A Long December
Chapter 5: I'm Not Sleeping
Author: Starcrossedsoulmates
Rating: R for this chapter
Disclaimer: I don't own the show, the characters or the song titles. Rest assured that if I did own the show or the characters, Season 6 and 7 would've gone a whole lot differently.
Summary: Literati. Post Season 6 – slightly AU, future fic. One month, a lifetime of changes. Maybe this year will be better than the last.
A/N: Once again, thank you all for lovely reviews!! They truly do feed my muse!
Warning: Sexual Situations in this chapter!! Don't read if you find that kind of thing offensive!!
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A long December and there's reason to believe
Maybe this year will be better than the last
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"Where have you been?" Jess was greeted by a very concerned/angry Sarah, complete with hands on her hips, as he entered their apartment, .
Still not feeling like he had fully grasped what had happened (or almost happened) between him and Rory that night, Jess was in no mood to deal with the questioning he was sure to receive from Sarah. He shrugged and responded, "I told you when I talked to you earlier that I was at Truncheon."
"Yeah, Jess, that was almost 2 hours ago, when you called to tell me you were leaving Truncheon and on your way home. So, I repeat, 'where have you been?'"
Jess brushed off the question as he went to the kitchen to find something to eat. With all the drama from his night, he hadn't realized how hungry he was until he got home.
"Something came up. It was no big deal, okay? I'm here now, isn't that what matters?"
"What came up, Jess?! I'll have you know that I cooked for you tonight! I wanted to do something nice for you, so I cooked one of your favorite meals, and now it's ruined because it all got cold while I was sitting here waiting for you to get home!!"
Jess took a deep breath and tried to control his emotions, "It was nothing important, okay? I just got caught up with a book I had been looking for at the store, and…"
He trailed off and was quiet for a few moments as he realized he didn't have the energy to argue with Sarah. He decided that the best course of action was to apologize and try to smooth things over.
Jess walked over to Sarah and put his hands on her hips. He looked down at her as he said, "Look, I'm sorry, okay? I didn't mean to make you worry, and I'm sorry I was so late getting here. If I had known you were making me dinner, I would've been home 3 hours ago."
Sarah fought to stay mad and keep the impending smile off her face as she said, "You only called 2 hours ago to tell me you were on your way home."
She finally allowed Jess to pull her into a hug as he said, "I know, so see, I would've been home before I called to let you know I was coming home. That's how much I'm sorry I was so late getting here."
Sarah relaxed into Jess's arms as she realized it was futile to try to remain angry.
"So, about this dinner…is it still good if you reheat it?"
Sarah laughed as she pulled back just a little, "Probably not. I'm not even sure if it was good in its original form, much less if you add the microwave into the equation."
"Well, I do want to make it up to you, so I'll eat what you cooked, reheated in the microwave and everything."
Sarah smiled as she leaned in to kiss him, "You don't have to eat it. Don't worry about it, okay? We'll order takeout or something instead," her smile turned seductive as she leaned in closer and whispered in Jess's ear, "Plus, I can think of other ways you can make it up to me."
Jess couldn't help his reaction as he unconsciously moaned at the feel of her breath close to his ear and neck. He grabbed her hips and pulled her body flush against his as he plunged his tongue into her mouth, kissing her passionately. During their kiss, though, something made Jess come back to himself. As good as the kiss was, and even as turned on as he was by her words, her kiss and her body, something felt off.
He gently broke off the kiss, and as Sarah took his hand and turned to lead him to their bedroom, he pulled back. She turned and looked at him with a question in her eyes.
"Trust me, Sar, usually there's nothing more that I would want to do, but do you mind if I take a raincheck for tonight? I'm just really tired. Had a long day, and I just want to get some sleep, okay?"
Sarah tried to hide the hurt in her eyes and her voice as she said, "Sure, that's fine, I guess…do you just want to go on to bed now, then?"
"In a few minutes, ok? I'm really hungry, so I'm going to scrounge and see what I can find. If you want to go on, I'll be in there shortly."
Sarah nodded and turned towards their bedroom.
Jess fixed himself a sandwich, and as promised, a short while later, he entered their bedroom for some much needed sleep.
Sarah had already turned her light off and was facing away from him. Once Jess had laid down and turned his own light off, she turned to face him to kiss him good night.
"Good night, Jess. Love you."
"Love you, too, Sar."
They both turned to go to sleep, and Jess proceeded to lose himself in his dreams of the past.
He was floating in what appeared to be clouds. Different colors greeted him as he floated in and out between the wisps of clouds and the deep blue sky.
