Chapter 9.
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Inuyasha's Point of view.
I awoke this morning with this guilt feeling in the pit of my stomach. It was as though eighty horses galloped on top of me. I couldn't shake it away. No matter how hard I tried to forget why I felt this way, it always came back at me like a raging boomerang. Karma... Yes I know what you're thinking. And yes, I do know why I feel this guilt. It all started the previous night. Argh, how I get so sick of talking about it right now. I bet this was one of the cruelest things I've ever done...I can't even come to the point to forgive myself. Can you? Then again, why should I be forgiven? The most painful part was that Kagome had finally told me that she loved me, and I can't-won't share that feeling back. Also, I surprisingly saw Sango watch me kiss Kagome. But I didn't do anything. I guess its right how people say that love is not an easy thing. To me, it's more painful than dying, and this is coming from someone that already has had many 'almost' death experiences.' I've already had some 'romantic' scenes with Sango, and the best part about Sango is that she never sit's me if I say something stupid. I won't have to worry about her slapping me or hurting me physically or emotionally...Oh god, here I go again, talking about Sango. Sango this, Sango that. I'm in love with her, I know I am, and what I did last night, was way beyond what I wanted to do. Please kill me now...I don't care where or when, just kill me...
"Inuyasha?" I stop thinking, and look over to the owner of the small voice.
"What Shippo?" I ask looking at the small kitsune. He was rubbing his eyes constantly.
"I...I had a nightmare." He whispered.
"It's ok kid, go back to sleep." I reply trying not to wake up Miroku. Shippo grunts, and slams down into the floor. "Ouch..." I whisper. Instead of hearing a small cry in which I thought I would, I hear a snore. 'He's asleep?' I wondered. Wow, surprising. Now since silence struck and everyone was sleeping sullenly again, I go back into thinking. All I can see is the face of the one person's face that I don't want to see. She's staring at me. Those torn eyes still staring at me. Why won't she look away?
"I'm so sorry Sango." I whisper. If I could loosen the grip I had on Kagome last night, I would be waking up this morning with Sango in my arms. If only...
Meanwhile
"Kagome" Sango said grabbing onto her 'friend's' shoulders. "We need to talk." Kagome looked at Sango eyes ahead. She smiled.
"Ok...Shoot." She said as if it was a simple thing. Sango sighed.
"Kagome, seriously do you think I'm playing games here?" Sango said. Kagome stepped back a bit. Sango's arms dropped by her waist.
"I didn't say I did. Is this really that important?" She asked. Sango glared.
"Well that's what 'We need to talk' Means. So yes." Sango stated. Kagome looked at Sango confused.
"Well, I'm getting a little tired then, so hurry it up please."
"You have to stop talking about Inuyasha." Kagome still with that confused look on her face just stared at her friend.
"What?" Kagome asked.
"You heard me Kagome. And you better wipe that tired look on your face, cause we may be here for a while." Sango argued. Kagome looked drawn back at that statement.
"Sango, are you mad at me? Cause, last time I recalled I don't think I had done anything to upset you." replied Kagome.
"So it seems." questioned Sango. She looked at Kagome in the eyes. Sango sighed. "Look, I-I'm sorry." She said rather feeling guilty over fighting with Kagome.
"Wait, Hold it! I'm confused. Are you mad at me, or did you just say that you're not?" Kagome asked. Sango lowered her head. She began walking towards a tree. Kagome followed suit, and they both sat down.
"Kagome, I have to be completely honest with you." Sango said wiping off the couple or tears that fell down her face. Kagome just looked ahead avoiding eye contact with Sango.
"Well, what is it?" She asked. Sango looked down at the ground, and began picking at the grass.
"Do you think Miroku and I make a good couple?" She asked. Kagome looked at the ground.
"Well..." She remarked. "Yes, Yes I do." She smiled.
"Cause I don't." Sango quickly stated.
"You don't? Huh? What do you mean you don't?" Kagome wondered. Sango inhaled deeply.
"Kagome, if this is going to ruin everyone's friendship, then I don't want to tell you." Kagome sighed.
"It's not. I promise it won't, and what possibly could ever end our friendships?" She asked.
"This…" Sango answered.
"Well, it won't." Kagome reassured. Sango nodded her head.
"I knew you wouldn't understand." She said. Kagome turned her guard back at Sango.
"Look, just tell me. I don't care what the hell it is Sango! You can trust me." Sango shocked enough, looked at Kagome puzzled. She chocked in the beginning of the sentence.
"I'm so scared to tell you, I'm so scared to tell myself this. But day to day Kagome, I feel like a nut bag because I cant bring myself to think just what I'm about to tell you. "Sango's breath started crackling, and her voice began to break. Her heart beat began to fasten, and she couldn't even say the start of whatever she needed to say.
"I'm telling you all this Kagome, because…because…I love Inuyasha." Kagome's eyes deepened in anger. She turned to face Sango.
"What!" She yelled. Sango looked at Kagome. Kagome quickly got up and walked deeper into the woods. Sango got up and followed her.
"I can't believe this! I can't believe you would do this to me Sango! How could you!"
"I'm So Sorry." Sango cried. Her nose was nearly plugged and she couldn't even talk properly.
"No! I'm not finished talking Sango!" Kagome argued. "Look at me in the eyes and tell me that you're joking!" Sango shook her head. She couldn't even speak to Kagome.
"I...I'm not joking." Sango sniffed. A tear fell down Kagome's face.
"I can't believe this! I finally get what I want, and now you have to destroy it? I finally got to brag about Inuyasha, and now you're making me stop?" Kagome yelled, she had finally started crying now.
