as fast or destroy as much as I had that day. I was getting away from the school running for my house. It wasn't my home anymore; it would be cold and dark there; that was the kind of house I deserved. I lost my sunlight, and now all I had was the dark.