Since some of you have said this is similar to another writers writing time for a change. In no way was I hoping to copy another writer but I'm switching it now. So please be with me I apologize in advance for the longer updates.

I will not let the past run my life anymore, it's over and done with… he's probably moved on to the next Sub someone who could meet his needs. I force a smile and toss my hair over my shoulder *Here's to the new and braver Ana* My jaw drops when I finally realize we're here, When Maria stays somewhere its got to be the best and she's defiantly proven my theory.

"I got us the Suite Riviera, I had to out pay some big CEO which cost a fortune so I hope you don't mind sharing." She beams at me, as she gracefully climbed out of the car the cameras following her every move as she sashayed into the Lobby.

I put on my brave Ana face and half stumble out of the car landing hard on my hands and knee's. *fuck me and my clumsiness.* I hiss at myself and take count of my surroundings hoping no one caught that. Everyone still seemed interested in Maria so this time I was safe, and out of the light.

A gentle hand laid on my shoulder as I slowly lifted my eyes to his face. His eyes were full of concern and his mouth was set into a hard line. "Are you okay miss?"

I felt my blood heat and rise to my cheeks as I duck my head embarrassed lowering my eyes back to the ground. "Umm…yes I'm fine." I stammer and quickly climb to my feet brushing my black slacks off and readjusting my sweater.

Eager to put as much space in between me and him I hurry in after Maria whose putting her charm to the manager who seems lost in the depth of her eyes.

"Can you please bring us a bottle of your best bubbly to the Riveria." She smiled and passed him a wad of cash. He simply nodded his head and hurried off probably in search of whatever was the best.

"Come, come we have to go get changed." she giggled and pulled me into the elevator. "oh your going to love the dress, or at least you better love the dress." She grinned and drug me into the spacious living room all the windows were open and the white drapes fluttered in the soft breeze, you could hear the giggling of people down below and the pounding of the latest hip hop song.

"Maria I really just want to stay in tonight, I'll go out tomorrow I promise." She scowls at me disappointment written all over her face. I knew I couldn't say no to her she replaced Kate after I avoided all contact with her, but I had to leave Kate behind if Christian had ever found out it would be like World War III. She was the only friend I had left and I would be damned if I had lost her too.

"Ana ever since we met you've been warding yourself off of men, you need to embrace your hot mommy body…be one with it."

"I have not!" I exclaimed and defiantly crossed my arms.

"Oh please lets see there's the Senator, our rival publishing company's son, and your ex what's his name….oh yeah Christian Grey."

I stared at her in disbelief "that was you!" I half scream at her. I knew Christian looked for me maybe at first but I really didn't think anything of it. Him and his stalking capabilities would have been relentless until he gave up and moved on.

I groaned in submission and gave her my best glare to show my unhappiness. No one could ever say no to Maria "Where's my room again?" I ask desperate to get out of the business casual outfit I was currently in.

She shirked in delight "Down the hall to the left." She pointed and took off to her room, most likely to climb into another 500 dollar dress. Heaven forbid she wear the same thing twice for once.

I sulk my way to my room and flop onto the bed. *This is so not going as I had expected it to.* I was over 3,000 miles away from my son on a vacation and my thoughts kept wondering back to my old life. *would it be wrong of me to try an contact Kate? To try to make her understand? What she must be doing by now married to Elliot for sure, and with kids if I knew Kate.* Tears streamed out of the corner of my eyes and onto the bed. *oh you really fucked up Ana*

I quickly slide out of my clothes and glance at the dress she picked out for me. A skimpy gold colored strapless thing that barley cover my butt and left nothing to the men's imagination when it came to my breast. *Defiantly not mommy clothes.* I sighed heavily and threw part of my hair up leaving the rest down. I slip on a pair of matching flat sandals, grab my clutch and head back for the living room.

As if on cue Maria is already standing there holding two glasses of champegaue. "Here's to the best Vice President and Friend I have ever had." She smiled toasting me.

She gulps hers down greedily as I take careful sips of mine *someone has to stay semi sober tonight.* I sigh and link arms with her as we head down to the massive midnight beach party.

Within minutes she's had guys at her feet begging her to dance with them like love sick puppy dogs, and she was more then happy to oblige to half of them. She did not need another husband so soon and I was going to make sure she didn't make a mistake she was going to regret.

Hundreds of bodies grated together in dance, people were laughing and sipped on cocktails. I let myself work through the crowds drink my Oasis till I was standing near the waves the water lapping at my feet. I stared out into the dark horizon my mind drifting back to happier times. *Will I ever get over him* I hiss at myself trying to delete him from my mind.

Please note the next part will most likely be in two point of views in the same chapter or it would be one super short chapter to get Christian out of the way.

I also have another Fifty shades started if anyone would like to see that one.