Being jealous was not who she was and she certainly didn't like how it made her feel. She didn't like the way it made her angry when Deputy Radigan flirted with him and she hated how she reacted. High School was years ago and that was High School behaviour. And then there was him…was she angry with him? Sure, he obviously had flirted with the blonde deputy but what did it mean? Isn't that just him? Hell he flirted with her while he was still engaged to Wendy. Is this what he does? Was he already looking for the next challenge?
She slammed the glass of wine down so hard it shattered on the bench, sending wine and shards of glass flying, she looked down at the small trickle of blood on her thumb. "Ah fuck." She admonished herself, grabbing a tea towel and pressing it against the small nick. She looked at the clock. It was almost 830; his hour was almost up. How long was she willing to give him? That's if he turns up at all?
"Corn dogs?" He offered as she opened the door, a sheepish smile creeping over his face.
Kim put her hands on her hips "Really?"
"There is no-one I'd want to have corn dogs with besides you." He could still sense her annoyance. "Are you going to let me in?" Slowly she stepped aside and let him through, he tried to lean in for a kiss but she weaved out of his reach. Walking into the small kitchen he noticed the smashed glass and he knew it was going to take more than a sweet smile to get out of this. Kim did not follow him, when he returned to the lounge she was seated in the corner of the lounge with another glass of wine in her hand, her feet tucked up tight and her body language screamed annoyance.
"How was Molly's?" she asked.
"Everyone seemed to be settling in for a big night." He joined her on the couch.
"What did you tell them?"
"That I had a headache…." He reached out to her but she didn't move. "…and that I was feeling pretty crappy." He shrugged. "Which I do. I feel crappy because I made you feel like shit."
Kim took a sip of her wine and then handed him the glass to take a mouthful. "I didn't like the way it made me feel. That's not me, I am not the jealous type."
"Babe, you don't need to be jealous."
"Well I am not so sure. It's not like this hasn't happened before?"
"What does that mean?" She took back the glass and had a big swig to give her some courage.
"Well you were engaged before we got together." Trying not to look at him for fear that she would cry she picked at a loose thread on the rug that was thrown over the worn arm of her sofa and the last thing she wanted was for him to see her weakness. She didn't want him to see that he was her weakness.
Adam let out a slow breath between his teeth. "Burgess" She didn't look at him so he tried again. "Kim"
Kim kept picking away at the loose thread. "This is a lot harder than I thought it would be. It's so convoluted. Why didn't you just tell her that you were seeing someone?"
"I don't know. I guess I am so used to denying everything that I didn't think. I was focussed on getting the information from her for Jay. I am sorry, it was stupid and unfair."
Her voice trembled slightly, but still she did not look at him. "Do you think we should take a break?"
"From talking…yes." He reached over and took the glass from her hand; placing it on the table in front of them he grabbed her hand. "From sex…no." Kim looked at him harshly and he swallowed hard. So not ready for jokes yet! He checked himself.
"No Kim, I do not think we need to take a break. I like us together and I think, despite the fact that nobody knows about us and we can't go out with our friends and be together and I have to act like a work colleague when all I want to do to grab you and push you up against a wall, I think we have something good happening here." A small smile started to curl at the corner of her mouth. "Don't you?"
"I do." Slowly she turned to look at him and smiled. "And I really want to jump your bones….like all the time." She cooed in her best high school voice.
"Can I tell you something?" Ruzek leant back for a moment and looked at Burgess. "I am a little jealous of Roman."
"Why?"
"Because he gets to spend everyday with you, he sees you way more than I do."
"Ahh..that's sweet."
"Sweet?"
"It doesn't make me feel so lame for being all pathetic today."
He slipped one hand up her neck and grasped the back on her head, pulling her in tight and kissing her hard. "It's not lame. It's hot."
"You find jealously and petulance hot?" Kim looked at him quizzically.
"At least it shows that you care. If you didn't get jealous or angry with me I would start to think that you were just using me for the awesome sex."
"Lucky for you it is one of the many things I am awesome at." Adam started to wonder how many wines she had consumed before he arrived because she seemed pretty loose, which he did not mind at all. They had enjoyed some pretty wild nights when they both had put a few drinks away. They certainly didn't need alcohol to fuel their sex life, but it was fun when it did.
"True, true." He nodded. "So what is my punishment?" he drawled.
"It was hard to come up with something that didn't punish me also. So not having sex would hurt me because I am feeling particularly frisky tonight." He smiled as she started her little ramble. "Then I thought about making you sit through a soppy movie, but I don't want to do that either but I could do with a massage." Adam smiled at the thought. "And then…" she added dramatically, holding up her hand to push him away as he moved closer. "I realised that you would so get off on that. So…" Kim stood up. "You can go and run me a bath but you cannot join me and then tomorrow morning we have a 6am yoga class."
"Okay, but what happens between the end of your bath and the yoga class?"
"Oh honey…..you need to make me scream."
