For The Love of Sirius Black

Note: I don't own them. J.K Rowling does, as she does with our world. She rules all.

Full Moons and Losing Yourself

Lita sat in her bed trying to understand what Sirius was telling her. 'What did he mean that he did not know what would happen to her?' she thought trying to fight for understanding. Sirius knew by the look on her face she was struggling with the information he presented her. He did not want her to hurt or think that she meant any less to him. He looked at her again and she was looking out the window, "The full moon is tomorrow night. So we will know by tomorrow night if I will or won't transform. Sirius just promise me you'll be here and protect everyone else. Sirius I'm scared."

"I know you are baby. I know this is a lot for you to handle. I will stay with you and you won't hurt anyone. Remus went to talk to Severus about your condition. He says that you probably will just be aggressive but you won't transform but you need to the wolfsbane potion too."

"YOU TALKED TO SEVERUS ABOUT THIS? I BET HE HAD A GOOD LAUGH ABOUT IT. LITA THE THORN IN HIS SIDE A WEREWOLF!!!!" She screamed at Sirius starting to cry when it finally hit her that she could possibly a werewolf. She wouldn't be able to work anymore, she would be looked at differently. It was all Greyback's fault. He did this to her. He made her an unacceptable person to society. He made her half-human and no one even cared for you after you were turned. 'Will Sirius really stay with me?' Lita thought.

Sirius sat there trying to calm Lita down. He knew what would happen to her if she was infact a werewolf. He shuddered at the thought. Lita was the only person that loved him for who he was and the way he was. Sure there were a lot of girls in his Hogwarts days but he never loved them, not like he loved Lita and now she was struggling with the fact that she could now be a werewolf.

THE NEXT DAY

Lita woke up and looked at her clock, "2:45 pm." 'Damn' she thought rolling out of bed. 'Why didn't Sirius wake me?'

She made her way out of their room and down the stairs. She entered the kitchen and Sirius, Severus, and Remus looked up at her. She could tell they had been talking about her or about something that could involve her. She walked over to the stove and made herself tea, "Don't stop on my account." She said.

She did not want to talk to the men sitting in front of her. They would tell her how sorry they were and Severus would probably tell her that she deserved it. She took her cup and sat at the table. Sirius looked at her, "Severus just came by to drop off the wolfsbane potion. He offered to stay for the moon as well to help out."

"Fine." Lita said anger was clearly present in her voice, "Severus, can I have a word with you in private?" Lita looked at him. Sirius looked at her, "It will be fine. I just have some things I need to get out."

Lita and Severus left the kitchen and entered the library, "Severus, they have already said you can stay, so you're staying but I don't like it. You did things to me. Now I haven't told them all of it but they know most of it. They think the first time you touched me was in the Shrieking Shack. All I want to know is why? I did not deserve to be treated like that. I did not deserve to be treated like some whore you pick up on the street. I was your student and you were supposed to teach and protect me. Instead you did those things to me."

Severus looked at her. He knew that he should have never touched her but something in him took over every time he saw her. He did not know what it was but he knew it was wrong, "I can't take back what I did to you or how badly I hurt you. I knew it was wrong but something just took over whenever you were around. I'm so sorry."

She looked at him, 'was he really sorry? He looks like he is.', "I forgive you." She said feeling that he was being sincere. With that she walked out of the room and back into the kitchen. She took a seat beside Sirius and laid her head on his shoulder, "I'm scared." She whispered to him.

"I know but I won't leave you." He said kissing the top of her head, "I will never leave you."

"We need to get ready for tonight. Sun down is in four hours." Remus said motioning to Lita.

She just looked at him knowing what he meant and it made even more scared. She looked at Sirius, she did not know what would happen and she wasn't looking forward to finding out.

LATER THAT NIGHT

Lita could hear Remus scream out in his transformation and she just sat quietly hoping she would not suffer the same way. She sat and waited but it did not happen. She wasn't a werewolf but she felt stronger and she had a thirst for revenge and she wanted to rip something apart, she wanted to kill.

Lita got up and walked over to the door, "Sirius are you out there?"

"Yeah baby I am? Are you okay?" Sirius asked worriedly.

"I'm fine in a sense. I'm not transforming but I want to kill. I can feel it. It is strong and I feel like I'm human anymore." She said crying.

"Lita, baby. It will only be during the moon. You won't have these feelings after the full moon."

"What if I do? What if it is a part of me now?" She asked.

"We'll deal with it. I'll keep a close eye on you and I'll keep you and others safe." Sirius said wishing he could hold her.

"I'm going to go to sleep. I'll talk to you in the morning." Lita said and Sirius could see her shadow lay down in front of the door. He laid down on the other side and fell fast asleep.

THE NEXT MORNING

Lita woke up and felt normal again and she found the door unlocked. She walked out into the hallway and saw Remus come out of his room, "Morning."

"Morning, how are you?" He asked.

"I'm okay. Last night was okay. I did not transform but I had this feeling. I wanted to kill." She said looking at the floor.

"I have that feeling it is kind of normal when you're like us." He said.

Sirius was in the kitchen waiting for Lita and Remus to wake up so they could talk. Severus was already in the kitchen reading a book on potions. He was looking for something to help Lita. If he could find something she would not have to be locked up during the moon. He knew he had to find something it would mean he did not fail, which was not something he liked or was accustomed too. He just had too.

Lita walked into the kitchen and she saw Severus with a nose in a book, 'typical' she thought.

She took her normal seat next too Sirius, "I'm not scared anymore. Now that I know what to except." She whispered to him.

"That's good but I have Severus trying to find something for your aggression so you won't have to be locked during the moon."

"That is so nice of you. Thank you both." She said kissing Sirius and going over to hug Severus. He was taken aback at this, "Sorry." She said walking away.