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A HARMFUL ACT
OKAY! THE MIDDLE IS WHERE THE WHOLE LEMONY PART BEGANS! YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED! just a little part though… I tried to not write too much and have your imagination do it instead…lol
I can't believe this… does she want to see me hurt more than I already am? I hate her! Stupid Ino! Stupid! Stupid! Stupid! Why did I trust her, why did I even care? She is mean to me and always will be… Sasuke… what in the world does he have that is so much better than me? I really thought… maybe… that me and Ino… nah… forget it… I guess it wasn't meant to be…
To think… every time I hold her in my arms… I feel safe… strong… able to protect… maybe she felt similar to the ways I feel… maybe she likes me like I like her… no… she doesn't like me… heh… and I don't like her… at least not anymore. She was using me from the start wasn't she… just to bring my confidence up and tear me back down… Dammit! I'm crying again… how many times have I cried? twice… no more… too much to count within one month. That's right… its almost over… dang… STOP! I SAID STOP DAMMIT! These stupid tears wont stop falling down this pathetic face of mine… I'm so worthless… so… useless…
Huh… what's that noise? A knock on my door… its her… is has she returned to make me feel worse? What is she trying to say? I don't care… I hate her… I do.
"Naruto please!"
She shouts loud to let me hear… well… I don't care anymore. I need to feel something at this moment… something she would hate… I hate her after all… she breaks my heart even more… I don't think it could be repaired anymore… once was bad enough and now… another one? From someone I thought I could trust… someone who thought… hm… I don't love her… I'm not scared… I hate her! Everything about her! Her hair, her smile, her laughter, her… EVERYTHING! I HATE EVERYTHING!
I open the door and I stare down at her because I can tell she came for one reason and one reason alone… to spite me. That's all. She says she wants to explain but I don't care, I don't care about
anything and not even her. To tell you the truth… I don't even want to be hokage anymore! That's how I feel at this point… depressed, angry, and lonely again. She grabs me for a hug… I try to force myself to stop my arms… I cant hug her or I would fall for her plot… her plan to break me even more… well.. lets see who is going to be hurt this time… I will take me revenge and it has to be now.
I forced myself to kiss her… it was unexpected to her… ha I laugh inside. I wanted to enjoy it but I forced myself to not or I would fall… fall where… in love again? Yeah… I guess that's why… Were on the ground now… she tries to break free but I'm not going to let her… not to let her know… that with one gentle touch of hers, I would fall apart right then and there… but all she did was question what was going on. I really didn't know either but this pain is unmistakably clear… undeniably here… in my heart. I wasn't quite sure what I should say, but… the words from my heart just flew out.
"Give yourself to me and I'll forgive you."
Am I really going to forgive her? Give her body to me? Well… I guess it was okay since she nodded her head… I think… I wasn't sure because my mouth just went all over her face. I kissed every where… from her forehead to her collarbone. She seems to be quivering… is she crying now? I wonder if I'm… heck I don't care! Why should I? she deserves this right? Hate is a hard thing to change… am I right?
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I ripped off her clothes and threw it somewhere on the floor. She was shocked as I can tell by her expression. Her body… it was beautiful… her breasts were just the right size for me to grab and her skin was soft, smooth… She has some kind of scare on her thighs though… but I don't care… well… maybe I do but I should just continue…
I licked her neck down to where the middle of her breasts was and grabbed her right breast. I start to lick the left nipple for a little while before I started to suck them. She seems to be enjoying it… I think she is because she grabbed my face and pulled it in. Oh well… if she did or didn't… does it really matter? I moved my face to the other breast to suck on it when she tried to get up. I was confused at what she is trying to do, I'm not about to let her run off without giving me what I want! Doesn't she want forgiveness? Of course she does!
