Chapter 8
A.N. Sorry things are taking forever. It's been busy in my life.
Disclaimer: I do not own the people of L4D. I only own my own characters such as Ma and Pa. I only own the story that comes out of my head, and the plot I put said L4D characters through.
Chapter 8
Loss
It was the pain that awoke Nick. The feeling of having the inability to do anything about it, made it worse. He clutched his chest, feeling the bandaged area close to his shoulder as he did. "Fuck." He muttered laying back on the bed, pain washing over him. He rolled his head to the side, seeing Ellis at the edge of the bed, fast asleep on his arms; god damn what a damned cliche. Nick thumped him on the head to wake him up not caring if he hurt the kid in the process. "Ellis man I'm alive, I swear." Ellis shook his head from the bump, waking up groggy. "Wha?" He blinked a few times before looking at Nick once his eyes were fully working. "Hey man." Nick gave a short wave with his good hand, before laying back again. "How long was I out?" Nick asked, scratching his chest tenderly. Ellis looked at the watch on the counter before shrugging. "Only a couple hours, then yeah woke up yellin so Pa gave ya meds knocking you out for another day." Nick groaned, "Doesn't have any more of them does he?" Ellis gave a laugh, "Ma was a nurse, so they got access to tha hospital, man they got all kinds of pain meds upstairs." Ellis grabbed the pill bottle from beside the bed and popped it open. He handed Nick two of the morphine pills, then the small cup of water with it.
Nick winced, but was able to take the pills with the water. Ellis watched Nick before taking the cup back. "Pa figures one of the kids accidentally shot you while trying to get one of the zombies." Nick coughed shaking his head. "Well yeah. Don't think they did it on purpose." Ellis chuckled nodding as he watched the other, "Yeah man the kids love you, I don't know why they'd wanna hurt you." He stopped speaking, looking deep in thought as he looked at his arms instead of at Nick now. "I was... worried about you." Nick looked at the other before slowly patting the bed beside him, "Come here." The words were muttered softly, as he moved his hand away from the spot. Ellis looked up thinking it over for a moment, thinking of the ways it could go, before climbing up onto the bed beside Nick. He pushed up against him before carefully wrapping his arm around him. "Stop getting hurt man. " Nick gave a small chuckle to the statement as he moved his hand to Ellis's hair, ruffling it slowly. "I'll try to stop but I can't make any promises."
Ellis sighed softly, before nuzzling the other slowly. "I guess that's all I can ask." He muttered his eyes closed as Nick stroked his hair slowly. "Yeah. It's pretty much anyone can ask at this point." Nick closed his eyes as he rested. "Nick?" There was a soft grunt to answer the question, it seemed Nick was getting ready to fall asleep again. "I was worried we'd lost you." Ellis muttered, playing with the bed sheets a bit. "I-I was worried... worried that I'd lost you." Nick's eyes opened slowly, he looked down at Ellis his hand stopped petting his hair. "Don't say things like that... It's stupid." Nick grunted taking a deep breath. "You'll get me thinkin you have feelings for me and shit. And I know that's bull."
Ellis looked off at the wall before slowly looking up at Nick. "It's not bull." He moved so he could look Nick better in the face and get an eye to eye look. "Nick... It's stupid yeah, I mean all the crap you put me through, and all the things you've done... But I do care about you. Your my friend man." Nick watched Ellis, thoughts racing through his head. Ellis had gotten so good at fucking with his head, and Nick still wasn't sure how he felt about it. Well hell maybe it was the drugs at this point but he couldn't stop. Morphine had that effect, it put you in a state of mind that was like a daze, no pain, just numb and floating on air. He leaned down a bit and kissed the younger male forcefully. He kissed him hard, and enjoyed it, every fucking second of it.
Ellis was taken aback, letting out a startled squeak through the force of the lips against his own. At first he gave a soft moan to the kiss. Then however his thoughts raced from a startled start, to slowly dragging through the worry of Nick's wound. He didn't want to think of what could happen next, he was more worried of trying to make the man who was currently kissing him, stop. If only because he didn't want the man to hurt himself even more, if that wound opened he could get infected or hurt even worse. Ellis tried to pull back, trying to get Nick to stop as badly as he didn't want him to. Nick barely took the hint, hell he knew it was there by the way Ellis moved against him, but he didn't want to take the hint. How badly he wanted the man against him scared him, and what made it worse was the fuzzy haze that was the morphine, that made him want him more. It made him want to forget everything else and everyone else, except for Ellis. He realized however, he was acting like a few days before, and that's what made him stop. He pulled away from Ellis breathing slightly heavy, and a different pain in his chest besides the one caused by the bullet to his shoulder.
