"Hey Hermione." Ginny said, walking into their shared room.
"Hey." Hermione replied quietly. She was gazing out of the window, thinking. Ginny looked at Hermione carefully, taking in her state. She was wearing her pajamas that she'd been wearing all day and her hair was unkempt. There were dark circles under her eyes, showing the sleepless nights of the past week.
"Hermione?" Ginny asked cautiously, hoping not to scare Hermione away. She didn't want her to pull the 'nothing is wrong' thing.
"Hmm?" Hermione replied, not looking away from the window. She wasn't really paying much attention to Ginny at the moment. Her mind was somewhere else...
"Do you want to maybe tell me... you know... what's wrong?" She asked tentatively. Hermione sighed and closed her eyes. The others had been asking her for the reason she'd been so distracted lately. Of course, she'd been avoiding the question, telling them she was fine. But obviously they weren't buying. Hermione didn't blame them. She wouldn't either.
Ginny came and sat next to her on her bed. "Look, Hermione." She continued. "I know something has been bothering you. And I know it must be something big for you to be this distracted." Hermione finally looked at the red headed girl. Her eyes were pleading with her to answer. "All I want to know is what it is. I just don't understand why you feel like you can't tell us."
Hermione sighed again. The guilt she had been feeling for the past few days intensified by tenfolds. She knew she owed it to them to let them know what was going on with her. But she just couldn't. They would never understand. Heck, she didn't even know what was happening! All of a sudden she felt these strange things... These strange urges... It was so completely wrong. It wasn't right in the least bit. And if she herself didn't even understand how could they even begin to comprehend?
But Hermione knew she had to tell them something, or else they would never let it go. She looked back up at Ginny and gave the poor girl a sad smile.
"Oh, Ginny..." She told the girl slowly. "How I wish I could share with you everything I'm feeling... But the truth is I don't even know for myself... How could I possibly tell you?"
Ginny looked taken aback for a second. "What do you mean you don't know? I mean surely you must know what is making you so upset?" The girl asked with confusion.
"It's not that simple." Hermione looked down. "I'm afraid I can't tell you. But you're just going to have to trust me when I say I will be okay. It has nothing to do with any of you. It's just some confusion that I've been experiencing as of late. Maybe in due time, I will share with you the cause for it."
"But why not now?" Ginny asked in desperation. "Hermione if it's something bad... You know I will never judge you, no matter what! You're like my family now."
Hermione couldn't help but laugh at this. "Yeah, well... I wouldn't be so sure about that." She said. When Ginny looked at her with even more confusion, Hermione looked down again. "Gods, Ginny. Even I'm not sure what's happening to me. But lately I haven't been myself. I've started..." Hermione searched for the right words. "...feeling things I shouldn't. And if I don't work out my issues, I could make a mistake that could be fatal for not only myself, but also everyone in the Order."
"Okay, now you have no choice but to explain." Ginny retorted. "There is no way you can tell me that and expect me to be satisfied. I mean, come on, Hermione!" She said. When the other girl looked at her with worry, she reached over and held her hand. "I promise you, no matter what it is, no matter what you have done, I won't tell anyone or judge you for it. I promise, Hermione."
Hermione took a deep breath. Could she honestly tell Ginny? What would she do? Could she really tell the girl to not say anything to anyone? Her brain was battling it all out, but Hermione already knew that she had no choice but to tell her. She felt like she might explode otherwise.
"You're going to freak." She said quietly, not looking up. "But this has been going on for a good time now. I will completely understand if you don't look at me the same after this, but here it goes." Hermione took another deep breath and began her story. She started with a detailed encounter of Flourish & Blott's and went on to explain what had happened at the battle at the ministry. Blushing deeply, she continued with the dreams she had had afterwards and finally, explained what had happened at the clearing in the forest.
The whole time, Hermione didn't look up at Ginny, and felt the girl's mood change from surprise, to shock, to disbelief. Out of the corner of her eyes Hermione saw her jaw drop as she told the part about her dreams. Ginny had obviously expected something more along the lines of Hermione being afraid of Malfoy, after he had implied rape at the ministry, but instead she had shocked the girl by telling the story how she was lusting after the boy.
