By the time I was in Physics I was angry, tired, ashamed, and any other bad feeling all mixed together. Why was I so sure that it wasn't true? I felt the tears forming but as soon as I felt Austin taking the seat next to me I had to swallow them down.

Push down all my thoughts about what happened this morning. I got my phone out to add Austin's number into my phone for future projects. 3 more text messages and 4 more miss calls from Gavin, again I ignored them. I passed my phone to Austin.

"For future references."

He nodded and add his phone number into my phone. And texted himself to add mine into his phone. "Who's Gavin and why is he so sorry for not tell you?"

I snatched my phone out of his hands. "That's none of your business"

He rose his hands in the air. "hey it just came up. I wasn't snooping"

"If you read the message and ask my about my personal business then it's snooping" I shut off my phone again.

"You didn't reply back"

I shot him a look, "like I said, it's none of your business!"

He leaned his head into his palm so he was facing me directly. "Relationship problems? Need advice? I'm pretty good with relationships"

I snorted "Right" I swirled my pencil around the classroom "That's why you've dated everyone in this room right? Who's this month's girl? Ashley? Britney? Natasha? Bethany?"

He shook his head. "Don't tell me you believe those dumb rumors too"

I shrugged "Isn't it true?"

"No, nothing you hear in high school is ever true. I thought at least you would've known that"

"Why me?"

"Please, your the top student in our grade. I thought you were smart enough not to believe rumors"

I look away and write my name on the top of my notebook and write the date for today's notes. "Sometimes rumors are true"

He was quiet so I thought he didn't hear what I said. "Sometimes but sometimes the truth has a story behind it"

I ignored that. Why am I even talking about this with Austin Moon? Whatever the "story" was behind Gavin and his mystery girlfriend, I don't give a shit. He's a big boy, he can do whatever he wants.

Class started and we've been given the lab for today.

"Alright class, so I'm passing out the labs for today. You have all the materials at your stations already. The only help you can get is from your textbooks and your lab partner. Ask me for any questions."

He passes out the lab sheets and our wonderful hour starts. I'm looking over the lab instructions. It seems fairly easy but the communication part is the hard part.

~Explore the difference between ideal and actual mechanical advantage by manipula~

"So-" he rubbed his hands together. "Where do we start?" He asked, touching the equipment.

"We have to read the instructions first"

"Or we could use common sense, look you've got an inclined plane, a second class lever, and a pulley. The lab is to make a simple machine using these, so let's make one"

I sigh and put the sheet down, I grab my notebook. "Fine then let's sketch some examples and chose one"

He takes my pencil and lays it on the table. "Or we can just experiment with what we have and see what we come up with"

"Why are you so against following directions?"

"Why are you so against not following directions?"

We stare at each other for a second. Then he laughs, "Fine let's do it your way"

I guess I looked surprised because he said "What? Shouldn't you be used to having things your way?"

I shook my head and started drawing.

I went to lunch to meet up with Carrie when I spot Gavin running towards my direction.

I felt like running but I stayed exactly where I was. What am I going to do, avoid him forever? So I let him catch up to me.

I held up my hand. "Hey"

Gavin looked at me like a spider was crawling on my face. "Hey? You run out on me this morning. Avoid all my calls and text messages, and all you have to say is "hey"? I know you mad at me but let me expl-"

"I'm not mad"

He studied my face, he stood frozen just looking at me. "Your not?"

I shake my head and try to keep my face as natural as possible.

"But you ran out on me this morning at the bench"

I shrugged "I didn't want to interrupt anything. you looked kind of occupied"

He blushed and rubbed the back of his neck. "Uh..okay. Well the why didn't you answer any of my texts or calls"

"Gavin, I don't look at my phone during classes. I'm trying to graduate"

He stood there, processing. He looked down and stuffed his hands down into his pockets. "So your really not mad?"

I put on my oh-please face. "Gavin why would I be mad?"

"I don't know. I was planning on telling you, I didn't want you to think I was keeping it fro-"

I put up my hand and stopped him from finishing that sentence. If he finished that sentence I would've stopped this whole pretending I'm fine with all this act.

"It's your business"

And then we just stared at each other. I wanted to punch him, I wanted to kiss him, I wanted to tell him to never speak to me again, I wanted to beg him to dump whoever she was, I wanted to stop loving him. There was something in his eyes, it felt like he wanted to say something but was stopping himself from doing it. So I waited but nothing came out of his mouth.

That's when Carrie showed up want stepped in front of me. Blocking my vision of Gavin.

"There you are!" She said. "I've been saving that seat over there for us"

I looked back at Gavin. Who was still staring at me. Carrie turned around and faced him "Hey, you joining us for lunch today"

He finally broke our little staring contest. "Not today. I have to go meet someone"

Carrie glared at him "Meet someone huh? Who's this someone?"

Geez why Carrie? Why?!

He just shrugged casually and said "Just someone I promised to meet for lunch today, I'll have lunch with you guys tomorrow. I gotta get going"

Carrie crossed her arms and said "Whateves. See you tomorrow then"

He smiled at her then smiled at me. The smile didn't feel as warm as it always is. So I gave a semi cold-warm smile back. And then he was gone.