So, a few of you were wondering if this is a continuous story, well I had wanted to write another "Yatori" oneshot, but I'll add it here. This will be a series of one shots that span the anime/manga. They will not be in order, just according to when inspiration appears.

Oh, and I would love it if you guys give me any ideas! I appreciate all the favorites and follows, so please help me so I can write something you like. ^~^

When I think about it, the introduction of Hiyori into Yato's life really changed him, so this one shot is very introspective and goes along with that idea.

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[CERULEAN EYES]

CHAPTER 2: HIS SAVIOR

"If someone wants to die, you should just let them."

He sees disappointment cross her features when he says those words and he almost feels frustrated, but he doesn't let it show. She doesn't know him or the life he's lived up until then. She doesn't know about the blood on his hands or how sometimes his eyes trick him and make him believe it is there. She doesn't know how sometimes he scrubs his hands fiercely trying to get rid of what his eyes see, but instead he sheds his own blood. The crimes he committed in order to continue existing will forever be ingrained in his mind. She doesn't know him, and he feels frustrated when he sees the hurt and disappointment caused by his words.

What he does not understand is why. Why is she disappointed? She doesn't know him. So, why does she look as though he let her down? Why does she think he is better than the person he currently is?

He hurt her, but he's hurt as well. His memories of humans aren't too fond, but why is this one human so different? He doesn't want to disappoint her. He wants to be the kind of god she believes him to be. He doesn't know it, but she's captured a part of him he thought had disappeared and had breathed life into it once more. Maybe this human, maybe Hiyori is an exception.

'She's something,' he tells himself, but he's not sure what she is yet. As time passes, he enjoys seeing her. Being around her brings some kind of normalcy that makes it easier to breathe. She's not like the previous humans who gave their wishes to him. She doesn't ask for much and doesn't push him too much, only when she knows he's in the wrong. She's all that is good, and he swears, she is heavenly.

She is kind smiles and a presence beside him that is comforting, and sometimes it is her spirit form beside him. When he sees her like that, her purple spirit tail swishing, he wonders why she chose him.

She had given him the offering, which he willingly accepted, but can he help her to no longer leave her body? He's not a recognized god, and he can't seem to hold onto a shinki. He wants to be a real god, but he still doesn't completely believe in himself. He's been running away from his past for so long that he's not sure if he will ever be let go from that bond that links him to that man he used to know as "father". She's so vexing and lovely- a contradiction- that he can't bear the thought of her leaving. She doesn't push him and she says she'll wait. Sometimes he wants to keep the waiting game going on eternally. He still doesn't know how he found her. It feels as though fate pushed them together-he likes to think that.

She always does things that put her in danger and he's so very puzzled about it because the things she does are always for someone else. For him, too. He still remembers the moment when he saw her running in fear with an ayakashi right behind her. She was in her spirit form. He thinks that's the moment when he decided that she was a keeper.

Apparently Hiyori wanted to find him a shinki, but then she crossed paths with an ayakashi who liked her scent, and well he decided maybe he should help her because he still needed to grant her wish. He found himself laughing with such hearty joy when she did her "jungle savate" because she turned out to be like nothing he expected. She was strong and it was fun to be with her.

From that misadventure, his world increases by one more- first Hiyori and then Yukine. It was hard connecting to Yukine and he almost died from blight, but this girl, this strong girl did was able to move three shinki to perform a cleansing on Yukine and to save his life.

She saved his life and she opened his eyes as well. He had been acting so carelessly this whole time and he completely neglected the fact that there did exist people who cared for him. He doesn't regret taking Yukine in, they make a great team!

Hiyori always brings about something unexpected, but always good. He thinks highly of her and then the fears begin. She doesn't know him, but that is because he has been hiding his dark past. If she knew who he really was, would she run away? He can't lose her. He wants to protect her, but can he do it behind all the secrets?

