Deep down I knew Bella still loved me, I could see it in her eyes, but I also saw a lot of other emotions as well. Hurt, Pain, fear, distrust, sadness covered her like a over sized blanket, How could I have been so stupid to leave her.

I brushed a strand of Bella's hair out of face.

I wasn't sure that Bella would let all us come to Charlie's funeral. I hoped it wasn't at La push, otherwise the treaty would be broken, that was the last thing I needed to worry about, My only concern was Bella right now.

"Jacob will be soon Edward, I suggest you wake Bella up or you can let Jacob carry her while she sleeps, It's your decision"- Carlisle

Bella looked so peaceful when she wasn't having nightmares, I wanted to wake up her up to say goodbye, but I reluctantly decided against it, cause I didn't know if she would like to talk to anyone right now.

Sighing, I pulled the blankets off Bella, exposing her sickly fragile body.

I did this to her. Me. Edward Cullen, I was a monster.

I heard Jacob pull up, hearing his unpleasant thoughts, I picked Bella up gently, cradling.

"How Dare those Bloodsuckers take Bella, they don't deserve her, not after they left.

I knew Jacob was 100 percent correct, but his thoughts didn't shock me.

I made my way down the stairs, successfully not waking Bella up, as she hung limb in my arms.

"Oh my"- Esme

She was probably shocked by Bella's appearance and paleness , not that she hadn't seen it before hand though.

I tried to tune everyone out, as I heard Jacob approach slowly. Carlisle went to answer the door, knowing very well who it was.

"Jacob" I heard Carlisle say gently

"Jacobs angry Edward, don't argue with him he might phase "- Jasper.

I sighed heavily as Jacob stormed into the living room, where the rest of us were.

"How dare you" he angrily.

"Jacob-" I was cut off.

"Edward, just fucking hand Bella over, so she doesn't have to deal with you, she already lost her father, why did you guys come back you ruined her life"

"We also saved her" Emmett added.

"Yes, I know the blood all over the floor, I don't know how you handled it, but she wouldn't have done it if you guys hadn't left" he glared.

Carlisle stepped forward.

"Jacob"

"Yes Carlisle" he sighed angrily

" I know your upset, but can you spare a few minutes to answer a couple of questions for us" Carlisle pleaded.

"Why should I" He almost shouted.

"We want to help her to Jacob" I explained.

That was a wrong move I thought.

"I don't think you guys deserved to know," Jacob decided.

"Very well" Carlisle gave up.

I stepped forward.

"Will my family and I be able to attend Charlie's funeral" I asked politely .

He scrunch up his face.

"That, you will have to ask Bella about" he said walking forward.

I handed Bella's limp body over to Jacob.

"What has Happened to you Bella" He sighed sadly

Those were the words I had said to Bella, it was obvious Jacob cared as much as I did for her.

"Does Bella have any stuff" He asked still looking at Bella.

"No, I don't think she does " Alice confirmed.

"Ok well I better go" Jacob grumbles, getting Bella into a better position to carry.

with that he put Bella into his rabbit an drove to La push.

BELLA POV (GOING TO JACOBS)

Opening my eyes , I heard the sound of a engine. I was in a car.

That's when I saw Jacob.

"Jacob!" I said surprised.

"Hello Bella" he said wrapping a arm around me.

I stiffened. But it wasn't cause of Jacob, I was craving my pills. fucking withdrawals.

"Sorry" he whispered pulling away.

"What's going on" I asked .

"The Cullen's thought it was best for you to stay with me for a bit" he explained.

"Thank you" I smiled falsely

That's was I wanted, but I couldn't help but feel empty, the hole in my hurt was still burning.

Charlie's funeral was coming up, would I cry, I knew I couldn't , but I seriously wanted to, I wanted to feel sad for my father's passing, but the numbness wouldn't let me.

"are you alright Bella" He said, probably noticing my excessive twitching.

"Jacob , can we go to my house, I need to get a few things" I tried to smile, I really needed my joints plus me druggies, I couldn't go on. I no silly right, I just couldn't help it though. I need to feel a little alive.

"Sure" he said smiling.

We sat in silence till we got to Charlie's house.

"I'll be right back" I said.

"I think I'm come with" he said unsure. God fucking dam it , how will I get my stuff now.

"Sure" my voice was shaking.

We walked to the door, I got out the key and slowly turned it.

I stepped through the door carefully, trying to not look suspicious , I think It was working.

"I'll wait down here" he said

"Oh ok sure, give me 10 minutes or so" I said.

he nodded

The sucker believed me.

Wait! what was I doing calling Jacob a sucker, he helped me.

I shrugged my remark off.

pills, pills, pills, pills, pills I thought insanely , I think I almost ran upstairs.

I got out a random bag, stuffing it with random clothes, thinking I could always come back here for more or borrow Jacobs, I don't think he would mind.

I sprinted to the bathroom, I realised it had been clean, I wondered.

"JACOB!" I yelled down the stairs.

"YEAH!" he yelled back.

"did you clean the bathroom?" I asked.

I felt myself tense, I was positive Jacob did the same.

"Yes Bella"

"Thanks" I sighed.

"I grabbed the pills from the cupboard.

I smiled, this was sick, smiling over drugs.

"Ready" I said walking quick placed down the stairs.

"ok" he said simply.

Back to Edward POV ( Back at the house )

Carlisle placed a comforting hand on my shoulder.

"Don't worry Edward, Jacob will look after her" he soothed.

I didn't answer I had nothing to say.

"When is Charlie's funeral Alice" Emmett asked.

"Emmett I can't see, wolfs remember" Alice tapped her forehead.

"oh"

"Good I wish I could see Bella's future"- Alice.

"I hope Bella gets well, poor dear" - Esme.

"God Jacob was so angry, we had Bella"- Jasper

"I wish I wasn't so mean to Bella"- Rose

Yeah Rose was mean to Bella, not because of her personality, Bella was human. I felt depressed that I didn't have Bella here to hold.

"Can you stop" Jasper was tasting my sadness.

"Sorry" I muttered.

Review :P

I think that was longest chapter.

will Bella get caught with her druggie drug drugs?

What going to happen at Charlie's funeral?