Finally, Hermione had finished her story. "So, I don't know. I don't know what it is. I have no idea why whenever he gets close to me I go so weak. So helpless. I can't move, I can't think straight! I feel like I'm not even myself. And the worst of it is, I can't stop thinking about him. Not about being scared of him, or how much I hate him... I can't stop thinking about the chills I get when he gets close to me, or how the power radiates from him, making me lightheaded." Hermione explained. She was on the verge of tears now. It had really taken a lot to admit this.
Now that she was done, Hermione still didn't dare look up at Ginny. She was deathly afraid of the girl's reaction. Everything depended on the next few sentences that would be spoken, and she couldn't handle seeing the shock and remorse that Ginny's face would be showing. But the room stayed quiet for a good minute, neither of the girls speaking. Hermione didn't dare say more, and it seemed that Ginny was at a loss for words.
Finally, Ginny spoke. "Wow..." She said quietly. Hermione finally looked up at her, prepared to wince at the girl's expression. But when she saw Ginny's face, she didn't wince. Her eyes were as wide as saucers and she was looking out of the window, a distant expression on her face.
"I know..." Hermione continued, all of a sudden feeling the urge to explain herself. "I know that it's wrong and I'm being foolish and stupid. But I really can't help it. I mean I don't even know what Malfoy's motives are. I'm sure it's some sort of plan to get closer to the Order and what I did was really dangerous. I should have hexed him and brought him in or something! I'm so foolish I put myself and the Order in so much da-"
"Stop." Ginny interrupted Hermione, looking back at her for the first time since she had finished her story. She wore a mysterious look on her face. "You're serious aren't you?" She asked.
Hermione looked down in shame and nodded. Ginny sighed heavily. "Look, Hermione, I can't say I'm not shocked up I'm going to stick to my word and not judge you." Ginny continued. "How did this happen?"
Hermione looked back up at her friend. "I don't know, Ginny! That's the thing. I'm so confused and appalled at myself!"
Ginny smiled at her friend. "I mean I've got to say that you really chose the worst person to lust after." She said, but her voice sounded amused. "I know the Malfoys can be good looking and stuff, but really, Hermione? You've hated him for how long?"
"I know, I know!" Hermione replied, her voice now getting desperate. "But I can't help it, Gin! What is wrong with me? He is a Death Eater for heaven's sake!"
And to Hermione's surprise, Ginny's smile got even bigger. "If there's one thing I know about lusting after someone, Hermione, then it's the fact that you won't get him out of your system until you have him."
Hermione's eyes widened. "What do you mean?'
"I mean, that unless you sleep with him, you're not going to be satisfied." Ginny replied, her expression getting a bit grimmer now. "Of course we can't have you do that, can we? That would be very dangerous, indeed."
Hermione groaned in frustration. "Fuck hormones." She said. "I think this bloody war is making me go insane. But what do I do now?" She asked, looking at Ginny with a desperate look, silently begging for her to give her the answer to all her problems.
"I don't know..." Ginny replied, looking out the window, a thoughtful expression on her face. "I guess you have to just wait. He said he was going to contact you again, right?" Hermione nodded. "Okay, well I say meet him somewhere next time, make sure you're safe. Otherwise I'll be here and just send me a signal if you're in danger. Who knows, Hermione... You could turn this into something good for the Order."
"What do you-"
"I mean, that whatever Malfoy's intentions are with you, if he has seriously taken up an interest in you, you could turn him into a link to the Death Eaters. We could use him to figure out what the opposition is planning."
Hermione nodded once again. She had thought about that. Of course, she didn't know whether Malfoy had been ordered by Voldemort to get closer to her or whether it was his own perverted self that wanted to 'break' her so badly. She sighed and lay down on the bed. For right now, it was better to just see what happened. She would follow Ginny's advice and wait for Malfoy to contact her.
