This fanfiction is written by Chaos Cherry

Chapter Three

Early morning light invades my livingroom and disturbs my sleep.

I'm not ready.

Nope.

I keep my eyes closed and stretch my limbs. I expand the length of the couch and contract, rolling onto my side. I go to yawn until my breath is cut off by a suffocating ball of hair to the face.

I open one eye timidly.

She's asleep, pressed against my chest and half falling off the couch. She looks so peaceful when she sleeps. Her eyes are closed, concealing the chaotic red that haunts me. I run my hand through her hair and down her back.

I try not to wake her as I climb over the back of the couch. I loose my balance and fall flat on my face on the other side making a loud thud. Miraculously when I look over the edge she's still asleep.

God I need a smoke.

I find the cigarettes on the coffee table but I can't find my lighter. I check my pants from the night before but come up short. I go over to the burner on the stove and turn it on, lighting my cigarette.

I inhale pulling the smoke deep into my lungs.

Just what I needed. I dainty hand reaches from behind me and turns off the stove. Chaos may be the only person who cares if I burn my apartment down.

I turn around expecting her delicate stance, but that's not what I get.

"You're welcome, dumbass." Amber says, taking my cigarette from my mouth.

"What are you doing here?" I ask the obnoxious blonde sitting on my kitchen counter. Turquoise beads flow around her neck matching her eyes. "Just came to visit to you big brother." She says with obvious sarcasm in her voice. She rolls my cigarette around in her fingers. A mischievous look in her eyes.

I want to hit her. I want to hit her and tell her she doesn't know what I've been through. I want to throw a toaster at her.

I walk up and rip my cigarette from her hands. "Woah." She says at my sudden anger. The last time me and Amber saw each other she was crying saying how father loved her and could never do anything like beat me. If only that were true, after that I left for college only to drop out and become an addict. I bet Father is so proud.

I walk over to Chaos and point to her. "Do not touch her." I mouth to Amber as I drag my cigarette and head towards the bathroom, a not so quiet rage burning inside of me.

It takes so little effort for my fist to go through the mirror, I almost doubt that it did, if it wasn't for the shatter and the blood running down my wrist.

I look at my broken reflection, my eyes are wild and my arm is covered in blood. I look terrifying. I lean against the door and run the bloody fingers through my hair, tugging the roots bringing me into reality, I need to clean up and then I'll go back out there. I rinse the blood from my hair and my torn skin. The cuts are deep, and the pain is slowly creeping in. Previously masked by anger the wounds sting when I disinfect them, I toss the bloody cloth into the garbage, knocking it over.

Fuck.

I start shoving old tissues into the metal can when I'm confronted by a hard pink piece of plastic. A little blue plus sign in the clear window.

What the fuck is this?

¨What the fuck is this?" I yell bursting into the kitchen, holding the positive pregnancy test in my mangled hand.

Amber raises an eyebrow and goes back to her chips.

¨Well?¨

"What?" She rolls her eyes at the pink plastic in my hand. "Oh that? I think it's defective."

God.

"Defective?" I say swinging my arms out in a dramatic manner. "If you can't remember mom thought we were 'defective' too. And here we are." At this point Chaos has woken up and started eating chips with Amber. I love her but Amber has my full attention.

Amber throws the chips down onto my coffee table, Chaos follows after them eagerly.

"Excuse me." Amber says walking up to me. "But it's MY body, not yours." I'm about to beat the shit out of her when tears start to form in the corners of her eyes.

…What?

"I-it's-" tears start to flow free as she collapses, barely able to grasp the words. "my body…" She whimpers before falling apart and dropping to the ground. My anger is quickly extinguished as I fall to her side, wrapping my arms around her. She may be dumb as fuck but she is still my flesh and blood. Amber continues to wail as we rock back and forth on my kitchen floor. I run my fingers through her golden flaxen hair as she weeps.

She cries and warm salty tears fall onto me. Suddenly I feel ten again, consoling my little sister after a nightmare, pushing my fingers through her soft hair and down her back while she swallows sobs and coughs up sorrow.

"It's okay, it's all going to be okay." I hold her close, shielding her from a harsh reality. I look around the kitchen. Chaos has left the room, but set a glass of water on the floor next to me. I let Amber blow her nose into my shirt before I hand her the water. A silence sits between us.

"Do our parents know?" I don't want to see them. I want nothing to do with them. But Amber needs more than I can give, and more than she can get from herself.

