Hey ppl. Sorry for the long(er) update. I had to Completely write this chapter from scratch. Well, all of them are written from scratch, but I have most of them in notebooks, and this one wasn't. Enjoy!
Disclaimer: This is such a pain. I do not own LWD. Maybe someday...
Broken
'Cause I'm broken when I'm open
And I don't feel like I am strong enough
'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away
Broken-Seether Ft. Amy Lee
Derek's world shattered at the sound of the doctors words. Dead? He thought, No, she- she can't be dead. She was just alive. I just saw her. Every second that passed, he took a step back towards the door. "Derek, are you okay?" he heard, but wasn't sure who said it, or even comprehend what it meant. All he did was shake his head.
Without even thinking, he ran out of the hospital, ignoring his family calling out to him. He didn't know where he was gonna go, just that he had to get away from there.
As he ran, hundreds of memories ran through his mind. The first time he saw her. The first time she smiled at him. All of the fights they had. All of the times he ended apologizing, even though it was her fault. The first time he saw her cry. The night he realized he was in love with her. The night he actually admitted it. Their first kiss. The morning Lizzie and Edwin found out. The day they found out that they would be going to opposite ends of the world for six weeks. The party the night before. The fear in her eyes as she saw the truck coming towards them.
He had been running for at least twenty minutes, thinking of everything that had happened, when he finally stopped. His legs felt like jelly, and sweat poured off of him. He could hear Casey's voice, calling his name. He fell to his knees, put his head in his hands, and let out the tears he had been holding in all this time. "Why her?" he yelled into his hands. "Why did you take my Casey? Why couldn't you take me instead?"
He stayed there on his knees for an hour, crying and saying her name over and over. He finally pulled himself up off the ground and looked at his surroundings. He ended being only a couple blocks from school, so he made the impossible journey home, his legs begging him to rest.
When he got home, his dad walked over to him and hugged him hard. Derek stayed stiff, knowing that if he hugged his dad back, he would break down again. He walked up to his room miserably and collapsed onto his bed. He put he face into his pillow and cried himself to sleep. He didn't know what he would do without her, but he knew his life would never be the same.
Sorry this is such a short chapter, but it was more of a filler. I really wanted to get to the next chapter. R & R plz.