"I'm not destroying anything Kagome! I love Inuyasha; I didn't say I am with him. I said I love him. What can't you understand?" Sango argued. Her sadness began to turn to rage. "I didn't take anything from you, nor did I destroy. I want to be happy for once, and you won't let me. You know what? I'm sorry Im not a perfect person, and I'm sorry Im not in love with Miroku, but things can't and won't always go your way Kagome! And I don't even feel guilty for telling you any of this!" Kagome walked up to Sango. It had been the longest time both of them stared at each other with such rage in their eyes. Kagome's eyes burned with sadness.
"When did it all start?" She asked. Sango looked deeply into that question.
"A few days ago…" She answered. Kagome began to smirk.
"And you saw me yesterday didn't you?" she asked. Sango nodded.
"Yeah I did." Sango relied. Two tears flew down her face. One was almost making its way down her cheek, until she wiped it away.
"Well…" Kagome began. "I hope it hurt you." She began to walk away when Sango started yelling in side the woods.
"You're such a damn bitch!" Kagome turned around furious. "You don't even deserve Inuyasha! He deserves someone better. And Kagome I even bet he gets sick of you since you sit him every damn minute, and yell out his name so he can rescue you whenever you're in trouble! This is shit talk!" Sango yelled and nearly felt several water droplets fall from within her face. Sango stood there for a moment. Kagome walked up to her.
"Inuyasha wouldn't love you any day. Besides, he thinks of you as one of the boys. Let me put it this way Sango, from now on…This friendship is over!" Kagome yelled.
"Who said you were even a friend?" Sango asked coldly. Her voice crept up Kagome's spine, in a chill of evil. Soon Sango felt a huge pain in the right side of her cheek. She looked at the hand before her face. Kagome chuckled.
"I hope you suffer." She whispered. Her smile soon turned to a frown, and she glared at Sango in pure hatred. Sango watched as Kagome made her way back to the village. Sango walked behind her in a slow manner. She held onto her bruise. It hurt…
Meanwhile
Inuyasha couldn't bring himself to fall to sleep. He worried too much about Sango, about Kagome…About what he'd do. He didn't want to hurt Kagome, but he didn't want to hurt Sango either. He decided to think it clearer by going outside.
Inuyasha walked to the front porch. And just stood holding onto the railing of the porch. He squeezed the wood hardly even letting his hands rest. He clenched his teeth.
'I wonder if Sango's still sleeping?' he thought. It wasn't until a moment, that he darted his direction to the woods. The bushes were shuffling, and he could sense a presence, or two. He didn't have the chance to think about it, cause out came Kagome.
"Kagome!" He yelled to her direction. She looked up at him.
"What do you want?" She asked. Her face was pure red from crying so much. He stepped up to her.
"What happened?" He asked. Kagome turned away.
"Ask Sango." She answered. "I bet she'll love to explain to you." And Kagome went back inside her room. Inuyasha was standing in the middle of village. He was totally and plainly confused now.
"Ask Sango?" He whispered to himself. His ears soon twitched again, and then Sango came out of the woods. She was walking so slowly and had no emotion in her eyes. All Inuyasha could make out was her hand on her face.
'What happened to you Sango?' He began to make his way to her. She didn't even feel his presence, but kept walking. Slowly.
"Sango?" He asked. She stopped walking and tilted her head up.
'Inuyasha.' She thought smiling in her mind. 'My Inuyasha…..' A tear escaped her eyes. She choked up a sob.
"Yes?" She asked. Inuyasha looked down at her face. He extended his arm, and touched her hand that was lying on her cheek. Inuyasha then took away her hand, and Sango's arm fell back down. He could see the red outlining of a slap right on her cheek.
"What happened?" He asked worried. Sango had never seen him this worried about her ever. She felt a little embarrassed.
"Nothing happened." She answered.
"Stop lying!" He harshly yelled at her. She looked at him straight in the eyes.
"What? Kagome didn't tell you?" She asked.
"She didn't tell me anything Sango." He replied. She blushed a little. Inuyasha looked down at his hand, and realized he was still holding onto it.
"Let go of me please." She asked.
"No. Not until you tell me what happened between you and Kagome." He threatened. Sango lowered her head.
"She's pissed of at me…"
"Why?"
"Because I told her that I like you." Sango replied. She looked up at his eyes. They were wide in shock. She smirked. "I was as shocked as you are, when I found out…" She said. "Now will you please let go of my hand?" She asked. Inuyasha looked down at her hand, then back at her face. Then down at her hand, and back at her face again. He slowly let his grip down, and soon let her free.
"Why didn't you tell me this before?" Inuyasha asked her. Sango didn't look at him.
"I told myself to tell you when I was ready." She said. Inuyasha looked down. "And I'm not ready, but since you asked…" She began to walk past him, and went behind the village. Inuyasha followed behind her. Sango could hear his footsteps, and quickly turned around.
"Seriously Inuyasha! Could you at least please leave me alone!" Sango cried. Inuyasha stopped walking. "Shouldn't you be happy now that you found out? By the way a little advise to the dog boy. You could have at least apologized about what you did to me last night when you were kissing Kagome!"
"I was going to tell you when I was ready…" He mocked. Sango looked at him in disgust.
"Get out of my face. You're despicable." She cried. Inuyasha smirked.
"Call me all you want Sango, but inside I know you love me." He teased. She walked up to him until she was nearly two inches away from his body.
"People change." She threatened. He smirked and moved his face right in front of hers.
"Thanks for telling me taijiya; I'm going to have fun teasing you about me from now on." And he turned away, finally going back to his room, and leaving Sango in what she wanted, some alone time…
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