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Just like Hermione expected, Malfoy contacted her not long after her conversation with Ginny. In fact it was only the next day when she felt something heat up in her pocket once again, but this time she saw that it was a portkey. How Malfoy had managed to put it in her pocket that day, she didn't know, but she knew she didn't have much time before the Portkey would take her to their meeting place.
Luckily, Ginny was in the room with her when this happened and she quickly looked at her. "Ginny, it's a portkey!" She exclaimed. Ginny looked alarmed and scared at the same time.
"Hermione, go! But send me your patronus if you need help. I'll bring as many people as possible." She said hurridly.
Hermione looked absolutely petrified, but with all the strength she could muster she took the portkey, which was a little galleon, into her hand and waited for that familiar tug in her belly. She didn't have to wait long for the next second, she felt it and the whole room vanished around her.
The next thing she knew, Hermione was thrown onto an earthy ground. She stopped her fall with her hands and sank to the ground. Without letting a moment pass by, she quickly got up, drawing her wand at the same time and looked around.
She immediately recognized where she was. It was the same clearing that she had last seen Malfoy. Apparently he had been waiting for her, because Hermione saw him leaning casually against the tree opposite of her. She quickly pointed her wand at him.
"What the hell, Malfoy?" Hermione exclaimed, pretending to be surprised, although she had clearly known that it would be him who had brought her here.
"Granger, do you have to point your wand at me all the time?" He asked, his voice a bit annoyed. "You know you're not going to hex me, so why bother?"
Hermione glared at him. "Well, you see, Malfoy. You have that one mark on your arm that shows you are a Death Eater. And I don't know what that means to you, but to me it means you're pure evil and can't be trusted, so naturally I'm going to point my wand at you in case you try to hurt me." She spat at him.
Malfoy chuckled. "I had no idea you could be funny, Granger." He teased. "I was obviously mistaken." He pushed off the tree and walked towards her. "But I thought that we had came to an understanding last time that you wouldn't hex me or vice versa."
"I'm sorry, but didn't you hear the part where I said I don't trust you, Malfoy?" Hermione hissed at him.
He took another step closer. "I'm not saying you should trust me, Granger, because quite frankly you would be very mistaken to do so. But do you see me pointing a wand at you?" He quirked an eyebrow at her. When she still didn't move, he sighed and put his hand in his pocket. Hermione tensed and her grip on her wand tightened, ready to attack if she needed to. But Malfoy merely took his wand out and threw it to the ground behind him. "See? Now I'm completely wandless. The least you could do now is put yours away for the time being."
Hermione squinted her eyes at him suspiciously. She looked at the wand on the ground behind him and flicked her own wand at it. It came zooming towards her and she caught it in her hand. She then stowed away both his and hers in her pocket. Malfoy didn't even look bothered by the fact that she had taken his wand.
"Now, Malfoy." She said. "Would you care to tell me why you are stalking me all the time now?"
Malfoy smirked at her and walked closer. Now he was really close to her again. Hermione began backing up, but soon came to realize that he had backed her into a tree.
"I thought we had already settled this." Malfoy told her quietly. "I thought I had already made my intentions clear."
Hermione shook her head, trying hard not to lose herself once again. But it was so damn hard when he was standing so close. His cologne was filling her nostrils and making her head go all fuzzy. What the hell was wrong with her? Why couldn't she regain control?
"I can see I was mistaken about you again, Granger." He continued. "Because you are not as smart as everyone seems to think." His hand came up to her face and he stroked her cheek with his finger. He leaned in close to her ear, his body now fully pressing against hers. "Remember the ministry, Granger? Remember what almost happened that night?"
Hermione felt anger bubbling in her, along with fear. "Remember how you almost raped me? Yes, I vaguely recall it." She tried to sound angry, but her voice wasn't as strong as she had wanted it to sound.
