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IT WAS A MISTAKE, PLEASE FORGIVE ME
NaruIno
Ino's POV
Why did I even go over to his house? For comfort, security,… love? I really don't know… but I had to go. When he opened the door I knew it wasn't me that he wanted to see, he wanted to see Sakura… not me… probably didn't even want me to show up. His house was a mess but what more did I expect from him? He is a pig after all! Am I being to harsh? Maybe… all I thought about was his touch… use to be Sasuke's but lately all I thought about is Naruto… but why? I don't like him do I? Maybe… I really don't know… am I just running to him for a soft and warm touch… or do I really enjoy his company, his laughter?
It doesn't matter because he didn't even appreciate my gift. He never opened it. I wanted to know how he would feel about it… if he likes it. Why would I care if he likes it or not, he probably wouldn't care that it's a keychain with a meaning. We are friends after all… and nothing more. I thought this as he sat me on his couch. Why am I cry, the tears keep falling… but… I need to know. Does he hate me? Not like me… and why? He told me he was expecting something more than a little gift. I wonder what it could be…
When he told me that my best friend use to give herself to him as a present, I just couldn't believe it… she never told me this before… I kept mine as a secret because me and Sasuke was a secret, hers wasn't… I don't think… but no matter, what can we do know? She doesn't even talk to me anymore… I suppose she thinks she is in a higher rank or something… but I don't really care.
The strange thing was that I asked Naruto if he would like me… that is to give myself to him. For some reason I was hoping he would… I wouldn't mind and I needed it... didn't I? Didn't he? I guess not because he rejected me. Heartbreaking isn't it… he rejected me because he is still in love with her… I moved on haven't I… why hasn't he? Maybe I'm falling again… too fast I suppose… I hate this thing call love… because in the end, my heart will break. It's already breaking… and now... being rejected makes it worse.
Im at home now… I just hope he opens the present and understand how I feel. I wrote out how I feel and I just hope he feels the same. Maybe he will… maybe he wont… just as long as he lets me know because I cant keep holding on with a broken heart… after so much heartache… I don't think I can take anymore. I hope he understands the perfect match we are… I believe its fate… both heartbroken lovers… at least I think… hm… I guess I have fallen. Love… such a tricky thing, a process that can lead one into a bliss or sadness… strange.
Wait… what's this… I'm looking through my papers and still see the letter that I wrote for him. I remember putting a paper in with the keychain but… oh my god! I put the wrong one! I hope he still hasn't opened it! I have to go back! Wait… what if he did open it… he'd be angry but I should let him know it was a mistake. That this letter was what I wanted to put in; a letter that says what my heart wants. 'I don't know how to start this letter, but I really seem to enjoy your company. When we embrace one another I feel as though I am safe and secure. I only hope you feel similar, but if you don't then I really didn't expect much. I just hope you know that the key chain I give to you is representation of what we both could do. We may have fallen for someone we truly desired, but we could be in love for much longer. Please Naruto, let me know how you feel for I think I may have fallen for you. Love Ino.'
I hope he understands and not get angry. I really do love him. He is my comfort my protection. Tears they are falling once again as I am running. I only hope I get there in time. I only hope he doesn't open it. This letter that I am holding in my hands is actually for him. Please Naruto, please God! Don't let him open it… Finally I'm here. What's this? I hear screams… is it Naruto's? is he screaming at who… at me… he opened it. My heart feels as if it was frozen but I knew… it was my fault… I was so nervous that I grabbed the wrong one… please forgive me Naruto… I knock the door and he didn't hear. I knock louder screaming his name as if to escape from someone chasing me or something… finally it was still. I heard nothing and I was worried. Did he hurt himself? Was it my fault? Of course it is… stupid me…
"What do you want Ino…"
Naruto… his voice is cold and flat… he does hate me, maybe not before but now he is…
"Naruto please, tell me you didn't open your present… please tell me…"
I was holding in breathe hoping and praying he didn't. every ounce in my body froze hoping for a No… but… he did, I can tell. He hasn't even open the door yet… he read the paper… it was for Sasuke… but its too late to give it to him when he is with Sakura… I should have thrown it away but I didn't… I thought maybe it would bring hope… but it just kills it.
"Naruto… that note… it.. I didn't mean to put it in there… please understand I …"
He opened the door and his face is dry, eyes red… he was crying… his knuckles are bleeding… what the heck did he do…
"Naruto I'm…"
I wanted to apologize, to reach over and hug him. To give him the paper and hopes he understands that it was a mistake. But I couldn't move nor was I able to speak. His eyes… they are piercing… it froze me and brought a cold shiver up my spine. Why… it was a mistake, a MISTAKE Naruto… please…
"Ino… I hate you."
Those words pierced through my heart and I was frozen cold. The pain from when Sasuke leaving me wasn't as painful as this. Why… because he didn't give me a chance to explain myself… and I guess… I'm truly in love with him…
"Naruto, it was a mistake please…"
I pushed the door open and grabbed him. Give me a hug dammit! You need one too! Right? He didn't hug back… but he didn't push me away either… please lord save our soul, let us be together; I don't want to be alone anymore, not again.
"Naruto please forgive me! I didn't want you to read that understand! That letter is old and I don't feel that way anymore… please Naruto this…"
Before I could tell him that the letter I was holding was the one I wanted him to read, he kissed me. I thought our first kiss would be passionate and wonderful but this was forceful and painful. The letter flew somewhere I don't know and I was on the floor. What was happening? What is going on? I can't break away, but do I even what to? I began to cry… what else could I do, well at least it made him stop. I was able to breath at least for a little bit…
"Naruto… what are you doing?"
"Give yourself to me and I'll forgive you."
Cold words that made me feel as if I was trash again. He just forced himself on me once more. Isn't this was I want? He decided he wanted me after all… am I not happy? I asked for it… right? I dunno… I can't really think anymore… my mind… its hazy…Naruto...
Um... i wasnt really sure if i should continue it like this but... i have an ending... i think lol
please let me know how it is so far ok?
maybe lemon in next chapter... be warned...