"No." She whimpers as she wipes her eyes and sips water. I can tell she doesn't know what to do about this situation, neither do I, but we have to do something.

"Who's the father?"

Amber takes a deep breath. "...Jade."

I pause and think. "Who the fuck is Jade?"

"You know," she says to me with big eyes, "He's friends with Dake."

I pause yet again, an uncontrollable feeling sits inside me waiting for something to push me over the edge. "Who the fuck is Dake?"

Amber sighs and rolls her eyes.

"It doesn't matter, Jade is a grower, I met him at a party. He's funny."

"Funny?" I seath "You got pregnant for funny?"

Excuses bubble up and spill out of her mouth but I'm not interested. I shove my fingers through my matted hair and dig my nails into my skin, trying to ground myself.

What the fuck am I going to do with her? I sure as hell can't afford to take care of her if she carries it to term… My only option is to take her to Texas, she needs my parents support. They would do anything for precious little Amber. If I got someone pregnant I'd be on my own, I hope she realizes how lucky she is.

"Nathaniel?" She looks at me with big glassy eyes, threatening to well up and flood my kitchen any second.

"Go call mom. We're going on a road trip."

I regret the words immediately, the last thing I want to do is face the man who beat me when I was defenceless and the woman who stood by and watched. But what other choice do I have?

The plan so far.

Find Jade.

Tell Jade about the pregnancy.

Possibly kick Jade's ass.

Definitely rob Jade for "child support."

Flawless plan.

12am

The cheap vinyl sticks to my skin where my shirt has ridden up. Bubbly doo-wop from the twenty's plays from a jukebox in a corner. My friends argue loudly and fight about what to order. I look out the window and am met with only black and confronted with my own disastrous reflection. I'd send my fist through the window but this is a place I can't get kicked out of. Chaos touches my shoulder bringing me back to the group.

"C'mon Nathaniel agrees with me." Silver shouts, throwing a hand in my direction. "If you only drink half of a five hour energy you get two and half hours full energy."

"No way! Five hours half assed energy makes way more sense." Sayuri throws her arm around her boyfriend, Lysander.

They turn to me, wanting input.

"Whatever, I'm with Silver- I have to pee." I stand and Chaos lets me out of the booth, she asks me if I'm okay with her eyes and I nod.

It's a lie, in all honesty I'm falling apart.

I turn the lock to the bathroom door and slide to the ground before I even register the click.

I intake in the drugs eagerly.

The powder mixes with natural fluids and drips down the back of my throat. Electricity crackles in my heart and spreads to my fingertips, awakening my nerves and pulling me to a higher level. Suddenly the whole world seems brighter, bigger, richer, and I could rule it all. This world is mine. I leap to my feet with a newfound purpose, the energy coursing through me pushes me to my next destination. That's why I like blow. It's never content with the present, always pushing you onto the next thing there's no time to sit and think there's only time for action.

I smile as I open the bathroom door. A rush courses through me. I'm invincible, I can take on the entire world, I am the king, an item of perfection, I'm-

Pain hits my face. I fall to the ground. "What the fuck?" I moan. I look up and am met with dazzling sky blue eyes. A girl with wavy brown hair sits on the floor, a hand rubbing her head. Her little blue waitress uniform is disheveled, and revealing a bit more skin than appropriate.

"Melody?" I ask recognizing the quiet, pianist that always helped out the student council.

She looks to me. "Nathaniel?"

I nod, and display my crooked smile. I saw her last, right after the secret about me and my father got out.

I was oblivious to her feelings, I had no idea she liked me. Needless to say her confession was a shock, she wanted to give me her heart, but I didn't feel the same. When I thought I didn't need anyone, she thought I needed her.

I smile, "Hi Melody." Instantly her face changes. Shock to pure joy.

"Nathaniel!" She instantly gets on her feet and sticks her hand out to help me up. Okay. I can work with this.

Accepting her hand I stand up only to almost be knocked over again. I look down at my chest, Melody has firmly wrapped her arms around my waist.

"I'm so glad to see you."

"Umm yeah… good to see you too." I put my arms around her shoulders and rub her back lightly. She looks up at me resting her chin on my chest. Her soft eyes drawing me in.

"How have you been?" She tightens her grasp on my middle. I can feel her love for me wrapping around me like thick fog, it mingles with her perfume. The heat she radiates is clouding my thoughts.

"I've been alright." I have to admit her embrace feels nice. After everything that happened between us I hadn't expected such a warm welcome.