I grabbed her arms and pinned her to the ground so she wasn't able to move. Her legs… they were long and smooth… my hands… it's as if it has a mind of its own… They went slowly up her legs causing her to shiver. I notice her looking away with tears… I hesitate but why? I hate her! Remember? I think I do… no of course I do! I pushed my fingers in her cunt. She screams as I pushed it in and out of her. She screams so loud that I was I little scared someone would show up, but you know what? I really didn't care all that much. She didn't squirm or tried to leave anymore… so it means she wanted it… right? Well it doesn't matter! I kept at it til she orgasm… then next was for me to enter right? Well… I just wanted this to end… her pain… her face… it was all too harsh to watch… what am I doing? I don't really know… but… I did enter…
She was tight and I must have gone in too fast because she screamed… it sent chills down my spine… but… I need to finish... so I pushed in and out over and over… I felt pleasure… yeah…
but it seems to be so strange a feeling… mixed I suppose… pleasure, anger, sadness, and ecstasy…
I wasn't really sure what happened but… were in bed now… I thought we were on the floor… my body must have a mind of its own because… I really have no idea what happened. I open my eyes to see her there… she looks so sad… no… I know she is sad and angry… what the hell did I do? Wait… of course… I knew what I did… I used her like he did… I'm no better… and to think I thought I was so much better but… I'm worse… she was broken and now… even worse… she deserved this right? She was asking for it! She knew what she has done to me and this is payback! But… I'm not happy… I am even worse than I was before… man pathetic… I reach my arms around her to hug her… she didn't seem to move. I wonder if she is sleeping. Was I too hard on her? Is she angry? Hm… I guess I do care… but… I hate her, remember? She did what she did to me… so this is vengeance… probably the worse kind… I'm so shameful…
I pull in closer to her and she flinched. I guess she is awake… she must be hurting… I think I was too forceful on her… damn... poor Ino… stupid, STUPID ME!
"Ino… I'm sorry… I didn't…"
She got up and left… she grabbed the sheets that was covering her and walked off. I should run after her, but… she probably doesn't even want to see me after what I did to her… She closed the door and I felt like everything is so empty… the room… the bed… my heart… What the hell did I get myself into? I don't want to be alone… I had the chance and I blew it… shoot… but didn't they say that when you lose something… you can always find it again? Maybe… just maybe… if I find Ino… she would actually be generous enough to look at me… and listen… and maybe… what we could be… can…
I grabbed my clothes and put them on in a hurry as I rushed to find her. Before I left, I notice her clothes still on the floor. She didn't take it? She left with only my bed sheet? I pick up the clothes and realize something… a paper? I read it… strange… I'm smiling… and crying at the same times. It says 'I don't know how to start this letter, but I really seem to enjoy your company. When we embrace one another I feel as though I am safe and secure. I only hope you feel similar, but if you don't then I really didn't expect much. I just hope you know that the key chain I give to you is a representation of what we both could do. We may have fallen for someone we truly desired, but we could be in love for much longer, you and me. Please Naruto, let me know how you feel for I think I may have fallen for you. Love Ino.'
Oh my god! She was trying to tell me, but I…! Damn I am a total fool! I hate myself! Ino… Ino! I got to see her! Apologize! Ino please… wait for me… I'm sorry…
I ran and ran… I ran to the flower shop hoping she was there but she wasn't… I ran to her house but she wasn't there either… where the heck are you Ino? Is she trying to commit suicide? NO! she cant! I ran as fast as I could to the bridge, but she wasn't there. I ran to the cliff but… she wasn't there neither… Ino… what the hell did I do! So stupid… Wait! Didn't she tell me? One time when we were hugging one another, she told me she would go to the far south of the village. There is a tree she loves to sit under to think things over about her life and everything else. She has to be there! She has to! I ran once again… Run Naruto! Run Dammit! It screamed and screamed in my head until finally… I'm here. I found the tree with the pretty red color but she wasn't there. Am I… too late? I sat here under the tree she said… crying feeling sorrow, regret, anger, depression, and all else that follows.
"I'm sorry Ino.. I'M SORRY!!"
I screamed from the top of my lungs… all I could think about… all I could hope for… all I wanted to hear was her voice…
"Naruto…?"
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