Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight, New Moon, and Eclipse. It's really a pity ;-)
So, here is my new chapter:
Bella uses her new gift and hears her story.
Can she bear it or are there absolutly other things she has to deal with.
Enjoy it and pleeeeeeeeeeeeeeease review! I have to know your verdict ;-)
13. Story
Everybody was standing by the grand stairs in the living room and looking curiously at us. Edward put me down on my feet and wrapped his arm around my shoulders. Glancing at Jasper, I wished more than anything else that our relationship would get a bit closer. Now that I was a vampire, too, there was no need for him anymore to stay away from me. He smiled at me and approached. I glared at him.
All of a sudden Edward started to shake my body. But my concentration on Jasper was unbreakable. He gave me all the positive feeling I needed so much and brought me out of the hole I have been fallen in for such a long time.
Jasper got closer and closer. Then he pushed Edward away and embraced me tightly. I took a deep breath and closed my eyes, enjoying his presence and ignoring my surroundings. A yanking tried to interrupt our embracement. But then with a single thought it stopped. I wasn't sure who was yanking me; but I heard a scream of pain…
A harsh order followed, "Bella, stop that right now." I recognized Carlisle's melodic voice. Embarrassment overpowered me and I let Jasper go. This time it was easier to back out of another person's mind than the last time. I stopped thinking for a very short moment and relaxed my limbs. Jasper was standing in front of me and looked perplexed.
"I…, I'm… Em, I'm sorry. That wasn't my intention," I said with an unusual quiet voice.
"What happened?" Jasper asked, looking in a very bewildered way.
"Bella used her new gift on you. And it got a bit out of control, I would say," Edward remarked dryly and petted my back playfully.
"Oh dear," I heard Esme's voice, "you look so beautiful". Now she wrapped her arms around my neck and hugged me tightly.
"Hey, Bella, what's your new gift? Are you a little temptress now?" Emmett chuckled.
"Very funny, Emmett" Alice shot back.
Esme kissed my cheek and glanced at me.
Edward's and my eyes were locked for a short moment and then he nodded approvingly.
What's now? I thought to myself. Am I able to communicate with him only by using my thoughts? I wanted Edward would tell my new family about my gift and now he did.
"Did you hear me?" I asked surprised.
Everybody else looked curiously at us. He nodded, grinning.
"If you don't use too much force, you'll be able to place a message in my mind without controlling my actions," he explained, smiling.
"Oh, really," was all I could say for the moment.
After explaining my new gift to our family Edward came to me and brushed along my back.
His mind was very gloomy. It seemed he had found a way to shield his thoughts from me if I didn't really care to hear it. And I was thankful for this silence.
"What is it," he asked, looking anxiously at my face.
I shook my head. "Nothing, it's just a bit too much right now. My conversion, the new gift, and…," I swallowed hard.
"And?" Edward repeated.
"I see you still can't read my mind," I joked.
"No, actually, I can't; but I'm still trained to read your face," he pressed.
"What about Charlie and Renée? What's the story?" I whispered.
Edward's face grew hard and the little playful smile around his lips vanished. "Bella, I really doubt you wanna know this story."
"I have to. It's mine, Edward. Please, don't spare my feelings."
"You did not survive the accident. You did die at place of accident." Edward looked around the living room, avoiding telling me the rest of my story – the end of my human life.
I gripped his hand and placed it on my cheek. He glanced into my eyes. I saw the reflection of pain in his. Then he continued in a very low and even voice. "Your funeral will be on Wednesday. Alice is going to support Charlie and to help with the whole organization. I'm officially in Denali. So we have to hide here until we'll leave."
I glared frozen at his beautiful face. His beauty was one of the few things that hadn't changed during the last days.
"So, that's it. I am dead," I concluded.
Edward nodded slowly. His face was still a mask of pain.
"Do they suffer pretty hard?"
He nodded again.
"What about Jake?"
Edward closed his eyes, now stronger shielding his mind, and brushed with his long, pale index finger along his nose.
"What about him?" I pressed.
But he ignored me, his finger still placed on his perfect nose.
"War?" I asked.
He shook his head. "Not yet."
"What else? Edward, what else, c'mon, tell me."
"He did not believe in an accident and in your death. He is searching for you."