We stand still, feeling each others heart beat having what I think is a touching moment.

*Cough Cough*

The moment is shattered, destroyed, burned in a fire. Chaos stands in front of me, a shocked face I can only describe as betrayal sits on flawless features. Silver has popped her head around the corner, her face holding the look of rage.

"WHAT THE FUCK!?" Silver yells as she quickly moves towards us. I try to dodge but it's already too late. Silver has her onyx black nails wrapped and slithered into Melody's brown locks. She pulls her violently out of my grasp and to the floor.

"Bitch!" Silver straddles Melody's waist as she slashes at Melody's face and chest. Melody screams gaining attention of everyone in the diner.

Instantly our friends are on her, pulling her off of the screaming Melody. Castiel scoops up silver and throw her over his shoulder as she claws at the air, still going for blood.

"We're leaving. Now." He says giving me a pointed look. He carries Silver out to the car as she screams over his shoulder.

"Put me down. I am not done with her! That bitch has it coming and you know it, let me at her! I'll come back for you bitch!"

Everyone but me and Chaos follow them out. I give Melody my hand to help her up. Her glossy eyes are flooded with tears and she sniffles slightly. There are three deep bleeding scratches on her left cheek and several smaller ones litter her arms and chest.

"I should really go… Are you going to be okay?"

She doesn't say anything, she just throws herself into my arms. "I was s-so scared." She shakes as her tears fall into my shoulder. I instinctively wrap my arms around the waist of the crying girl. This is starting to become troublesome.

Chaos stands near us, not taking her eyes off me. I look at her, my blue eyes meeting her red. Neither of us are okay with Melody being all over me. Her eyes are filled with a determined anger and she burns us alive with that stare.

I grasp Melody's shoulders and gently push her away from me. Her eyeliner has run and she looks like shit. "It was nice seeing you." I say, letting go of her. Her eyes are wide with shock as I turn my back and walk towards the door, Chaos's arm tightly in my grasp.

By the time we've reached the car Silver is in the passenger seat of Castiel's huge suburban eating giant marshmallows and looking content. Sayuri, Lysander, and Amber dominate the middle row and try to get comfortable.

I release Chaos's arm. I'm such a dick. Because I fucked up in the past I've made things weird between me and Chaos. She is probably wondering what happened between me and Melody in the past. Do I tell her? Do I have to tell her? Yes, I'm not going to keep secrets from the woman I love. I don't want to be that kind of person.

I turn around fully ready to tell Chaos my deepest darkest secrets, but that motivation is forgotten when Chaos's tongue enters my mouth. I'm shocked as the small frail girl stands on her tippie toes and pushes herself up against me, her mouth touching mine.

I'm shocked but fall to her sweet taste. I lift her up a bit and lean against the back of the car as Chaos leads the way. Her skin is soft and inviting, warm under my touch she's everything I imagined she'd be. She fits against me perfectly as her hands scan my body, she moans when I bite her lip, I fall through the earth as her body tells me what she wants, which from what I can tell, is me. My senses are in overdrive and all I can perceive is her. It feels like everything has lead up to this moment, all of my pent up desires crash into her, and she pushes it back into me.

Nothing is hidden, everything we feel is out in the open, a powerful wanting desire that is shared between just the two of us consumes everything we are. Slowly we stop, our breath heavy and hot.

Chaos breathes heavily as her fingers graze my jawline.

Something warm and wanting forms in my pants. Oh shit. My boner pushes against my zipper, cheapening my moment.

We look at each other. I love this woman. I go to tangle my fingers in her white hair, but she slips her fingers into mine first. I go into kiss her one more time, but a sharp pain forms at the back of my head.

"Ouch!" I flinch as she tugs and twists my hair in her fingers. I look to her, wondering what I did wrong to deserve the sudden pain but my mouth is sealed shut when I see the look on her face.

She pulls tighter at my hair and lowers my face to hers. Fear sits in my bones as I'm crammed in between a red eyed witch and the car.

"You," She says, her red eyes burning into my soul, "You belong to me." She looks at me as if I'm a prize. "I own you." She whispers as she lightly kisses my cheek.

She releases me and moves toward the car.

"Holy shit." I say looking at this object of power and beauty.

"Hmm?" She smiles as she looks over her shoulder.

"I love you." I say quietly as I stare at the work of art in front of me. Chaos giggles.

"Love you too."

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