Malfoy chuckled again. "But you're so wrong, Granger. It wouldn't have been rape. Because I know, deep down you wanted it, too." He whispered. Hermione made to move, but Malfoy grabbed her hands and forced them above her head. Hermione whimpered in pain as he slammed her wrists against the rough tree. "And I can tell you still want it... I've seen your thoughts, Granger. You've been having dreams... naughty dreams. You want me, and you hate yourself for it."
Hermione tried to shake her head, tried to move, but Malfoy only pushed against her harder. His firm body against hers was too much for her and she closed her eyes and gasped. "Please..." She whimpered. "Malfoy, don't."
But Malfoy ignored her. "So now how could you not understand my intentions when I've made them so clear?" He continued, his mouth moving against her ear. "When I told you that night at the ministry that my one dream was to break everyones favorite Mudblood. To find your weakness and use it against you. You see Granger, I have always had to listen to everyone talk about what a fantastic witch you are, about how talented and smart you are. But I know better. You are just a worthless Mudblood. And nothing would give me more pleasure than to break you. Turn you against yourself. Not to mention it would be fantastic to see bloody Potter's reaction when he finds out his best friend slept with the hated Draco Malfoy."
Hermione's eyes had now formed tears and she felt so completely powerful. How could this be happening? The man befor eher had completely admitted to hating - no - despising her, and all she could do was helplessly cry while he took advantage of her. Her whole body had seemed to have turned against her and she could still hear his cruel words echoing in her thoughts. Fear had gripped her whole heart as she realized that this was the end.
This was it. Malfoy had won. He had gotten exactly what he wanted, because no matter what he did now, Hermione wouldn't be able to defend herself. She was completely at his mercy.
With as much strength as she coud muster, Hermione opened her eyes to find Malfoy watching her, a victorious glint in his eyes. She felt one of his hands move as he held hers firmly against the trees with only one of his own, letting the other slowly trace down her arm. It reached her body and began moving down her side slowly and Hermione felt herself shiver under his light touch. She couldn't deny the fact that she was really enjoying it.
"Malfoy..." she breathed. She closed her eyes again, fighting the urge to moan as his hand slipped under her robe and made contact with her skin. "Malfoy, please... You've already won. I'm completely at your mercy. What else do you want?"
He chuckled lightly once again. The hairs on the back of Hemrione's neck stood on end at the smooth sound. He pressed against her harder as his hand moved upward. "It's not enough. I have to have you completely." And with that his lips made contact with her neck.
This time, Hermione couldn't surpress a moan. His hand had now reached the wire of her bra and was slowly cupping her breast and his teeth grazed her flesh. Hermione, hating herself more with each second that passed by, involuntarily tilted her head to give him better access.
"Go to hell, Malfoy." She hissed as his tongue flew out to lick the spot he had just bitten. Hermione could tell he was trying to leave a mark on her. He laughed against her neck as he heard those words, but didn't stop to say anything. Instead he continued the assault on her body.
He began kissing up her neck towards her jaw line as his hand found the clasp to her bra, which was conveniently in the front and undid it. His mouth was now kissing up towards hers, moving slowly from her jaw line towards the corner of her mouth. She turned her head a little bit and their lips finally met.
Hermione felt a million shots of electricity curse through her body as his lips began moving against hers. He was kissing her slowly but firmly and to her great distaste, she found herself kissing back. His hand now made contact with one of her hardened nipples and she let out a gasp. Malfoy took this opportunity to deepen the kiss as he moved his tongue inside her mouth.
She heard herself moan into the kiss as their tongues made contact. She had been trying so hard to regain control this whole time, but even her last attempts stopped as he began to massage her tongue with his and explore her mouth. She sighed into the kiss as he began to fondle her nipple with his fingers. Hermione's world seemed to be spinning around her as Malfoy took over her every sense. She felt every nerve in her body react to him and felt the electricity shoot through her like she had been connected to an outlet. Her nose was filled with his scent and her lips couldn't get enough of his taste. She could've never imagined anything so wrong tasting this good.