'I'm a god,' he always told her and yet he wondered why he never told her who he really was- a god of calamity. A god who destroys and has stolen and ended lives based on the malicious wishes of humans. He was a young god who didn't want to disappear and so he complied with those wishes and killed, but he doesn't want that past anymore. He wants to be a god. What kind? Well he's not sure, but he wants to be the kind that makes her happy.

He worries he can't overcome his past because Nora continues to make appearances. He wants to keep his two lives separate, but it's hard. The link to "father" still exists and he's not completely free and so he does what he can, he hides the truth as best as he can. He acts foolish and puts on smiles and changes the subject if ever it veers into dangerous territory. The one person he never wants to know the truth is Hiyori. He can't bear the thought of her leaving. She's become so central to his life, she's almost like breathing.

He worries that one day he will have to leave her if his "father" needs him, so as they walk her home one day he puts a lock of her hair behind her ear and leans down a bit and whispers, "If ever something happens to me, go to Daikoku and Kofuku, okay?"

She looks up at him with her pink eyes and her gaze feels so bright that he has to look away. He feels too bare in her gaze. "What would happen-"

He cuts her off when he tells Yukine something and the two start to bicker. He doesn't want to think of leaving her because his chest feels so tight like he can't breathe. If he loses her…he shakes his head and moves forward. He'll only think of now, he decides.

Hiyori... she's... well she's just amazing, heavenly. He is a god, but surely she is something divined from the heavens.

He's sloppy, but she puts all the pieces together. He's tried to keep to himself while he hid behind smiles and friendly behavior, but she... she helped create relationships for him that were always possible, but that he kept at a distance. She's not the type of person that will let him get away with anything. She's loud and won't let him forget his mistakes. She's the only voice that seems to matter and will drive him to action.

He didn't feel happy, alive, or loved until she became a part of his life, and if he could he would give her the world. He wanted followers because he had been afraid to disappear, but perhaps only having her is alright for the moment. She is enough. She is too much. He needs to work hard for her because he feels he has received too much from her.

This girl risked her life for a god. She didn't know, but the bus would have left him unharmed, but she still went out of her way. She believed him to be a good person when he had given up on humans and only wanted to move away from his past. He is no longer lonely. He won't disappear because she promised she wouldn't forget him.

She sees through the whining and is able to read his clear message while most put off his words. She sees his true desires and she accomplishes them all. When he sees it in her hands he almost wants to cry because she is too good to him. She gives him everything he wanted and even more than he thought he could ever have.

The shrine in her hands was made with him in mind and only for him and his heart feels like it'll burst. He is the god, but somehow he feels that she is his goddess. She gives to him endless happiness and joy and he decides from this moment on he will make her the happiest in the entire world. She holds all of him in her hands and she probably doesn't know. From that moment when she called him his real name, "Yaboku," he knew that he was too far gone and could never live without her.

Yato looks around the room. He sees Hiyori and Yukine at the the table working on math problems. He sees Daikoku and Kofuku eating melon slices and he just watches as the room is filled with life. His world has gotten bigger and he can honestly say that he has friends now. Some part of him that feels too embarrassed to say it out loud assures him that this is his family now. That past that he had and the father that made him are all things he wants to leave behind. This is home, no father or Nora included.

He looks at Hiyori and his gaze lingers trying to burn her image into his mind. His life seems to have begun the moment he met her. These people believe in him and he will work hard. He will become a god of happiness to share with those he loves. He will become stronger so he can protect them all.

His gaze flickers to her once again and he notes how her brow furrows as she looks over a problem that she is trying to explain to Yukine and he sighs out the words hidden within his heart, "My goddess..."

The god did not save the girl. It was the girl, a goddess on earth that saved the god.

I hope everyone liked this alright. I think it got fluffy, but I still like it. Anyway, please leave constructive criticism, if any. Please review or follow. And as I previously stated, feel free to leave prompts. I love you all!

Maru-Nyan out!