Blue…like her eyes…so blue…
Then, the clouds faded away, and he was lying on a bridge. He sat up and looked around. It looked exactly like their bridge, the one they had spent so much time at reading, talking,…doing other things…He got up and walked away from the bridge. The closer he got back to the center of town, he realized there was no one around. No children playing in the square. No Taylor outside of Doose's Market. No Luke in the diner. No Patty at her dance studio.
He decided to make his way to Rory's house, in hopes that she would be able to explain what was happening. He was almost to her house when he spotted her from the back. At least, he thought it was her. It looked like a younger Rory from the back.
"Rory!" he called, but the girl didn't turn around. She just kept on walking until she walked up to the Gilmore's front door. He had followed, and as she was entering the door, she turned and looked at him, and he saw that it was Rory. She motioned with her hand for him to follow her into the house. He entered her house, and she shut the door behind him.
"Why didn't you answer me when I called you?" Jess asked.
Rory placed her index finger over Jess's lips. "Shhh," she shushed him.
He tried another question, "Rory, what's going on?"
Once again, she placed her index finger over his lips, "Shhh," she shushed him again, "We don't have much time. There's no time to waste. She'll be home soon."
Now, Jess was thoroughly confused, "What are you talking about? Who will be home soon? Don't have much time for what?"
Instead of answering his questions, Rory reached up and placed her hand on his cheek. She leaned in to kiss him, and their first kiss wasn't much more than the feel of a butterfly landing for a split second.
Jess was taken aback at how powerful such a gentle touch could be.
"Rory," he whispered, "What are you doing? What about Sar…"
Rory cut him off by kissing him as passionately as a young, inexperienced girl knew how. She pressed her body against his as she kissed him. At first, he was resistant to the kiss, but after a few seconds, he gave in. She gently traced his lips with her tongue. He moaned into the kiss as it began to overwhelm his senses. They both broke apart for air but were quickly rejoined as they began a heated make-out session in the foyer of Rory's house. Jess immediately felt like he had been transported back in time to when he and Rory were 17.
He blindly tried to lead them to something sturdy to lean against for support. Luckily, they made their way to the kitchen wall right by Rory's bedroom without knocking into too many things on their way.
Jess pressed Rory against the wall as he tried to get as close as possible to her. Suddenly, he felt something trying to wiggle its way in between their bodies. All rational thought flew out of his head as he realized what it was when he felt Rory's hand cupping him through his jeans.
He broke away long enough to moan, "Oh, god!!" before he resumed kissing Rory. He began to thrust against her hand, and she, in turn, moaned at the knowledge that she was causing this reaction.
Rory managed to break apart from their kiss, and, grabbing his belt loops, led him into her bedroom. She walked backwards to her bed, keeping Jess's body pressed against her the entire way. She lay back on the bed, bringing Jess's body on top of hers.
The only thing that registered in Jess's brain was "Rory's bed", and if possible, he became even harder at that thought.
Rory looked up at Jess, and to her, it looked like he was in extreme pain.
"Jess, are you okay?" she asked, concerned.
"Pants…tight pants," he managed to respond.
She looked up into his eyes as she reached for his belt. She managed to undo his belt and was working on the button of his jeans when he seemed to realize what she was doing and reached down with one hand to stop her.
"Rory, I'm probably going to hate myself so much for asking this, but what are you doing?"
"You look like you're in pain. I figured this would make it better."
"Well, it would, but…well…I guess what I'm trying to say is what happens after that?"
Rory looked into Jess's eyes with innocence, since she had never done anything like this before.
"What do you want to happen?"
Jess shook his head and took a few deep breaths, "Bad question to ask me right now. Really bad question to ask me right now."
Rory smiled a little and said, "Okay, well, I'll tell you that I'm not ready for sex yet."
Jess nodded, "Yet…huh. So does that mean that…?"
Rory nodded, "I'll let you know, okay?"
Jess nodded again as he fought to hold back a smile, "Fair enough. So, I guess we should probably stop right now?"
He began to lift himself off of Rory, but she reached out to stop him.
"I know I said I'm not ready to have sex, but I want…I want to feel you."
Jess almost came in his pants at hearing her say those words, but he managed to reign in as much control as he could.
He nodded and managed to let out, "Okay," in a burst of air.
She moved to lay on her side to give him more room to stretch out beside her.
Once they were both situated, she reached for the button and zipper of his jeans again, and once again, he stopped her.
She looked up at him, exasperated, "Jess, what is it?! I'm starting to think you don't want to do anything with me."