Finally, the two broke apart for a second, gasping for air. Hermione let her eyes linger shut a little longer before opening them to see him staring at her intently, the smirk completely wiped off his face. Her expression changed from complete bliss to confusion as she saw him look at her suspiciously. From the completely breathless state he was in, Hermione could tell he had felt everything she had during that moment of passion. For a second, she felt his eyes search hers for an answer. An answer to why he had enjoyed it as much as she had, perhaps?
But the moment was completely ruined, because in the next second his lips were on hers again, but this time a little rougher. This did not mean, however, that Hermione enjoyed it any less. His hand was back to massaging her breast again and her senses were once again in overload.
She knew she was completely forgetting his intentions, his nasty words, but she also knew that at the moment she didn't care. Didn't care what the consequences of her actions were. The only thing that mattered at the moment was the feel of him against her and the wonderful way their bodies fit together. She felt her panties getting soaked in her own excitement and knew it was way too late to stop this. She had to go through with it.
His lips were traveling down to her neck again. She moaned again as his hands left her breast and began moving southward, reaching her jeans in a matter of seconds. He let his hand travel around to her back and give her arse a little squeeze before moving to the front again and beginning to unbutton her pants. Her anticipation heightened when she felt his fingers skim the seam of her knickers and she felt herself grinding into him.
Malfoy let out a little groan of his own. Hermione could feel his erection clearly pressed into her stomach and knew he was looking forward to this as well. It seemed that Malfoy had realized that she wasn't going to fight back anymore, because in the next moment he finally let go of her hands on the tree and brought his hand to help undress her. Her cloak was discarded of and nearly ripped off her body before she was slammed against the tree again.
Hermione's finally free hands now began undoing his own cloak as she tried desperately to get it off of him. She finally managed to do so and they were both standing there with only a couple more layers separating them. She felt him rip at her shirt and found it falling off her body, leaving her nearly exposed to him. Her bra already undone was also easily discarded of.
Malfoy quickly pressed himself against her, but for Hermione it wasn't enough. She pulled his shirt over his head, completely avoiding the process of unbuttoning it. The second his chest made contact with hers, Hermione moaned quite loudly. His bare skin against hers felt incredible. She let her fingers rake over his back and wrapped a leg around his hip.
His fingers were now back to teasing the top of her pubic area, leaving her to sigh frustratedly. She pulled his lips against hers and began kissing him again fiercely, hoping to convert a message of desperation to him. To her pleasure, it worked out, for in the next second, his fingers entered her knickers and made contact with her damp flesh. Hermione let out a loud moan.
She felt him smirk against her lips. "So wet for me, Granger..." He whispered. He plunged a finger into her, taking her completely off guard, causing her to gasp. His finger moved into her as far as it could reach and pulled out again, only to plunge in again as two. His fingers were pumping into her as his thumb drew circles around her clit, never completely touching it.
Hermione was losing her mind at this point. She had lost all sense of what was up or down, left or right. She only knew that his fingers were making her feel things that making love to any other man had never made her feel. She let out another moan and felt herself drifting closer to the edge. But before it got too far, she felt his fingers retreat. She moaned in protest and he chuckled, but she didn't hesitate to help him as he pulled off her pants, leaving her simply clad in her skimpy underwear.
For a second, Hermione saw something dangerous flash in his eyes as he took in the sight of her, looking completely flustered and naked in front of him. But it was gone within the next second. Hermione couldn't tell what it had been, but she felt like he had looked like a starving animal, about to ravish its prey. The thought of it only caused her to shiver in anticipation, but all thought was lost when he pressed his groin against hers.
Now feeling that Malfoy was much too overdressed, Hermione reached down to his pants and began to undo the belt. She was able to get it off pretty quickly and managed to pull them down. Now Malfoy was left in his dark and silky boxers with were tremendously tented. Hermione eyed it with a look of hunger on her face that was apparently too obvious, because Malfoy once again chuckled and pushed against her, making her moan again.
