Life's a Dream
Chapter 12
Strange…
Disclaimer: I don't own anything, but this chapter's in Sango's Pov.
Argh, this pain is so unbearable. I feel as though my brain might pop out of my head. I open my eyes and look around. I'm in Kaede's hut. How did I end up in here? Somehow, I try to get out of this bed. I can't though; I'm being pulled back by something, or someone…I can feel hands around by stomach. I look to see who those hands belong to. I turn around and nearly choke on my own air. I'd give anything to be in any other person's arms except his. I'm loosing control at this minute. I can feel my body tense up, and my head is spinning in circles. I try to breathe calmly, but this is too much for me. My first priority is to get out of his hands, if I ever do. The rest is yet to be known. I allow my body to relax along his broad chest, and let my hands touch the ground, as soon as my fingers touched the floor; I applied as much pressure as I could, and watched them turn white.
'Nice and easy' I repeat in my mind. Slowly I let my toes take the rest of the effort, as I push them gently on the ground, and arch my body up. I sigh. Thank goodness I made it. Suddenly I remember why the heck I was here. I remember the demon, and being knocked out completely. I remember watching Miroku, and Inuyasha running closer to me, and then I passed out. It all makes sense, but waking up with Inuyasha holding me was a little odd. Maybe something happened while I was asleep. I mean, I don't even know how long I was even asleep for to start with. I look at the boy sleeping on the floor. His back was leaning against the wall for support.
'He looks so comfortable.' I thought. I heard him suddenly shift, and my body froze. I felt a little scared. I didn't him to wake up. I blushed. He rose up and inhaled a long breath, then let his back fall against the wall like before.
'Phew. Close call.' I watched his chest rise up and fall back down. He looked cute like that. I smiled, and bent down to look at him a little more. It felt a little odd, just staring at him, but it was the best I could do. My heart was pounding, and I clutched harshly onto it, I don't want Inuyasha to hear it pounding like this. So sick of feeling like a prisoner I sighed, and I saw his ears twitch. I cupped my mouth with my hands, almost chewing on my fingers because fear took over me. I shut my eyes to count in my head. Maybe he didn't wake up. Maybe he's really sleepy, and doesn't want to wake up. I hoped anything in that moment, but since I heard nothing yet, I opened my eyes. I saw his eyes open. I silently squealed, but shut my mouth soon after. Is he going to laugh? Is he going to hurt me because I woke him up? Clearly I wished he'd do any of those except just staring at me like he did now.
'Say something.' I hope. A few seconds have gone by, and I'm still looking in his gorgeous eyes. I can feel my mouth move under my breath, but I don't say anything, it's too hard to say a word. I fear of what he'll do, and what he won't do. My body tenses up as I see him flinch. I feel strong arms tighten my shoulders, and my face meets his neck.
I breathe in the air surrounding us, and I let go letting him take over me. I would push away, but he's too strong for me. His hands go through my hair line, and they comb the rest of my strands. I forgot the whole fact of what I might look like at this moment. I can tell that my hair is let down, and that I'm wearing my slayer's outfit, the rest is yet to be seen. I can feel him breathe on my cheek, and I feel his fingers press against my side. Why's he hugging me so tight? My hands rise up and place themselves on his shoulders and with all I could, I pushed him slowly away, and stare at him with wide eyes. His eyes were so soft. They looked as though they had no more worries in them, and I could feel my cheeks burning. My eyelashes were soaking, because I began to cry. He stroked my cheek.
"You scared me." He said in a shaky voice. I swallowed hard, and replied back.
"I did?" I longed to hear myself speak again, as I did; it felt that it wasn't even mine. I sniff the tears making their way down to my lips. And I looked at him.
"Sango." He whispered, and touched my chin lifting it up so that I could reach him. He pulled me towards him, and another tear fell down. His breath was on my lips and sank into my scars. His body made my body unaware of its surroundings, and his gaze made me cry. My hand rested on his knee, and I applied pressure to it as he pulled me closer.
'He's going to kiss you, don't back out now Sango…' My mind whispered.
'No! He can't, I can't let him.' I screamed.
'Isn't this what you've always wanted?!'
'…'
'Isn't it?!'
'Not now…' I cry out. I could feel the pain coming. The pain I've hated for so long. I'm betraying everyone. If I kiss him now, if I give in, I won't be innocent. I won't be the sweet old Sango. The one girl that's only here to have revenge on her kin's. I'll be the girl that's falling in love with someone against her taijiya rule. I can't do it, I can't be so stupid. But if I don't I'll be missing out on something.
