Warning! Really dark stuff ahead, mentions of suicide and some swearing!

I admit that taking the truck was a really dick move on my part; Fili would have to take the nasty bus home. Fili gave me the keys earlier this morning in case Thranduil decided to keep me late and I needed a ride home. I had planned on giving them back to him, so that he wouldn't have to ride the bus he hated so much but I just had to get away. I pulled out of the school parking lot and sped off towards my house. I really shouldn't have been driving as fast as I had been in that state, with my vision blurred from the stinging tears and my breathing coming out of my throat in choking gasps. I was home safely in five minutes, thankfully no one had been out on the roads or they might've been hit. I wasn't worried about my own well being anymore.

I walked through the front door, once again pleased to find the house empty of it's residents. My head finally began to catch up to my situation and I sunk to the floor in defeat. What could I do? I obviously couldn't stay here anymore, Uncle, mum, and Fili, wouldn't want me here after this. I felt like I could die.

I paused and thought on that subject for a moment. I did truly feel like I wanted to kill myself but I didn't know if I could. So many questions ran through my head. Would it hurt? Was there a heaven or hell waiting for me? I shook my head, because this was a very possible easy solution to my problem. I picked myself off the floor and took off up the stairs to my uncle's room. Beneath the mattress I found my salvation, a small revolver that would be primary in the act of destroying myself. I walked down the hall to my room solemnly, I would hate to get Uncle's room messy with my blood and brains everywhere.

I sat on my bed and put the head of the gun in my mouth. It clattered around my mouth clicking against my teeth as my hands held it shaking. I hesitated and looked around my room a final time. In most cases a note would be in order, but what would I say and who would care to listen after what I had done? I was going to pull the trigger but something glinting in the room's glowing light caught my eyes. It was a photograph on my bedside table of Fili and I, happy and smiling like we had been just a few days ago in the park. Slowly I put the weapon down and picked up the framed memory, my tears dripped onto the glass barrier as I stared down at it. Within a few moments I started a hazy walk down memory lane gazing with envy at the two joyous boys in the photo.

I stopped moving completely and tried to gather my wits, never had I thought that the best news in the world would come from the lips of my enemy. I heard a sob and then I fell to the floor; Kili had ran out the door faster than one of Mr. Radagast's rabbits but I was still stunned with shock. I was quaking in excitement and fright, as I heard the sick bastard in front of me continue to laugh at my Kili. I shood on shaking legs and glared at the teacher with as much loathing as I could muster. His laugh calmed down and he grinned at me, his face was like acid burning my eyes. I grabbed the front of his shirt and almost brought my fist down on him but thought better of it, I did enjoy the look of terror that passed over his features though. I let him go and left, Kili needed me now, not him. Without a doubt however I would be reporting this to the main office and get the disgusting piece of crap off of the school staff.

I got out of the classroom and headed toward the parking lot, Kili probably wanted to get the hell out of here as much as I did. My hunch was correct, and I saw him shoot down the street at break neck speed. Unfortunately I didn't take into account that he would take the truck or that he would go fifty miles over the speed limit, leaving me with out a ride. Our house was a few blocks away so I started jogging down the street. This would probably be the worst love confession ever, Kee would be covered in tears and I would be covered in sweat. However if all went well we wouldn't care, I would ditch my part-time job for tonight and Kili and I would just be together, finally together. I picked up my pace with a new adrenaline pumping through my veins.

Fili and I used to do everything together. I remember Fili didn't go to any high school parties until I was old enough to come too, or how he quit the football team when I didn't get in. I held the photo in my arms close to my heart; I was saddened that the last thing my brother and I ever did together was let Thranduil send us to detention and tear us apart. I set the photo back on the night stand and glanced back at the pistol laying beside my thigh. I knew I couldn't go through with killing myself anymore, I felt like such a coward. My Sunlight saved me a final time from destruction when he was the one tearing me apart. I grabbed a suit case from my closet and started to pack it with clothes and money, most runaways didn't get the chance to pack, so I had to make use of it. I still wouldn't be welcome here even if it was required by law.

I heard the door slam downstairs and winced, thinking it would be my mother or Thorin, they wouldn't be to keen on me leaving so suddenly with out explanation. I went to my window and judged the distance it would take for me to jump to the ground with a suitcase without braking myself physically. I noticed the lack of cars in the driveway aside from the truck. Who was here then?

Panic came quickly, and the door to my bedroom swung open on cue, revealing Fili panting and sweating, looking strait at me with his blazing blue eyes. He came toward me like a lion would corner it's prey, I was backed against the wall even before he got to me, trembling like a leave. His hands came up to either side of my face, his body flush against mine, and I instinctively leaned into his touch. Maybe I did shot myself and this was heaven, or a coma induced dream. All of his attention bore down on me, my eyes, my nose, and my lips. He pressed his mouth to mine, we were both shaking I realized returning the kiss quickly. I was so desperate I got sloppy and blushed trying to pull away, but Fee bit down on my lower lip growling. I gasped and fell back into his embrace ignoring my burning lungs and running my fingers through his golden hair.

He did back away and I whimpered, tears resurfacing in my eyes. They were happy tears. Fili wiped them away with his thumb and leaned his forehead on mine, not saying a word or breaking eye contact. His body stopped pressing against me and I missed the feel of him instantly. Walking over to the bed he emptied the packed contents of the suit case onto the sheets and held up the revolver with a face that said exactly how pissed he was about finding it there. He threw the offending object out the still open door and I jumped when I heard it collide with and shatter something. My Sunlight sat on the bed and patted the spot next to him.

Still in a surprised daze I sat next to him. I still worried that this was his attempt to cling onto me as a brother, or an act of pity. I would've still accepted either, but I wanted this to be real so badly. He held me in his strong arms like I had held the picture moments ago, like I was something precious.

"I love you Kili and for once I'm glad everything Thranduil said was true." I nodded in agreement, nuzzling into his chest. I tried to inhale his scent, but my nose was too stuffed up from all the crying. We stayed like that, spooning each other without words until the sunset. Even after the sun went down taking it's smoldering light with it, all was well and bright, because I still had Fili beside me. I would always have Fili beside me. I would always have my Sunlight.

Author's Note: A happy ending and it's done! I'm sorry if the ending seemed a little rushed. I hope you guys liked it and thank you for all of your reviews and support. I think I'm abandoning The Hobbit for a bit, the Supernatural fandom is calling my name. Check out my stuff if your interested.