"Tell me what you want, Granger, and you shall get it." He hissed as he nibbled her ear. His fingers began stroking her from out of her panties. She felt him shift as he pulled himself out of his boxers and shoved hers aside. "Just tell me what you need and I will give it to you." He repeated.
Hermione whimpered. She was so completely turned on right now, she couldn't stand it any longer. The sight of his enormous manhood wasn't helping much either. "Malfoy..." She breathed. He pushed harder. She moaned. "Don't make me say it, please..."
"Say it." He hissed more harshly this time. She could tell he couldn't wait much longer either.
"I need you... I need you, Malfoy... Oh, Gods, just fuck me."
No sooner had the words left her mouth, Malfoy thrust into her with ease. Hermione let out her loudest moan yet and Malfoy groaned. "Goddamn, Granger." He choked. "So tight..."
He began thrusting into her more, as he helped her wrap one of her legs around him. This gave him better penetration and soon he was thrusting into her so hard that her back hit the tree with every movement. Hermione knew that this would leave marks for later, but right now she didn't care. All that mattered was the incredible feeling of his huge cock buried deep inside her walls and the immense pleasure it was giving her.
She was biting her lip in pleasure as he continued his powerful movements inside her. He was hitting her g-spot each and every time, causing her moans and screams to get louder. Damn, she had never felt like this before. Not once, ever, had any man taken her like this. She felt furious at herself for not having ripped off Malfoy's clothes the second she had seen him in Flourish & Blott's.
The two began feeling the built up tension in their abdomens, feeling themselves get closer and closer to the edge. Hermione was having trouble breathing at this point, because every thrust, every penetration, felt better than the one before and she knew that soon everything would explode inside her eyes. Her muscles began contracting around his cock and he felt her getting close.
"Scream my name, Granger." His whispered. "Scream it as I make you come."
Hermione moaned as she felt his finger find her clit and rub it furiously. She came undone. "Oh, Merlin! Malfoy!" She screamed as he pushed her over the edge. Stars erupted before her eyes and everything else went black. Her clenching muscles did it for him, as well. She felt him groan loudly as his cock began shooting his semen into her.
They both rode out each others orgasms, making it all last for as long as possible. Hermione gave out a last moan and slumped against the tree. Had Malfoy not fallen against her in his own exhaustion, her knees would have given in under her weight. The two stood like that for a good couple minutes, panting against each other, regaining their strength.
Hermione's eyes were closed and her head was leaning against the tree, her mind and body still buzzing from the amazing experience. She barely even bothered to open them when she felt him slowly move out and away from her. Her head was still foggy and dizzy, so she barely comprehended it as Malfoy moved to pick up his clothes, drawing out his wand from her robe and flicking it over them, cleaning them up. She saw him point the wand at her and felt something warm in her uterus as he cast what she knew to be a contraceptive spell. With another flick of his wand, Malfoy was dressed, leaving her to shiver slightly with the lack of his body heat.
He moved back towards. Hermione was still a little fuzzy as he approached her with his infamous smirk. "How does it feel?" He asked. When she didn't respond but merely looked back at him blankly, he continued to smirk. Leaning in closer, he whispered, "How does it feel to be broken, Granger?"
Hermione was slowly coming up from the buzz and managed to stand up straighter as he looked down at her again. She hoped he would help her get dressed or something, but the bastard merely winked at her before stepping away and spinning in place, disapparating before her eyes.
It was only then that Hermione managed to muster the strength to gather her clothes and wand before she dressed herself. She sighed once and closed her eyes, willing herself to not think about what she had just done. Willing herself to go back to her room and sleep before she even began contemplating what in the world she had just brought herself into. And she felt thankful when she saw a little coin light up blue in the middle of the clearing, and quickly ran closer to it, touching it with her finger before feeling like the earth was pulled out from underneath her.
"Hermione! What happened?" An anxious voice called to her, the second she landed back in the room.
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Hey Guys! Sorry it's always taking me so long to update! But I know this chapter was kinda long so I really hope it was worth it. I really liked this one, so please don't forget to give me your opinion on it! Do review please!!
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