Hey. Here's chapter 7. I apologize since it took so damn long to update. This damn computer deleted my whole chapter on the document. You can kill me for the long wait lol. (Being sarcastic there.) Anyway, I'll publish chapt 8, soon. But I'll be leaving this week, so im taking the rest of my notebook and writing out two chapters if possible on vacation. I also thank my last reviewers! Love you all!

Disclaimer: I don't own Inuyasha, never think I will, so…psh…lol.

Chapter 7!

This next morning was hell. How could I wake up and look at my best friend in the eyes the same way I always do? How could I? My heart told me to forgive her, but my mind disregarded. I woke up to a huge pain in my stomach. As I tried to sit up, I pushed the pillow down, so I could balance. It was so damp. It was so wet. I laid attention on my eyes. They stung so badly. My fingers stroked my cheeks; the feeling of the powder from my pink eye shadow engulfed my fingers. I guess it ran down my face as I cried last night. Oh last night. I wouldn't – couldn't even bring myself to think about it. Why did I see Inuyasha and Kagome kissing? The sight of them two didn't hurt me actually. It was the way Inuyasha looked at me while they kissed. I knew somehow that my life is never going to be fair. I know somehow that I'll never get my way. In my own point of view I feel like a pathetic person. I knew that this was going to happen. Inuyasha doesn't and will never love me. Kagome will never and won't ever give Inuyasha up, and I won't ever be loved…

"Miroku." I whispered. Somehow I forgot all about him. Miroku was always there for me. Other than how he was gone 24/7 trying to get girls to sleep with him. But regardless to that, he never once wanted to let me down. All this punished me, because I can't get myself to love him back. I try so hard, I still am to convince myself to be with Miroku, but I can't love him back. My heart belongs with Inuyasha. My mind doesn't, but my heart does.

'Why Cant you let me hate him?' I said trying to reach my heart. As if knowing that it won't answer back, I heard the little voice in my head speak for itself.

'Because I wont let you quit on me again.' What does it-err, I mean? I never failed myself in anything, in fact I consider myself strong bewildered.

'What do you mean?' I ask myself. My mind chuckles. I can hear my own conscience disagree.

'You are not strong bewildered. You let Naraku play games with your mind. You let him make you think that somehow you can still save Kohaku Sango, you just made yourself want to hate someone you always loved, just because of a kiss. You don't show courage, you show fear. You're scared to put yourself in pain again; you're scared to enjoy being yourself. Sango, you're scared to live.'

'I'm not scared of living. I'm scared of what's living.' I argue. You want to know a secret though? My conscience was right. I am scared. I'm scared to face my best friend all because she kissed Inuyasha. I'm scared to face Inuyasha, and I'm scared to see my own face in a reflection. I don't want to see what I've become.

'Sango…What have you done to yourself? What's made you want to hate Inuyasha? Is it because of a simple kiss?'

'No…' I scream in my head. 'It's Kagome. I don't want to betray her.'

'You didn't betray her. If you were to betray her, you would have stopped Inuyasha and Kagome last night before they… - You wouldn't have lied to Kagome and said that you didn't love Inuyasha…You wouldn't have even been in the exact room she sleeps in, if you were to betray her. Don't you get it Sango? You spend so much time worrying bout Kagome's happiness that you tend to lack on yourself.'

'On myself?' Do I really care more about Kagome's happiness than my own?

'Why are you her friend?' That question just pinned me hard in the stomach. Somehow my conscience was more of a therapist, than just a little voice in my head.

'Cause she's the only one that let me join the team…'

'No! No Sango…It was Inuyasha that did. When you fought him the first day you met, he didn't kill you. He spared you, and nothing goes to the group until Inuyasha has a word on it. He saved you, and he let you join the group, not Kagome. Inuyasha.' I paused completely. 'You wouldn't be here, without Inuyasha.' I only sat there in my covers. I didn't realize that as I had rolled in a ball as I argued with myself. My chin rested on my knees. And my knees squeezed in tighter along my chest. My wrists were white, and my throat was dry and killing me, cause I wouldn't let myself cry.

'Don't hate Inuyasha Sango…Hate Kagome.' Those words haunted me. They kept repeating in my mind. I even spelled it out in silence as I stared at the ground. Maybe once everyone's awake, I'll forget all about it, and then we'll act as if none of this ever happened. I slowly lay back down on the ground. I shut my hurtful eyes. And I just wanted to rest for a little. At least while I sleep, I don't feel any pain.

Ten minutes went by, and I opened my eyes immediately. What was the use? I just couldn't fall back to sleep. I make my way out of the room. It's still a little dark, and I can escape in the woods to think for just a little bit. I'd be all alone, and no one can hear me talk to myself. I carefully walk down the steps. Hopefully Inuyasha won't hear me and wake up. Hopefully he won't smell my scent. As I make my way through the woods, I come across a hot spring.