I hesitate as our lips touch just an ounce. I want this more than ever, and I'm getting it…I feel his tender touch on my own, and he claimed my kiss. My eyes scrunch together, and without thinking, I clutch onto his clothing and I lift myself on my knees. He placed a hand on my waist and tilted my chin closer to his lips. He soothed out the knots as his fingers travelled through my hair, once more. My head began to pound, and I realized what I had done. I quickly parted away, and turned my head the other way. My grip on him was still tight, and I had let go falling back on my butt. I desperately tried to wipe away the feeling of his lips on my own. I wish I could get rid of that kiss. I began to get dizzy, and I clutched onto my head looking up at him.
"I won't lie." I whispered. "Thanks." I began to sob again. He placed his hands on my shoulder, and went on his knees.
"Sango." He began.
"Please don't." I tried to say, but instead of sounding like a demand, it sounded more like I was questioning him. I could feel him backing away.
"Sorry." He whispered. I nodded. I looked at him with puffy red eyes. I'm not innocent anymore. I stood up placing my hand on the wall to stop the room from spinning. He stood up too and gazed on my weak body.
"Umm, how long was I out for?" Was all I could say? I watched him stumble.
"For a while." He answered. I made my way to the bed, and sat on the edge.
"Are the others okay?" I asked. He nodded. He watched me in disappointment.
"Sango I didn't mean to-"
"I know." I sighed and looked at the ceiling. "Neither did I." He came closer to me, but I got off the bed to get as far away from him as I could. I see him tense up. I could hear his teeth clench.
"What are you so scared of?!" He questioned me. All my guilt turned to anger.
"What am I scared of?" I said… "God Inuyasha, I kissed you!" My voice began to break. "I broke the taijiya rule, and I destroyed my future! Why can't you understand that I gave myself away to you? I'm scared of what'll happen to me once everyone finds out what I did." I looked at the floor. I could feel my blood boil, and my eyes trying to stay focused on him. It was too hard. Should it hurt to love him this much? His presence was really killing me.
"None of this would have happened, if you didn't sleepwalk." Inuyasha told me. I was confused for a second.
"What? I don't sleepwalk." I said. Inuyasha scoffed.
"Then why would you wake up in my arms if you didn't?" He asked. I looked at him disgusted. First we were kissing, and now he was smirking at me. Can't he see what he's done? "You honestly don't think I'd just take you in my arms and love you out of no reason do you?" He asked. I wanted to say yes…I stumbled.
"Of course not!" I answered. So that's why I awoke in his arms. I sleepwalk…
"Well then?" He asked. My eyes burned on him. I'd set him on fire if I could. I turned around and felt my hair swing the exact way.
"This isn't the point Inuyasha." I said. He walked closer up to me. I know I could feel his anger, for I too felt it the same. I wouldn't let him touch me, he's already got something out of me, and no more was I going to let him get another try. Never, and no one shall know what I had done. If it meant that I'd be lying to them, it didn't matter; the only thing that mattered was our dirty little secret needed to be locked away forever. Because this is all that It was, a dirty little secret. I tried to calm myself down, and hopefully my heart wouldn't skip a beat. I stumbled to say something, but Inuyasha beat me to it.
"Kagome and Miroku are heading this way." He said with his eyes full of worry. I breathed.
"Do me a favour Inuyasha." I said. He turned me around.
"What?" He asked. I could hear his question of curiosity. I looked in his eyes.
"Please keep you mouth shut." I demanded. It took him a while to sink that in, for he didn't want to keep it a secret. I didn't know if Kagome or Miroku had figured something out already, but knowing Inuyasha maybe, just maybe this secret could be held in, before we figured out a way to rid each other out of our lives. Just that moment, I heard the curtain of the hut swift, and saw four pairs of eyes watching me in happiness.
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There's chapter 13 everyone. The next chapter won't possibly be that dramatic. Hopefully. I just began reading a great story book, I don't know if anyone's heard of it but its called Twilight by Stephanie Meyer, and it's really good. It's inspired me to write the rest of the chapter, and im sorry if it took a while to update. Hope you all have had a great year, and all the best. See ya all soon, and I'll update the next chapter as soon as I can. Please review guys, I'm not asking for anything more…
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