"May I see him, if he finds me?" I asked hopefully.
Edward glanced seriously at me. "No, it's too dangerous. You won't be able to control yourself and maybe he won't be, too."
"But he is a werewolf," I complained.
"That's exactly the reason why it's dangerous, Bella. Be reasonable. You are a newborn. I don't want to lose you a second time," Edward said severely.
At this point I decided it was time to change the subject. Maybe there would be a chance for me to win this battle another time.
"How is Jasper?" I looked around, searching for him. And I found him, lying on the sofa. Alice cared for him and winked to me, smiling. Abruptly I had a guilty conscience. Edward glanced at my face and chuckled.
"He's fine; just a bit dizzy. He still feels you in his head."
I eyed embarrassed the floor, not knowing what to say. Edward kissed my cheek softly. "You're still quite sweet when you're embarrassed, love. But there is really no reason for feeling like that. Everything is new to you. You have all rights to make mistakes."
"But I forced him to embrace me. That's sick," I said nauseated.
"No, love, you just used his gift for your own benefit. That's not sick, that's your instinct. You only must learn to control your instincts. Jasper will survive it. He still owes you."
I glanced confused at Edward. "Owes me?"
"Remember, you last birthday. Today you attacked him back," Edward advised me sarcastically.
"Very funny, Edward," I complained, shaking my head in disapproval.
"So, what happened during I was in Jasper's mind? I didn't notice anything. There was a scream. Was anybody in pain?" I asked anxiously.
"Oh that," Edward tried to hide his malicious joy; but a clear hint of it remained on his face. "You knocked Rose out," he admitted amused. "And I guess you did this with a single thought," he chuckled.
"Edward Cullen, that is not funny. I hurt my sister. Where is she?" My eyes searched for her; but without success. She was gone. "Where is she, Edward?" I panicked.
"Keep calm, Bella! She is in her room. We warned her against interfering; but she knew better as always."
"Did she want to protect Jasper?" I asked, not really understanding her action. If it had been Alice who had tried to protected her love; but what was Rose's motivation for protecting Jasper? I wondered
"I do not know what she wanted. Actually, I have not the littlest idea," Edward commented, still amused. "You seem to be our secret weapon, bringing down everybody with a single thought," he remarked, lost in his own thoughts.
Out of nowhere, Carlisle was standing in front of me. He placed his hand on my left shoulder and scrutinized my face. I heard his thoughts. They were very clear and structured, as if he was controlling every single thought in his mind without an exception.
"You know I hear you. I mean… everything. Maybe, no, certainly also things that I shouldn't know about," I started the conversation.
Carlisle nodded. His expression was calm.
"How are you?" he asked.
"Fine. No, I'm not thirsty. Actually, I've no idea how it feel," I admitted.
"You will, love," Edward promised darkly, petting my hair.
Carlisle's mind showed a house - more precisely a white manor. It looked similar to the house of Tanya's family; but it seemed to be even a bit more graceful than the beautiful house in Denali. I saw wood with plenty of wildlife and a lake. The image of a peaceful landscape filled my mind.
"Where is it," I asked curiously, my voice low.
"It's near Dartmouth," Edward grinned.
"Alice is a genius. She found the house two days ago in the internet and I bought it today," Edward continued.
"You bought it?" I questioned surprised.
"Won't we go to Alaska? And you, Carlisle, and the others - are you going to follow us?" Suddenly the image of being alone in a peaceful landscape put me at unease and there was a strange feeling of weakness. I would miss my old and my new family.
"Of course, we will stay together in your first years as a newborn. It'll be too dangerous if only Edward cares for you," Carlisle calmed me down.
But the weakness went on. My throat burned like fire. I swallowed hard; but the fire stayed. My mouth felt baked and desiccated. Sinking on my knees, the twisting of my stomach forced me to moan. Carlisle's and Edward's thoughts were identical.
"She needs to hunt. Look at her face," Carlisle thought and Edward read his mind.
My muscles tensed and for a second I lost control of my body, falling down on the floor.
"No," I whispered.
Edward kneed next to me. "That's the price, love. You have to," he informed me seriously.
My jaw flexed and there was something inside me I couldn't describe. I couldn't escape. The force was that powerful. There was a yearning for something I did not know. For a satisfaction I obviously needed…