"Just what I need." I Sigh. I look around to make sure no ones in the clearing, as I carefully pull a string from my kimono. I take it off, and slowly sink in the water. I try to enjoy the warm feeling of the water creep up onto me. I let out a yawn. And finally sit down. It feels so good. I can feel it sooth out my anger. Maybe I feel like shit, because of all this stress. I somehow forget all about Inuyasha and Kagome. That is until I hear some ones voice. The one person's voice that I don't want to hear.

"Sango?" I turn around. I can feel the boiling rage in my stomach.

"What?" I growl out. Oops… I look and face the person standing behind me. Kagome just looks at me in those tired eyes. She yawns. I can see the small smile on her face. I growl.

"I couldn't sleep." She says. 'Oh and what? You think I can?' I think. She leans down, and puts her hands freely on her knees. She rubs her eyes. Kagome sniffles, and takes in the smell of her surroundings. I watch as she takes her shoes off. She then carefully pulled her socks off, and dunked her feet in the boiling water.

"Lucky me, that I found you." She said. I scoff in my mind.

"Yeah. Lucky you." I say. We sat in silence, until Kagome backed away a bit, and took her feet out of the water. I watched as she got up, and went on the other side of the hot spring. I knew she was going to take a relaxing bath too, so I just minded my own business and inhaled a huge amount of air, and sunk slowly into the water.

It's was so quiet underwater. I felt like I could stay there forever. Inuyasha, Miroku, Kagome, Shippo, or even Kilala couldn't find me down here. I feel so relaxed. All the sanity in me was drenched. I feel so light.

"Sango…" Sango got out of the water. She saw Kagome staring at her in silence.

"What is it?" She asked. Kagome seemed out of line for a moment. Sango waved her hands in Kagome's face. "Hello?" She asked. Kagome blinked a few times, and then brought her focus back onto Sango.

"I need to tell you something! It's so huge!" Kagome beamed. Sango faked a smile.

'Oh boy…' She thought.

"Last night Inuyasha and I kissed!" Kagome said. Sango looked away sharply.

"That's…that's great." She lied. Kagome's smile widened.

"I'm just so happy. Do you know how long I waited for this to happen?" Kagome said. Sango nodded her head.

"A very long time?" She questioned.

"Very long time." Kagome answered. Sango turned around trying to avoid eye contact with Kagome. She bit her lip, trying not to blurt out something she'd regret. Sango heard Kagome sigh.

"I can't believe this is happening!" Kagome squealed, and dunk her face in the water. She got back up and let out a huge breath of air.

"I can't believe it either." Sango said, and reached for a towel. She wiped her face, and wrapped the towel around her. Sango got out of the water, and sat with her feet only in the hot spring. Meanwhile she was thinking of many evil things she could do to Kagome right about now.

Sango's Mind-------------------------------------

"You Bitch!" Sango yelled as she threw herself at Kagome. Kagome started yelling as Sango pulled many strands of her hair from her head.

"Sango! Stop! Stop it!" Kagome yelled, trying to get away from Sango.

"Hah! NEVER!" Sango screamed. She took Kagome's head, and hammered it into the water.

"Ahhh!" Kagome screamed. "Sango…What's…gotten….into….you!" She blurted out, taking breaths and spitting out water in every word.

"Inuyasha's mine! I own Inuyasha! Sango and Inuyasha, Together FOREVER!" Sango yelled. "MWHAHAHAHA!" The raging eyes of horror, Kagome screamed continuously, and Sango kept shoving Kagome's face in the water.

Reality---------------------------------------------------

"Yoo-hoo! Earth to Sango?" Kagome waved her hand over Sango's face. Sango was just sitting there and smiling.

"Oh…" She said getting back to reality. "What did you say?" Kagome giggled.

"Nothing…" She said. Sango looked over to her kimono, and reached out to grab it. She took her clothing and hid into the woods. Moments later Sango came back fully dressed, and had the towel in between her hands, and drying out her hair. She walked over to where Kagome was. Kagome looked up at Sango.

"Let's go back to the village." Sango demanded. Kagome nodded. Sango walked over to the woods and to the path which lead her to the village. Meanwhile Kagome just continued packing up her things, and soon was beside Sango, and walking back to where the others were.

While they walked, Sango was listening to every damn word Kagome said about how Inuyasha and she are made for each other. Sango couldn't help but listen to this, since it was boiling up inside her for all eternity. She was on the edge of snapping at Kagome, if Kagome wouldn't just shut the hell up!

"He kissed so amazing." Sango looked over at Kagome. They were near the entrance of the village. She placed her hands on Kagome's shoulders.

"Kagome…" Sango said loudly. Kagome kept quiet and looked over at her 'friend.' Sango inhaled a deep breath of air, and blinked as her eyes started to water. "We need to talk…"

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So there you go. The end of chapter 7. It sucked monkey butt! Lmao. Sorry to leave it on a cliff-hanger but, I just didn't know what else to put it as. I'll for sure update chapter eight soon. I won't keep anyone waiting so long no more. By the way, I'm going to thank my reviewers on my next chapter. See yaw.

P.s. Hatorichan, i will use you're idea in a later chapter. I promise, if its possible .-

-- Soccer10is. (What a weird name)….