Chapter 11

"How can I be so stupid Mer. I don't know what was I thinking?" Cristina said for the 4th time since they came home, and they have been drinking wine since then.

"I mean I moved away. I left. I'm living my dream. I'm what I wanted to be so why didn't I think that he would have also moved on. I'm so stupid"

"You are not stupid Cristina. You just didn't know. It came as a surprise, that's all.. But what I don't understand is why he didn't tell you already. I mean you guys did have dinner together yesterday. He had time to tell you, then why didn't he?"

"No, no … I think he did try to tell me. He said he wanted to talk to me but I stopped him. I guess at some level I did know. At least I feared. And maybe I was just trying to avoid it…."

"It's my fault, I should have told you. When they had Jack, I thought about telling you but you were so firm on not knowing, so I didn't."

"It's not your fault Mer, I made you promise. So it's not your fault. It's my fault…. I thought not knowing would make it easy. It's not your fault"

"She is pretty though, Owen's fiancée" with those words, Cristina finally broke down. "Oh my God! He has a fiancée Mer, A Son… Guess it's REALLY OVER" She laid her head on Meredith's shoulder and allowed the tears to fall. "I don't know what I was thinking. I allowed myself to hope Mer, I was hoping…"

"It's going to be ok Cristina. You'll be fine. I'm here for you, you know that right".

"I know" Cristina gave Meredith a small smile and enveloped her in a big hug. "I know. I know that you are always going to be there for me not matter what. You have to be. You are my person"

"I'm your person" Meredith tightens her grip on her person.

"Owen was my person too. I never told him that, but he was, he was My Person"

"I know. And he knows it too, even though you never told him, he knows"

"You really think so, that he knows"

"Off course he does Cristina. He knows you better than anyone, sometimes even better than me, which drives me crazy but it's true. He knows you, so yes he does know. You were His Person too, you do know that right"

"Yeah, I was. I was his person." Cristina let out a sigh.

After a long moment of quite, Cristina wiped her face clean of tears and poured them both another glass of wine "It's going to be ok. I'll be ok. I have an amazing job and my research. And lots and lots of beautiful, amazing memories. I have enough. I'll be ok"

"Yes, you will be"

"So what is your plan for the rest of the week?" After a brief moment, Meredith asked.

"Well let's see, I have a couple of lectures scheduled and I guess two surgeries. Also a few consults. Yup that's all I guess, for now"

"Wow, so that means you're going to be pretty busy. That's no fun. If you're going to be working all the time, when will we get some time to ourselves".

"I'll make time. Promise"

"Off course you'll make time or else you'll be a dead woman real soon. Oh btw I was thinking of having a party, maybe a day after tomorrow. Nothing really fancy, just all of ours friends and food and wine. What do you say?"

"Yeah, I think that's a good idea, the wine I mean" that said, both Cristina and Meredith burst out laughing.

"No seriously Cristina, we are all together after 4 long years. We all deserve to celebrate, a party"

"Yes, you are right. We do deserve a party. I'm in."

"Good, because April has already started to make the arrangements and if you would have said no, well I don't what she would do but it wouldn't be pretty" Cristina burst into laughter.

"Oh nooo, if April is organizing the thing that means it's going to be, all girly and pretty and emotional. Ewww. Is it too late to reconsider?"

"Yes. We are having the party"

"Cristina, you do know that April is pretty tight with Owen. She has been there for him for a lot. They helped each other get through a great deal of stuff. So she is also friends with Jennifer and…. I can ask her though"

"No, Meredith. No. She is a part of Owen's life, she is his family. She should be there. Don't worry about it. It'll be fine. And I can't really avoid her forever. I want to be able to talk to Owen, be around him and for that I have to be ok with her being around".

"And also all of you guys are going to be there, it's going to great."

"Yes, it'll be great. I'm so glad you are here" Meredith gave Cristina another hug.

Again I'm really sorry for such an delay. I know it's not fair to you guys but it's how crazy my life's been..

Please do leave your thoughts..