Jess looked her in the eye, "Believe me when I say that nothing could be further from the truth. I just want to make sure that you're sure about this. You don't have to do this, okay? Please don't feel like you have to do this."
Rory kissed him gently and smiled, "I know I don't have to. I want to do this. I want to see what makes you react. I want to explore. Is that okay?"
"Oh, yeah…much, much more than okay, even."
Jess finally removed his hands and allowed Rory to finish unbuttoning and unzipping his jeans. He lifted up to help her slide them down just past his boxers to make it easier for her and more comfortable for him. He lay on his back while Rory propped herself up on one elbow, leaving her other hand free to touch.
She tentatively reached out and placed her palm just below his bellybutton and over the top of his boxers. Almost without touching, she moved her hand from the top of his boxers down the bottom, just skirting over his length. Jess felt little more than the air move his boxers, but it was enough to make him hiss and clench his right hand into a fist.
Rory pulled back, "Do you want me to stop?"
Jess shook his head, "No, I'm okay. It just feels…really…good."
Rory smiled, "I thought that was the idea."
Jess let out a laugh, "Yes, well, I'm also trying to make this last, too. That's the hard part."
Rory smiled and decided to try a seductive move, "Really? Because I thought this," she grabbed Jess through his boxers, "was the hard part."
"Oh, god!!" was all Jess could respond with as Rory grabbed him.
She began stroking him through his boxers, alternating with a firm and lighter grip to see how he would respond. After a few minutes, she hadn't heard him say anything else. He had closed his eyes and was biting his lower lip. As she continued to stroke him, she asked softly, "Do you like that?"
Jess could do little more than nod and say, "Mm-hmm."
A few minutes later, she stopped, and he opened his eyes and looked at her. She was having difficulty meeting his gaze, so he touched her arm and said, "Rory, everything okay?"
She nodded and kept her eyes focused on the ground.
"Okay, what's the matter?"
She mumbled something under her breath that he didn't catch, so he asked her to repeat it.
This time, he was able to make out, "I want to see what it looks like."
Jess took a deep breath and let it out slowly, trying to build up some control. He turned to look at her and nodded, "Okay."
She reached in to pull him out through the slit in his boxers, and once again, he almost came at the skin to skin contact. Once she had pulled him through, she traced one finger up one side and down the other, then around the base. After that, she traced her finger around the head, causing another hiss and moan from Jess.
She pulled back again, "Okay?"
Jess nodded, "Just really sensitive."
Rory nodded and continued to trace patterns up and down his length with her finger. Just when Jess thought his self-control was hanging by a thread, Rory asked, "What happens when I do this?" and Jess felt her tongue on the head of his penis.
Before he could help himself, Jess thrust up with an even louder moan of, "Oh, god!! Yes!! Don't stop!!"
Rory asked quietly, "Can I put my mouth around it?"
All Jess could do was nod, but before she did, he managed to get out in a rush, "This will probably make me cum. How do you want to handle that?"
"I don't know…I guess, well, just let me know before it happens, and I'll decide, okay?"
Jess nodded and closed his eyes. Rory attached her mouth back to his swollen head and experimented by swirling her tongue around the tip.
Jess continued to moan and began thrusting upwards, trying not to thrust completely into her mouth.
After a few minutes, he made the mistake of opening his eyes. The sight before him made him breathless. Rory had tucked her hair behind her ear and had her eyes closed as she was taking more and more of him in her mouth. Jess tangled his left hand in her hair and groaned out, "Oh! Oh my god!! Yes!! YES!!! Oh! Don't stop!! Keep going!!! That's it!! Oh, yeah, that's perfect!!! Oh!!!"
Rory turned her head ever so slightly and opened her eyes to meet Jess's gaze. Watching her watching him watching her with her mouth on him was too much for Jess, and that was when he lost control.
"Oh!! Oh, god!!! This is it!! I'm gonna cum!! Yeah!! Oh, yeah!! Oh, god, RORY!!!!!!!!" Jess roared as Rory made a split second decision to keep him in her mouth as he came.
No sooner had he cum than he heard a voice that woke him from his dreams.
"WHAT THE FUCK DID YOU JUST CALL ME?!?!?!?!"
Jess's eyes shot open, and he sat up, to see Sarah, not Rory, with her eyes flashing full of fury with his, now quickly softening penis in her hand. He fell back on his pillow and closed his eyes with a single whispered, "Fuck…"
A/N: Reviews are love and inspiration to find out what happens next...