Ellis watched Nick, slowly licking his lower lip as he did so. Nick swallowed before laying back, looking away from the other. "Just get out for a while Ellis." He muttered as he pulled the blankets at his hips a bit. "I need to be alone." Nick expected Ellis to listen, and just go which is what Nick thought Ellis wanted. When Ellis didn't go, let alone move Nick started feeling like he was even more confused. He didn't want to look at Ellis, scared that the kid was crying, or upset again. Then he felt the heat leave from beside him, and then the weight on his bed shift Ellis was finally listening to him, the one time he didn't want him to. "Damn it." Nick muttered before reaching over for Ellis's hand which he hoped was still there, when he didn't feel it, it felt like his heart had fallen though his chest and to the ground. He looked over to his hand then up, and saw Ellis sitting on his knees on the edge of the bed watching him. "I'm not leaving."
Nick bit his bottom lip unnoticeable to the other, those words had never meant so much to him. "I am not leaving you Nick." Ellis muttered before putting his hands on the bed and leaning over to the other. "Even if you kick me out, I'll sit by the door. And I will stay by your side until I know you'll be alright." Each word that Ellis spoke made it harder and harder for Nick to swallow. There was a giant lump in his throat that he just couldn't get down, and then finally "Nick I care about you man. I told you that." Those words. Those same words that he'd only mentioned a few minutes and sent Nick's head into the fog he was still trying to pull it out of. Then Ellis moved closer and kissed him, it was tentative and shy, as if Ellis was still scared to even touch the man. Nick moved his hand up to Ellis's cheek, his fingers slowly tracing along his skin, feeling every bump on his skin up till his ear then the back of his neck. Ellis could feel the blush on his cheeks growing from the feeling of the other touching him gently instead of the rough way he'd gotten so used to.
Nick broke the kiss after a moment, grabbing Ellis's shoulder as he rested his forehead against the others. "You drive me crazy kid." Nick muttered as he rubbed his shoulder slowly, before moving his other hand tentatively due to the slight pain to Ellis's hip. Ellis shook his head before climbing over to the other and on top of him. "I don't mean to." He muttered as he looked down at the other, still scared he'd cause him pain by even being on top of him like this. "I'm sure you really do." Nick muttered as his hand slid over the rough fabric that was Ellis's shirt, before sliding under it. He felt the scars from the cuts, or the scrapes they'd experienced over the struggle to survive, and from how Ellis told it, all the times the kid had gotten hurt with Keith. It seemed his gentle touches got more of a reaction then his rough touches from the days before. Ellis gave a slight shiver, his body reacting to the different feelings that Nick was putting him though. He couldn't really figure it out anymore, that hurt feeling that he had from everything that happened, to the horrible longing he had for the man under him; nothing made sense any more.
Ellis didn't want to admit how much he was still longing for this. He didn't want to admit to himself, or others that he was starting to enjoy it, that would make it wrong. It would make it very wrong, However the way that Nick was touching him made him wonder if Nick even cared that it was wrong, after the time they'd spent together Ellis even wondered what Nick counted as wrong anymore.
The touching continued, the wanting to feel every inch of the man above him washed over him in longing waves. It was a mixture of both the medication and the lust from before coming over him. He wanted to do so much more, feel so much more. He sat up a bit, pushing Ellis back a bit so that he could sit up better. They sat eye to eye, staring each other down from a brief moment before Nick moved close and lightly placed his lips against the younger males. He pressed firmer as his good arm slowly wrapped around the smaller males body, pulling him closer to his own. Ellis placed his own arms around Nick's shoulders one of his hands going to play with Nick's hair, before lacing the locks between each finger.
However, the problem of Nick's shoulder started to show. Now with the pressure of Ellis's arm against it, and his body against Nick's, caused a pain to shoot through Nick's body that caused him to jump. Ellis gave a small eep and quickly removed his arms from Nick's body and leaned back. Nick gave a grimace as he grasped his shoulder in pain for a moment. " Fuck man I'm so sorry!" Ellis whined feeling horrible for even touching the other man. "I didn't-"
"Ellis it's fine." Nick muttered grasping his shoulder still. "I should have known it would happen." He sighed heavily as he rubbed his shoulder gently as the pain started to dull again. "I expected it, just not as soon." He gave a small smile as he looked at Ellis, moving his hand down to Ellis's hip again. "I'm going to take this as my bodies way of stating I need to rest and not open my wound again." Ellis nodded slowly before climbing off of Nick and sitting beside him once more, "I want you to stay though." Nick muttered grabbing Ellis's hand before he could climb any further. "Here... Just lay with me and rest." Ellis looked at Nick's hand before looking at his face, then smiled. "I can do that... I can diffidently do that."
END OF CHAPTER 8
A.N. I'd like to state I'm sorry about how long this took. Due to recent issues and complications with my heart I haven't had the time/ energy to even think outside of work, let alone try to come up with a porn (I'm typing this during class because I've taken it once already in Highschool)
However with things hopefully getting better soon, I'll try and pump out chapters faster.
Thank you for your continuing encouragement to keep posting chapters.
I love you all.
I promise in the next couple chapters you'll finally get smut again, only happy smut not that rape smut.
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NEXT CHAPTER SOMEONE WILL BE DYING JUST A HEADS UP